I just logged on for the first time in forever bc I suddenly worried about not having seen anything from a friend who I knew had health problems in a hot minute, and everything seems to be okay, but just opening my inbox and seeing the names of all my old friends has me in a mode of like mourning for the friends who are no longer in my life. My old self. How social and how easy it was for me to message people and chat. Everyone I've lost to time and because of my lack of self worth keeping me from maintaining friendships. I know tumblr's mostly died, so I don't know which of my friends are still here, but like like this or message me or something. I really do miss people













