ScriptedMink

The opening of little doors, slamming loud in our thoughts...

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I forgot how to care so I screamed instead

You forgot how to scream so you ran instead

I want to remind you I still hate you

That I won’t forget

My mouth still dry

My blood still wet

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It’s never me

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I don’t really like you and I think you smell like farts

Your facial hairs uneven

And you really suck at art

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I’m not happy for you

I hope your Christmas f*cking sucks

I hope you drop your engagement ring

And it gets eaten by a duck

I hope everything turns to sh*t for you

And you come crying to me

So I can pat you on the back

Internally I’ll smile with glee

Then I’ll coo “it’ll be okay”

As I smile condescendingly

Because while you always put me last

When it goes to crap so quick and fast

I’m the person you’ll run to with a sob and gasp

So stop pretending your life is perfect

Like you’re the only one who’s ever worth it

Rubbing it in my face and expecting me to cheer

I’m congratulating you but it makes vomit rear

My stomach turns when your happiness is near

I guess I’m just a spiteful b*tch

While you pretend to be the good little witch

I’m the winter air you shiver and chill in

I guess every sickening fairytale needs a villain

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I would rather be caught in your flames with you

Than billow endlessly in the bone-chilling distance between us

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I am a riot

I am a ghost

I am the place I go the most

Inhaling silence

Exhaling woe

Crash in the forest

Swim in the moat

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Casual just doesn’t suit romantic souls

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Best is to begin again

Blatantly unmissable

That you are no longer you

And that’s okay

Best is to begin again

The black hair dye

The black nail polish

The black earrings

Because we are grieving now

Grieving the version of ourselves

That did not deserve love

That version no longer exists

But we don’t know yet what the next version will be

Best is to begin again

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How many times must I say I know you

Before you stop walking in the wrong direction

Stumble over your heels

And fall into me?

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I screamed into the rain

An unwavering blizzard

An unnatural entity

A faulty storm

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I will never beg anyone to stay

Ever again

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I am loveable

In small doses

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Sugar

You know sugar

Sweet and binding

A little bit and you want a little more

A lot actually

Warm energy consumed

Enveloped in excitement

Savouring you

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You pick the game

You know I’ll play

You be the archer

I’ll be the prey

I wonder if your brow furrows in just the same way

Your wit is fast

Your cheeky laugh

Do you remember the stone,

We could speak in echo?

We maybe never realised that those days

Were the last of our childhood

Then adulthood glazed

Over, it reached us

You know it beseeched us

We faked dislike back then

On the brink of growing up

We played pretend

The kid in the courtyard

With the floppy rust hair

The girl with fair locks

Bound by fear

Edge a little closer

Let me draw you near

Just a short while longer

After so many years

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Here’s to forever and ever

5am feeds

I’ll wake up happy when you wake up with me

Here’s to forever and ever

My fluffy footed friend

You won’t be there when I go

But you’ll be waiting for me at the end

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I turn up the music

Try to obliterate your delicate features from my mind

A hug that is just a plane ride away is never too much for me

I curse myself for hoping

That you might want me to cross the sea and see you

I will never doubt you again

Even though you aren’t mine

I still sat up and told a family member about the intricate lines you draw

To create another plain

Still a favourite person of mine

Even though I am not yours

How my friends would make you laugh

How I’d tuck you in when you can’t see straight

Or stand straight

I’d be the man to hold you up when you need me to be

I’d be the woman to careless your sorrows until you fall asleep

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I will love you stubbornly, unconditionally

and forever more