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I must not buy. Buying is the purse-killer. Buying is the little-dopamine that brings total bankruptcy. I will face my wishlist. I will permit the limited time sale to pass over me and through me. And when it has expired I will turn the inner eye to see its impulses. When the mania has gone there will be nothing. Only $ will remain.

#pinning this as a reminder to myself #i must not buy #not even a little pitíčko :(

havingapoemwithyou

A not admitting of the wound (1188) by Emily Dickinson

theoptia

Simone Weil, from Gravity and Grace

#mentally screaming this at myself every day until i accept it

training myself to cry on cue in order to maximize the emotional impact of my concerts

#evil evil i know

jehovahhthickness

Praying that $1500 randomly comes to you when you need it the most this year.

jehovahhthickness

Okay inflation is crazy.

We bumping up the price to $15,000 for 2026.

infectiouspiss

a second bumblebee has hit the flowers

infectiouspiss

"post without tags?" OH IM FUCKING SORRY #BEES #9/11

kuttithevangu

Instead of doomscrolling lately I have been reading my PDFs and it turns out if you do this you learn a whole bunch of stuff. I’m afraid I must recommend it

shirbertflavoured

This is how we can turn Tumblr into the next-generation PDF

Randomly remembered this song after years and years and played it as background noise while sitting on the roof but I had forgotten the ending and it caught me unawares and made me burst into loud sobs

#i haven’t cried like this for years wtf #i mostly let an aesthetic tear or two slip down my cheek in classical concerts #the corries #the great silkie of sule skerry #selkie #Youtube

kenanek

maybe punching the wall like a male protagonist would fix me

kenanek

tried to destroy myself at the gym last night but the frustration persists, only now my body hurts too

allsadnshit

Realizing when I was timid and shy I was also complete self obsessed and focused even if yes there was loathing and trauma there I really was deeply deeply self centered in a way you can only be in order to convince yourself you're cursed because the universe is punishing you specifically cause you matter more

Freeing myself every day of the just wanna blend in don't wanna stand on my opinions or be seen and known false modesty that is just a cover for unhealed self betrayal and hatred

laeffy

every time someone mentions the little prince I almost forget it’s a children’s book because I literally cannot get through the part about being tamed without crying

laeffy

“To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world…“ But if you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life . I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music, out of my burrow. And then look: you see the grain-fields down yonder? I do not eat bread. Wheat is of no use to me. The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And that is sad. But you have hair that is the colour of gold. Think how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me! The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat…” The fox gazed at the little prince, for a long time. “Please, tame me!” he said.” Yeah………..

sazandorable

So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near —

“Ah,” said the fox, “I shall cry.”

“It is your own fault,” said the little prince. “I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you…”

“Yes, that is so,” said the fox.

“But now you are going to cry!” said the little prince.

“Yes, that is so,” said the fox.

“Then it has done you no good at all!”

“It has done me good,” said the fox, “because of the color of the wheat fields.”

#i am unwell

f0xxen

phantomrose96

After 13 years of this, it's still funny to me that detailing a full mental breakdown on tumblr is standard fare, but posting a nice selfie is a fraught decision.