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ara. 21. a diary-like side blog to contain my explosive mind

[selvouth]

I want to be bold and say "no" more than I do.

But I'm also tired of being blunt and forthcoming and having no filter on my tongue.

I stop myself before I intentionally hurt someone's feelings, but I don't speak up when someone hurts mine.

This imbalance feels unhealthy.

[selvouth]

I dyed my hair black and someone told me my eyes shine like stars in a night sky.

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I fell in love with a guy and didn't realize it until I stopped fighting for him.

[selvouth]

You can't cage a wild animal and expect it to behave.

[selvouth]

starter sentences

written by me. most of these are quotes from my muse or general musings that’s come to mind over the past few years. feel free to change the wording to match your own muses.

“We served kings, then we served the people, now we serve ourselves.”

“You should not as men to do for you what you will not do for them.”

“If you can’t stand defiance, then you’re in the wrong line of work.”

“You’re family was built on rebellion, why deny it now?”

“It’s not arrogance. I just know what I’ve capable of.”

“You’re not tigers. All I see are men wearing tiger skins.”

“A smart leader would put their people before their hatred, but, my god, you’re not very smart.”

“You can fall in line, or you can fall out of it.”

“The shadows may conceal your secrets, but you’re a fool if you think it’ll keep them.”

“They broke me so the world didn’t have to.”

“I will throw this world into a dark age that will put the last one to shame.”

“Fear is a man’s way of ruling. Remember, little lamb, I am also a man.”

“This car reeks of sex, candle wax, and red wine. I know it was stolen. You’re not a romantic.” 

“Try, ‘I’ll ask again when I’m legal’.”

“You shouldn’t throw around your words like knives– especially when you have no aim.”

“I would call you a pussy, but even cats aren’t scared of the dark.”

“Call me a bitch again, and I’ll show you how a bitch bites.”

"Can you not say blood in front of the humans? It makes them scurry and I hate playing tag and– Just call it paint. As for that god-awful smell, it’s called air freshener. Works like a charm.”

“Ding, ding, babe.”

“Bleep creativity.”

“You’re acting weird and it’s making me act weird. If I knew you were contagious, I wouldn’t have agreed to meet.”

"The worlds full of disappointments. Have you not figured that out yet?”

“I eat, sleep, fuck, and shit. Philosophical, enough?”

“Mr. Snobby is fine. You can go ahead and call me Snobs for short.”

“You’ll need therapy, I agree. You were practically tucking your tail.”

"Are you not fond of imperfect and imcomplete things because you are imperfect and imcomplete?”

“You told me not to speak or move, but then you ask a question that requires a response– Whoops, I spoke. Better prepare the pyre.”

“Don’t look so squashed. You’ll make me regret what I’ve done.”

"Those furballs are not family. They’re squatters I haven’t kicked out because they’re cute. Big difference.”

"It’s not obsession. It’s dedication.”

“Would you like to paint with me? On a canvas, not the streets. And with colors other than red.”

“My father is suntanning in hell. I’m sure you’ll meet him soon.” 

“Your tone screams sarcasm yet your word choice is just direct insult. I can lend you some Shakespeare. It might teach you proper irony.”

"All I asked is for you to celebrate with me and you turned into the fucking devil. Not classy one bit, little lady. Are you pms'ing?”

“I would offer a sorry but it’ll be wasted.”

“Don’t use your dominate hand. This face may be beautiful but mess it up and ooohh– I hope you have a doctor on speed dial.”

“Thank you for the compliment, my lady. I’m afraid I’m not interested.”

“I’m to sly to ever be caught in the first place.”

“I think sadistic is sexier in a female.”

“Hm, I was wrong. You’re generically sadistic. Ketchup, for fucks sake?”

“Don’t call me shorty. You should keep your pet names reserved for your dick.”

[selvouth]

You want to know what depression is?

Depression is squeezing your head with the palms of your hands to try to snuff out the negative thoughts. It’s crying until you can’t breathe and hiding your face so no one can see the pain you can’t explain, choking on words and a nest of butterflies in your gut, staring at the lunch you prepared and saying “nevermind” even though your stomach was growling five minutes prior.

Depression is wanting a hug, a rub on the back, or a lap to cry on but given “I don’t know why you’re sad” and “I have it worse”, as if depression was a choice like picking out your outfit for the day. Its like sinking in the deep end of a pool and letting your lungs burn for air but getting water instead or entering a tunnel but seeing no light at the end.

Depression is anger, sadness, pain, hatred, violence, self-doubt and dejection. Loneliness, greatest of all.

[selvouth]

You may think the world is out to get you, but really, you are out to get the world.

[selvouth]

thieves don't need hands and liars don't need tongues.

beg me to spare you, beg me to forgive your treachery

[selvouth]

he made even gold lose its shimmer.

[selvouth]

A smart leader would put their people before their hatred, but, my god, you're not very smart.

think for once, will you?

[selvouth]

Stand behind me, and I will protect you. Stand beside me, and I will fight with you. Stand in front of me, and I will kill you.

i don’t care what you are to me for even you will not stop me.

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I have been to war, and war is not pretty, so put down your poetry and pick up a goddamn sword.

you won’t be seeing beauty, you’ll be seeing red.

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"He watched war like a spectator watching two masters play a game of chess."

He watched, and he learned.

[selvouth]

Gods create the world. Kings rule it.

What's the difference between a god and a king?

[selvouth]

Was man created in God’s image or was God created in man’s?

This world will have you second guessing.

[selvouth]

For all those who hate themselves: Find one thing you love about yourself. Just one. And let that one thing be a seed. Plant it. Water it. Cherish it. Love it. Be proud of it. Now find something else. And repeat.

It’s a process but I believe in you.

[selvouth]

You can be strong. Anyone can be strong. You see, its man's greatest downfall, self-doubt, self-hatred. But when you love yourself, whole-heartedly and passionately, you will be strong.

love yourself, embrace who you are, you’ll thank yourself later.