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This lifetime my heart is reserved for you ❤️

Whether here, or there, or far, or off with another, the heart always remembers the one

Outside POV

I’ve always felt like an outsider, disconnected from the usual path. It’s a part of my identity, this sense of living life on my own terms, driven by my own consciousness. Traditional education never clicked for me as a child, and I can’t imagine sitting through classes long enough to earn a degree. I prefer to learn through experience, which has taught me far more about awareness and self than any public school curriculum ever could. What they teach in schools feels narrow, designed to mold us into the same shape. But I’ve never wanted to blend in. Following the crowd bored me. So, I chose a different path—a path where I listen to how I feel, embrace my individuality, and commit to being unapologetically myself.

Traditional jobs never resonated with me either. I struggled to settle on a single career path, constantly changing my mind because I could envision myself in so many different roles. The idea of limiting myself to just one thing feels impossible—I thrive on exploring multiple hobbies and interests. I’ve come to realize that my purpose isn’t tied to a specific job but to my own presence and existence. My approach to "making money" doesn’t follow the conventional path. Currently, I help manage a cannabis shop, which is a dream come true. My next dream is to help others heal themselves and expand their awareness.

#outsider #pov #consciousness #conscious #awareness #divinity #spirituality

I'm going to church tomorrow. Last time I was in church was for Mother's Day in 2012. It didn't go well. The preacher told the audience that "most of us know that being gay is a sin" and it hurt me. I went up to the preacher afterward and told him it was hurtful. It was such a tough time driving home that morning with my Mom. I embarrassed her by going up to the preacher. She made a lot of comments that hurt me, "the devil is in your head messing with you". She wasn't wrong, though. (That's a long story). Regardless, what ended up being my mother's day gift to my mom just turned into an argument. Defending my right to be myself caused us both pain. On her side, she truly believed and still does to some degree that the way in which I love will be the way I am tortured when I die. It's just what she was taught. And I can see how protective of me she is, by not wanting that to happen. And at that time in 2012, my mom wasn't able to hear any of my side. She was concerned about my death as usual. But, we have come a long way! And no matter what she thinks of me, I'm unable to stop loving her. She stole my heart when I was a kid, it'll forever be hers. I love her so much. This one is in Santa Fe, New Mexico. It's non-denominational. They speak about Oneness with all. I believe I'll have a better experience here than the church 12 years ago in Pennsylvania. Sometimes it can take years to open up new experiences. To trust again. To take chances. To be brave enough to give something another chance. 🤞🏼

#churchtrauma #healing

#healingjourney

If you want to understand me more, this is my moon sign and it's quite accurate to me.

#cancermoon #cancer #feelings

#cancermoon #cancer #cancersign #moonsign #depth #feelings #emotions #Youtube

Being loved for who you are, your flaws and all, your authenticity, is rare and underrated

No one talks about the trauma after a hit and run

I look up in the rear view mirror and a car full speed comes crashing into Freddie, sends my car flying into the middle of the intersection.. so it's shocking, but the part when the person speeds off unconcerned about your well being, I think that's the weirdest part...

25 posts!

#25 posts #tumblr milestone

Can I start over if I stop

In your heart a memory stays just as alive as the present moment. This is when I found myself in another place at another time. Remembering about all the talks, the smells, the tastes, as if we had just met all over again. Although time has passed, I'm going to keep this with me as if it doesn't end

#thoughts #reflections #childhood #20yearsago

It's a beautiful life! Most of my personal dreams have come true. Everything I have in my life right now is a manifestation of something I truly wished for.

As I reflect on my life, all of the ups and downs, I see a balance with where I am now.

For my birthday last year I intended to have a year of total transformation and healing. That definitely happened! The year was exhausting, yet many rebirths and challenges helped me to heal at an accelerated pace.

Year 37 intentions:

Inner peace, joy, abundance, confidence, successful business. It's all I can ask for. This year I'm slowing down, and still making an impact on my personal growth.

What will you remember

Will you remember me

Made a mess

Will you remember

Me

Looking at me

What will you see

Will you even remember

Me

Left myself, and that's when I left you

Denied myself so I denied you too

I ran from all the things that I love,

Basketball, myself, my first love

How could I

Just run off and hide

How could I just put it all aside

Leaving cut like a knife

Lost in a spiral all alone crying,

Running away from dying

All along I knew it was you

Couldn't look back, what would I do

Pick myself up just to fall back down

How can I find you again

I'm here all along

I kept you in my heart, the place you belong

If I stayed I would have hurt you

And that's something I just could not do

Hurt myself and took you with me

All I can say, all I can say, is, this is my apology....

I'm sorry

Join me at the same time no matter where you are. So long as we synchronize at the precise timing with the intentions for peace and love, it will be our blessing🙏

Visualize peace, love and a place of harmony. We can have it 🙏❤️🌍

#peace #peacemeditation #collectivemeditation #peacefulmeditation #galactic #love #unity #endsufferingnow

The year of yoga

One year of every day yoga is now complete! Last October I challenged myself initially to 3 months, but could not stop! I am way more flexible and feel much better in my body!

Yoga helped me get closer to loving my body