I am tired. To you I will always be an experiment. When I inject a chemical into myself every single day just to feel safe in my skin, I will always be confused. When I bind my chest and hide my body, I will always be mentally ill. When I train my voice and cut my hair, I will always be phase. When I try my hardest to be myself, I will always be a predator. When biologically my brain has more male characteristics I will always be a product of social media. When I naturally have more testosterone in my body I will always be an attention seeker. When I go into the women's bathroom I will be a creep. When I go into the men's bathroom I will always be a fake. When I go into the gender neutral bathroom, I will always be taking away a facility made for those with disabilities. When I have opinions I always be autistic. When I feel romantic attraction to anyone I will always be a groomer. If I am straight I am a lesbian. If I am gay I am straight. If I am bi then I am greedy. When it all gets too much and I attempt to end my own life, when I attempt to end a human life, a life that has potential, a life that as saved others and could save more, when I try to end a life that means something to people, that has made an impact on other humans. I will always be better off dead. I will always be non-committed for calling the ambulance. I will always be transgender.


















