Just A Daydream Away

          "just like a phoenix, I too shall rise from the ashes of my self-destruction"

[discoursedrome]

nothing is worse than software that tells people when I’m online or when I read their message or when I’m typing something. I always want to be as unknowable in my silence as god

[ruegracieuse]

I love being a lone girl at the airport… mysteriously getting a coffee… mysteriously reading my book… lining up at a mysterious gate waiting for my mysterious departure

[eva-mei-10]

All Too Well (10 minute version) | Lover

[sodiumchlorideair]

sometimes you gotta step into the daylight and let it go and other times you gotta use that boating license and kill the mf who cheated on your best friend and then murdered her

[doggosource]

when u call for ur dog n u hear the lil pap pap of their feet as they come to u

[scrios-fein]

Ever since the Red re-recording was announced I haven’t been able to stop thinking about the difference between the me who heard the red album for the first time in 2012 and the me who will be hearing the red album for the first time again, in 2021.

In 2012, I was 15 years old and extremely depressed. I was self harming every night. I had no hopes, no plans for my future, no dreams. I didn’t think I would make it to my 18th birthday. Red, as an album, is about heartbreak and pain and feeling miserable while also celebrating the highs and joys of life. It very quickly became my most played album, and to this day is still the album I think represents me the most. It reminds me sometimes everyone feels hopeless and like they can’t go on another day, and that that’s okay. It reminds me there is always something worth fighting for, worth waking up another day for. I honestly believe this album helped me find the strength to survive the worst years of my life.

And now, in 2021, I made it. I’m 24 years old and I got to sing along at full volume to 22 on my birthday two years ago. I have two first class degrees in my favourite subject, after thinking I would never even pass sixth form. I was lucky enough to start working at my dream job during a global pandemic. I spent years thinking I was unlovable and now I have an amazing partner who has accepted me completely for who I am, scars and faults and all. He reminds me every day that I am worthy of good things.

But most importantly, I’m happy. I never thought I would be able to say that and mean it, but I am. I know that listening to Red for the first time again after associating it with my depression for so many years is going to be extremely tough but I can’t wait. I can’t wait to sing and laugh to the songs I used to cry on my bedroom floor to. I can’t wait to make positive associations and memories with my favourite ever album.

@taylorswift , thank you for giving me a reason to live.

[taylorswift]

I know some of you thought that would be like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer BUT…you played it good & right. Congrats pals, you guessed the correct titles and feature artists on Red (my version). The vault tracks will feature Chris Stapleton, Phoebe Bridgers, Mark Foster and the first song Ed Sheeran and I ever wrote together the first time we met in 2012❗️I can’t express my gratitude enough to these artists for helping me bring these songs to life. I can’t wait til we can dust off our highest hopes and relive these memories together. We’ll also be making a bunch of new ones too, since Red (Taylor’s Version) includes so many songs you haven’t heard yet. Til then, I’ll be counting down and picturing it all in my head. In burning red.

Red (Taylor’s Version) out November 19. Pre-order now: http://Taylor.lnk.to/redtaylorsversion 

[blushingallthewayhome]

“I’m doing good, I’m on some new shit” is simply the best opening line ever put on an album

[fluentinswiftsongs]

Albums OWNED by Taylor Swift; welcome home Red.

[swiftful-thinking13]

red tv is gonna hit different knowing that she once believed love would be burning red but it’s golden like daylight

[mentalmath]

these two photos of taylor shaped a generation

[coldspellwizard]

Chronic pain things:

Can't sit with my legs crossed up under me because my knees hurt,

Can't sit with my legs with my legs out because my hips hurt

Can't lay down because my back, or my shoulders, or my hips again

[jugurtti-deactivated20210925]

[takeawaythepain]

i’m so tired of being stuck in this body that refuses to work. as bad as it is now, it’s only going to get worse with age. how tf am i supposed to do this for the rest of my life?

[coveredinyou]

me in the beginning of 2020:

me at the end of 2020:

[iftye-npq]

on all levels except physical im drunk in the back of the car and i cried like a baby coming home from the bar (woah) said im fine but it wasnt true i dont wanna keep secrets just to keep you

[rodrickheffeley]

me creating alternate universes in my mind before going to sleep: