SPOTLIGHT

Female | 26 | Doctor (what? when did this happen?) | Constantly underleveled for life | This is my personal blog on which I post personal stuff and whatever I'm feeling at the moment. Nothing fancy, just day-to-day.

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Finland has some serious 2005 nu metal vibes going on

/random eurovision post of the year

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Mass Effect Legendary Edition – Official Teaser Available Spring 2021

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With everything going in the world, I had completely forgotten about N7 day. Imagine my surprise when I randomly check the trending page here on Tumblr and see that we're actually going to get a remaster. Fucking yes, this day just keeps getting better.

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CYBERPUNK 2077 (2020) DEV. CD Projekt Red

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I just checked and the first teaser trailer was released almost exactly 7 years ago...seven..fucking..years. I've spent almost my entire twenties waiting for this game lmao. I can't believe this is coming out in 4 months.

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Pulp Fiction (1994)

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I love Czech Republic

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i loled

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things Game of Thrones, season 8, episode 5 did right:

the Tyrion/Jaime scene. now, I don’t agree with Tyrion’s plan to release Jaime to save Cersei, but I did really like the raw emotion and chemistry that appeared in that scene. I cried. I think, even though that particularly situation was unnecessary, the scene was perfect

the POV of the people, the innocents, of King’s Landing during the attack. we so so often forget about everyone else in the Seven Kingdoms that go through the show nameless. showing their perspective, what this game of thrones is doing to their livelihoods, is really thought provoking.

The Hound convincing Arya to live. now. I had all but come to terms with the idea that this episode I would see Arya die. am I happy that she lived? yes. am I convinced that that’s how the show should’ve gone? not necessarily. however, the scene between Arya and The Hound is really touching and I think it nicely tied off their story line together.

similarly, The Hound and The Mountain fighting and dying together by way of fire. in my mind, there was really no other way for their characters to die and personally, I can’t think of a better way.

Jon realizing he Fucked Up. when Dany has won the battle but then decides to burn King’s Landing (in character, I might add, but we won’t discuss this because it’s so rushed and not flushed out that it might as well not be in character) ANYWAY and Jon is just like “….oh shit” because blindly following a leader of any kind can and will lead to many people dying. that’s fact. (also Jon realizing that he’s fighting a battle that isn’t a fight for freedom anymore, but pillaging, and still tries to be a Moral Man. that’s some good shit. that’s very Jon of Jon.) 

Tyrion speaking Valyrian poorly because he probably learned when he was a wee lad and hasn’t had to use it for literal years and now he’s in a position where it’s either speak the foreign language or your brother dies and honestly I relate. not to the brother dying thing, the language thing. 

Varys dying. don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed the Master of Whisperers and his antics, but I think his death was well timed and Extra af 

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my thoughts exactly

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Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust

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this was beautiful though.

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like i’m a little bit pissed actually. so far i had been quite hopeful. i got the criticisms aimed at the previous episodes but i still really enjoyed them. but after this episode i can’t see a way this won’t end in a fucking mess. i also can’t see the actors actually be okay with the writers decisions (characters Jaime, Tyrion, and Dany especially). what’s sad is it’s going to be difficult to go back to watch earlier seasons knowing where it all ends up. 

seriously the only things i liked were the scene between Tyrion and Jaime, and Arya’s struggle to get in and out of King’s Landing. and i guess the whole thing was beautifully shot and the music was great, but that’s never been an issue for game of thrones. 

i’ve said my piece i guess. mind you this is me straight after watching the episode, so the emotions are running a bit high atm. 

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well this was a depressing episode...

i can kind of get the reasoning behind what Dany did but man, they really did wash 10 years of character development down the drain with Jaime. 

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so i finally got round to watching the latest episode of game of thrones and i have some thoughts...

also this is all massive spoilers and i’m not putting it under the cut so you have been warned...

the funeral scene hit me way harder than i thought it would. like i was sobbing, and most of them were characters i didn’t even really care that much about! what i could have done without though was the death montage right before the opening credits. like...did they think we forgot who died? really?

nice play by Daenerys giving Storms End to Gendry. a bit transparent, but nice.

speaking of Dany, i’m feeling so conflicted this season. like it breaks my heart that her most loyal companions are essentially gone and she’s suddenly found herself all alone. but i also like that people are standing up to her (and by people i mean Sansa...which brings me to my next point...)

i am absolutely loving Sansa this season.

yay Brienne and Jaime. i lauged out loud at Tormund speaking to Clegane of all people.

enjoyed Clegane and Sansa’s little conversation there. 

happy they didn’t make Arya do a one-eighty and accept Gendry’s proposal. also i think he was getting a little ahead of himself there. i have a hard time believing it was actual love, and not the elation of winning the battle talking.

i’m not sure if i would have preferred seeing the reaction of the Stark girls or if i like it the way they left it. Sansa’s reaction i predicted but Arya? how to interpret leaving Winterfell and never going back again?

Bronn went as fast as he came...

man those goodbyes were tough...Tormund, Sam, and Ghost. sobbing again. 

shocker, Dany lost another dragon. no really it was a shocker. at first i thought they were already going towards King’s Landing and was thinking why the hell are they so out in the open. but then the realisation came...their forces are dwindling fast. 

haven’t had a conversation between Tyrion and Varys in a while. good one.

and for the first time in years...fuck Jaime. like it wouldn’t have been as bad if he had just been planning to go back south anyway but to do that to Brienne...i don’t even know. 

Cersei is such a fucking bitch i can’t see how anyone could root for her at this point. like she’s straight up evil. 

that scene with Missandei was intense, even though i already knew what would happen (got spoiled that bit), sad for Grey Worm :(

overall i really liked this episode! i love how they’re slowly nudging Dany over the edge. she’ll be full on mad king in the next episode (burn them all anyone?). i appreciate them closing the WW storyline midway through the season. the more i think about it the more i feel like it would be bext to watch seasons 7 and 8 back to back in one long ark. 

and now onto watching any and every behind the scenes/reaction video on youtube!

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Just finished watching GoT first episode of season 8. Some thoughts (not really spoilery so I won’t bother putting it under the cut)...

- Loved the parallels to first season. 

- I actually find Dany and Jon quite cute together. Will be all the more disappointing when shit inevitably hits the fan with those two. 

- Yay dragons!

- I fully enjoyed Sansa’s mood this episode.

- That ending with the Night’s Watch men though, eek...

- Man, Sam’s reaction was heartbreaking.

- Ew Euron. 

- Yay Theon!

Overall it was kind of a slow burn episode but at the same time shit did happen. Basically anyone who is anyone made an appearance. Supposedly there’s a battle next episode? (might be wrong, I caguely remember reading something somewhere). I cannot wait, but I also don’t want it to end. 

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I randomly watched Twilight tonight for the first time in years. I think it's the only one of the movies that I remember genuinely liking "back in the day". I still did like it this time around, despite the awkward dialogue and close ups on awkward expressions, lmao. I really enjoyed the soundtrack (reminded me of a few songs that used to be on my old playlists that I had forgotten about), and the whole sulky green-blue forest aesthetic they had going on. I don't know, I feel like the first movie has a kind of spark that the next movies failed to capture, even though the budget was lower. It has a major nostalgia factor for me as well. Even tonight it took me right back to when I was 17 and in love for the first time - all in all a much simpler time.

I have a weird relationship with the Twilight series in that I never considered myself a massive fan, but then I also own all of the books, lmao. I just seem to have quite a lot of memories associated with this particular series...I remember New Moon was my jam when I got dumped by the aforementioned "first love", couldn't even tell you how many times I've read that one. But things got weird in the fourth book, so I never even saw the last two movies.

Why am I talking about Twilight? No fucking idea. But it's 2 AM, so...

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I’m hooooome. Well not home home, as in my parents’ house, but my apartment, instead of the room I’ve been cooped up in since the beginning of January. Yes, I am currently living in (and paying for) two places at once. Is it a shock on the wallet? Yes, it is. Only 1,5 months left however. 

Went to see a play last night, had a few drinks with friends after. Was a good time. Got to bed at 2:30 AM and had to catch the 10 AM train though, so quite understandably, I’m quite tired at the moment. Even despite taking a two hour nap.

My problem is I can’t really unwind even on the weekends. Even now I’m thinking, I should be reading this or doing that. Because I’m just tied to sooo many things at the moment. But I realise it is important to just relax, so I am taking the evening off at least. No promises about tomorrow though. 

I’ve ordered some food so I won’t have to worry about dinner tonight. I might finish up the last of the red wine that’s been open for...how many months already? Hopefully it’ll still taste alright. If not, ah well.

I also need to do a water change, preferably this evening. Yes, I still have my fish despite living in a different city 90% of the time. Automatic feeders do wonders, and I do come around once at least every 2 weeks to check up on stuff. Like I said, only 1,5 more months...

Oh, and I’ve finalllyyyy (after 3,5 months) finished Dragon Age Origins + Awakening and moved on to DA2. It’s weird, even though I love DA2 (despite its glaring flaws), I’ve only completed it once. My first playthrough touched me deeply, but I don’t know, I’ve started new playthoughts but stopped for one reason or another...Actually feeling quite excited this time around though, so fingers crossed I’ll make it to the end!

That’s it for my tiny update. My dinner should be getting here pretty soon as well. 

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Real talk though has anyone else just thrown away a whole Tupperware container bc you left food in there for way too long and now you’re afraid to open it?

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All of you are so valid

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This...has happened. 

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I just realised I left this blog on a really miserable note. I’m not thaaaat miserable anymore, haha. Just tired as fuck. Loads of work to do. As in stuff not related to my day job. Aka stuff I need to use my precious evening hours to finish. Ugh. But hey, all for a better future, right? Lol. In a nutshell I’ve been recruited in a taskforce that’s developing COPD diagnosis/treatment/follow up guidelines for primary care. And I’m also still working on building our national database for IPF. It’s slowly coming along, only finishing touches left. Honestly, I’ve spent so much time and energy on this whole thing (starting with the ethics committee approval stuff), I’m calling it my baby, lmao. Also I had clinic today. There’s this one patient that has always been a headache...well they’re no longer just a headache, they’re literally a ticking timebomb. I’m not quite sure what I’m going to do. I need help but I’m not sure where I’m going to get it. Doesn’t help that the patient is quite untrustworthy and unreliable, so it’s difficult to make any kind of plans or agreements. What else...I’ve been in 4 different cities in the past 4 days. In all honesty this past month has been quite manic on the travelling front. I’m wondering how long I’ll be able to keep it up. 

All in all I’d love nothing more than to be able to finish all the things I have to do tomorrow, and then just rest all weekend but sadly the chances of that happening are nonexistent. But hey I’m going home home, so at least I’ll be fed, lol. 

I say these things like it’s all so hard and so stressful but then I also feel like I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m so used to stress, life without it would be weird. I don’t think it would feel like living, to me at least. 

Anyway, I really should move my ass, go take a shower and go to sleep. This isn’t making any sense anymore. 

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Sometimes I wonder, what have I done to deserve this.

Like, is it really 10 year old karma biting me in the ass? 

But I was stupid teenager back then, and unequipped to deal with that sort of stuff. Do I really need to be punished? 

I don’t know. Today has been a bit of a rollercoaster. This whole week has been a bit of a rollercoaster. I was feeling quite content just a few hours ago, and then...bam. Miserable again. 

I’ll get over this. I always do. But still it makes me slightly nervous for the future.

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It is officially the last day of the year. This holiday season has absolutely flown by, and sadly I haven’t felt at all Christmassy. Probably due to the fact that in only a few days I’m starting work in a new city, in a completely new hospital. I’ve already moved all my stuff, now all that’s left is to step on that bus in just a bit over 24 hours. Ugh. Changes.

And that is all for now. Have a good one.