I Have Questions For You (Original) *fan made
Lo,
Lauren⌠how dare you do this to me, leaving me. I thought that I was yours and you were mine. You can't hurt me this way, i'm too young have mercy in yourself and heal my pain. The pain you've done to me internally⌠I'm trying to stop the pain but it's not leaving me. It's lingering in my skin and I'm trying to numb them all. Do you even care about me at all? Why do you not care. Why?!! I gave you everything I had! Everything of me, I've given to you⌠my blood that you boiled with heat every time you gave me affection. My sweat when we made love. M-my heartâŚ. my whole heart I've given to you and nobody else, given to your dear hands. My tears⌠when I begged you to come back to me. You don't care, not at all. Not once, nor ever⌠I was always there for you whenever you were in pain, suffering, happy, stressed, and in sorrow. Nobody else was there to be with you...but me. Now you're goneâŚnot being there for me for you're own selfishness. These are my questions for you LaurenâŚ
1.Who do you even think you are??
You really have the guts to tear me apart.
2. Why did you trick me and make me feel like such a fool?
I should have never ever EVER trusted you. I'm such a fool for falling for you. I loved you and I thought that youâd loved me as well.
3. Why weren't you, who you swore that you would be?
You promised that you'd be the kind, gentle, loving, warming⌠the person you were once before. Innocent. Now you're nothing like you promised me that you'd be. You're nothing like you were before. I don't know who your are anymore.. I miss the old you. Now I see you doing torturous and regretful actions to yourself and others. You're killing yourself with the drugs⌠the alcoholâŚ. it's destroying you my love.
I want to fix this but how do I do this? I want to fix this relationship Lauren. I want to fix you⌠fix us. But I don't know how to. Can we communicate in any way. We used to communicate so well⌠we didn't even need words to understand each other. But do I want to fix this even though you put me through so much pain? I love you but I don't know if this should be fixed. Must we move on? I don't know⌠I truly don't know. I'm afraid of you⌠of what you've become. Is it my fault for how you've been acting? Is this why you're doing this to yourself? Are you drowning yourself in alcohol for the guilt that dwells upon you? Do you miss me because I miss you. I want you in my life again... I truly do. I miss how we were before when we were happy once but we aren't anymore and won't ever be againâŚ. But I still love you.
-Camz