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Eun-J of Chemical X 21 || Junior ||Owned by Jihoon Nakseon Hall #511 (But she stays with Jihoon in 506 for the most part!)Typist Status: offline RP Purposes only. May contain 18+ material.

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Why are you waiting on Jihoon? You should come be with a real man

Eunjung snorted in the direction of the person speaking to her, eyes rolling in response to their idiotic words. Why wait for Jihoon? She had plenty of reasons to do such a thing that so many people considered ‘stupid’. She wasn’t sure how many people had told her that she was just wasting her time and energy on a ‘fuck up’ like Pyo Jihoon. Either that or everyone always judged her, saying that she was staying with him only for his money. None of them could have been more wrong. Even though he wasn’t around at the moment, she knew that she could count on him no matter what, considering he had stuck around so long through all of her issues..

“Listen kid, I don’t even know you so please shut up about something that you know nothing about. Jihoon has proven himself to be more of a man than any other guy in my life ever has. We’ve been through a whole hell of a lot more than you probably will ever understand. So kindly fuck off, kay?” Eunjung’s smile seemed dangerous, as if she was willing to get physically violent at any given moment. She was being as good about this as she could be, though she was starting to get fed up with all of the questions.

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ooc -- ;;

Sorry I vanished again guys. I was planning on coming back the day after my birthday but a friend had to have surgery and reacted badly to the anesthesia so I ended up having to take care of her and her baby for a few days. I should be back to writing.

I know I am plotting with Melissa and Chiaki on Eunjung. I am plotting with Youngjae on Yoongi. Meaning I need a few more plots still! ^^

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ooc -- ;;

Its my birthday today so I'm probably going to be out all day with my husband. I'll respond to asks and finish plotting with people whenever I'm actually home though. ^^ Its weird to think I've been around SNU off and on for a bit longer than a year now.

On another note, I only have like 3 paras going on Eunjung and 2 on yoongi and I haven't gotten answers from any of them in awhile, so I'm looking for more paras. (Especially while I wait for Jihoon-mun to be able to bring baby pyo back.)

So hit up my ask and I'll respond as soon as I can!

You can also find me on AIM at dlitefulpanda

[queens-forever]

ham eunjung in t-ara what do i do mv

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ooc

Seems like everyone I was plotting with / writing with on here kinda vanished on me. Plot with me, kay?

AIM: dlitefulpanda < -- just let me know if you message me there, I forget about it sometimes.

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Who Are You? ;; Eunjung x Woobin

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Woobin watched the female with a worried gaze as it seemed that it all was a bit too much for her and if she knew his family as well as he did - the male knew she would freak. The Kim family, his family, was a well known family within the social circles of the world and scandal free - something people hated about them. Everyone tried to find a black spot on their past, but with money one could buy silence and thus he knew all to well what would happen to her. It all would be like with anything else that had to disappear, to go leave and never come back to bug them again - she would be paid to be silent, meet once to get only short nothing saying responses. It would harm her than anything else, but then again it was his family after all - known to be cold to be perfect and never having a single emotion, at least no real one.

"I doubt you want to meet her," he said finally as he sat down as well, pulling at his jeans before he sat - a habit he couldn’t get rid of as he wore many suits and was told how not to make unneeded dents. "I don’t think you should know about me, but I am Kim Woobin - the son of the ambassador of Korea in Spain right now and his wife the UN ambassador and social light, who is the chairwoman of many charities. Our family prides itself to be perfect, scandal free and well in every sense what some other family wants to be." His voice was calm, trying his best to explain something that was all together a headache to anyone growing up in such a family focused on the money, fame and statues. 

Sighing he adjusted his body to look at the girl, looking at the picture and being slowly more and more sure that this was his aunt - the woman so proud to have married as a virgin and to a wealthy stock broker from an old Korean family. “My aunt is a woman who rules her family with an iron grip and never leaves room for an error - trust me, I have to know since I once had to change my suit three times until she found it to be right.” Rolling his eyes, Woobin’s hand moved to rub his neck as he felt awkward towards someone, who might be his relative and then again in the back of his mind knew she was the girlfriend of a man he would never respect. “I haven’t spoken to her in three years and I doubt she would ever confess to me that she had a child she gave up, much less now as her husband is back from his travel.”

It would never happen that the female would agree to talk to this girl and even less confess to such a deed- to Woobin it bottled his mind that someone would give up their child. Sighing his fingers traveled though his hair to ruffle it and set it once more into a hairdo the tall male never cared much about. “Look are they sure this is the woman who gave you up or did they give you just a photo? I don’t want to sound rude or anything, but my family is messed up enough and having someone come in claiming to be the long lost daughter of my aunt would truly be a scandal no one wants. Not even me!” he spoke, knowing it all sounded rather selfish, but he doubted heavily Eunjung wanted to be apart of his family which he did all to escape, but respect. “Looking I am willing to help you, but for that somehow we need to make sure you are apart of the Kim family and above all that you are her child.”

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Eunjung should have known from the start that he would have been reluctant to help her. She knew his family well, her adoptive father had been part of the circles that his family had been in. She, being a disgrace to her father, had never been allowed to be seen by anyone important so she had never met any of them. Now that she had been disowned, she highly doubted that she would ever get a chance to meet anyone through that vile man. Her heart skipped a beat when she realised what she was thinking about. Oh god, would all of that make the entire situation worse? The whole situation of her father disowning her had been kept quiet to hold up his reputation, but there was no doubt in her mind that people did know. Her father had never been quiet about his hatred for her.

“Listen, Woobin-ssi. I’m not looking for a family. I’m not looking for money. All I really want is answers. I was given up, I wasn’t wanted. I just want to know how someone could do that. As a result, my life has been...” Eunjung’s voice trailed off and her hand idly drifted to her stomach, a hollow feeling taking over her entire being. “Anyways, I’m willing to do whatever you believe necessary so that I can meet your Aunt. If we are not related in any way, my mistake and I will never bother you about it again,” She sighed, running her fingers through her blonde hair. If it wasn’t true, she’d probably stop looking. As it was, she still hadn’t told Jihoon that she was looking for her family. If she did... Well, he’d no doubt put a lot more effort into it than she and she wasn’t even sure she wanted him in on this whole thing. It felt more personal.

“If she says that she doesn’t want to see me after everything, I’ll also give up. I do not wish to be a bother or a blight on your family, as I was apparently with my adoptive father.” Saying these words stung. She had been a good child, but as soon as her mother had gotten killed, her father had always blamed her and his foul mood had turned abusive until finally he beat her near to death, telling her that she was no longer part of his family. Sure she was a trouble maker, but for the most part, it had always been his fault. His fault for sending her off to the United States for school, his fault for alienating her when he should have been raising her.

[seongyoongi]

ooc -- ;;

note about my absence: I’m sorry I’ve been away, i’ve been in and out of the hospital for a few weeks now. Please forgive me! I think I have my sicknesses under control now, however, so I should be on more.

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ooc -- ;; plot call!

I need plots. I lost a few from people dropping and other people are on hiatus so I have pretty much nothing with Eunjung right now! Hit me up!

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Who Are You? ;; Eunjung x Woobin

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Woobin rolled his eyes since to him Jihoon was capable of a lot being a spoiled brat that never even used the chances given to him, at least that was how he saw it. “I know that boy for too long and up until now I have only seen a lazy ass!” he commented since to him Jihoon at least had something much greater to work with, yet he didn’t. It bottled his mind to how someone could be this simple and not even for once take advantage of the fact he could become a great leader, do it better than his parents. Yet no, he didn’t and every single time they met Jihoon ridiculed him as if Woobin was some slave monkey and not even worthy of anything he had done. Everything about the man in question rubbed Woobin the wrong way and thus to him taking something that isn’t his was not a far stretch. 

Yet he couldn’t rage on that fact for too long since the female seemed rather torn as he blinked several times and looked at the picture again - yes that was his dragon lady of a mother, he could even name the event that it was taken on. “Yes this is my mother, the head of the Kim family,” he said and looked at the female, brow raising once she mentioned an adoption center which left him wanting to laugh and yet didn’t. Woobin was an only child without a single doubt, since his mother didn’t even have him naturally but with a C-section so her hips wouldn’t get wider. “Look I do not know what they told you there, but I am an only child and trust me my mother doesn’t even want kids - I was a mistake to but it into a very drastic and dramatic frame work. Now this picture is taken on the charity event when she was pregnant with me and that day signed a good contract with a major company. This woman in not your mother.”

To prove his point further he moved his hand to his back pocket to fish out his valet where the same picture was tucked away - asking him why it was there was pointless. He had no connection to his parents, but when he was little they handed it to him and it the only connection he had to his mother. Pulling out the old picture, the male held it in front of the girls eyes and one could easily see it was the same female - Woobin’s mother, even if the term mother was purely biological. Taking the photo from Eunjung’s hands he compared them and slowly started to frown since one thing was off with the pictures - the small birth marks on the females cheeks. Woobin’s mother had on on the left side of her face high up on her cheek bone that some said even it was under her eye, though he disagreed. Then again the dragon lady usually covered it up with make up, thus he never knew where it was positioned.

Frown deepening he moved to sit down, looking at the pictures and slowly remembering one fact that made his mother into a human being - her twin sister. Looking at the girl he sighed, heavily at that, since the woman was not his mother, but his aunt who he had met only five times in his life time. “I have to apologize for my attack,” he started with a small apologetic smile coming to his lips as he sighed and gave back the picture. “That is not my mother, but my aunt. You see they are identical twins, only one can keep them apart by the birthmark on their cheeks - otherwise they are awfully similar. Well I say that only having met my aunt a few times, but I know she has a son, who she worships from here to Saturn and back. He is…let me think about five years younger than me and I never heard she having had any other children, since it always was said she married being a virgin.”

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For once, Eunjung found herself at a loss for words. The woman in her picture was his mother..? Had the adoption agency just given her a picture and sent her on her way so that she would stop asking questions? Or had she somehow managed to randomly run in to a blood brother that had no idea that she existed? this entire thing was getting off to a terrible start. It didn’t help that he had started off the entire conversation by completely bad mouthing her boyfriend. Was that the kind of family that she was going to be forced into? The entire situation was giving her a headache. Suddenly she just wanted to go back to Jihoon’s room and disappear into a heap of blankets and pillows.

It only further proved the point that it was definitely his mother when he pulled out his own picture of her. She found herself stumbling backwards and sitting back down on the bench. Things were moving far too quickly, she wasn’t at all ready for this. She watched him, eyes slightly distant as she waited for him to finish looking over the pictures. How the hell was she supposed to do this? What if the adoption agency had lied to her? If that was so, how could she very well go back and get onto them about it? They could easily just say that they hadn’t lied and shove her off again.

This was a mess.

Eunjung blinked as he handed back the picture and she looked down at it, fingers running gently over the face that was in it. Something inside of her told her that this was her mother. There were too many resemblances between her and the woman for it to be a mere coincidence. They were from a big family, and if she knew anything from her life with her adoptive father, they would lie about anything to keep the family name ‘pure’. If she didn’t jump at this opportunity, when would she ever get another chance?

“Is there a way that I can talk to her, maybe ask her a few questions? If the adoption agency lied, no harm done right? I don’t have family and I really need to know why I was given up. Even if I’m never accepted by my biological parents,” She sighed, slumping back into the bench, eyes still trained on the picture for just a few moments more. She slowly looked up at the guy that was in front of her. “My name is Ham Eunjung, could you at least tell her that I wish to talk to her? I won’t force it if she doesn’t wish it.”

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Coffee Shop ;; Eunjung x Sungmin

[seongsungmin]

Sungmin had placed his mug on the table as the girl in front of him started speaking, but he just stared at her as he listened to her. What? Sungmin felt something in him twitch and flip, since he wasn’t used to people not knowing who he was. He knew he was nowhere being as popular as the female in front of him, but he had expected that at least the people with more subscribers could actually notice his hard work. He felt like his whole career, or whatever the whole Youtube thing was, collapsed right in front of his eyes. He felt like slamming his head against the table and cry. What difference would it make? People would still not know who he is. But he managed to keep himself in the same sitting position, and tried to not make his expression flicker with disappointment. “Oh,” he said and cleared his throat, a small, awkward laugh leaving his lips. “Yeah, probably on a thumbnail, yes…” He said, giving her another small smile.

He sighed and shook his head to the sides a little, deciding to drop the whole unrecognized issue and opting to work harder in the future for more people to notice his talent— if he had talent, of course. Because he was a no one. A no one. He had failed. Cries. “Oh, yeah,” he said, quickly shoving those thoughts away. “I think I’ve seen him before— It’s not like I watch all of your videos, but there’s this one in particular that it’s quite famous so, yeah—” He quickly explained, mentally kicking himself as he could only make things more awkward. “But, well, your boyfriend is doing a great job by reminding you that, then,” he said with a gentle smile in his lips. "I wish someone did that to me— But no. Because I’m no one. My career is death. Cries." An annoying voice in his head said. He quickly took another sip of his coffee. “It must be really nice to have someone right there that supports you and encourages you to keep doing what you love,” he said with a sincere smile on his lips. Although it’s not like he was never encouraged by someone, but it wasn’t never with someone whom he had a romantic relationship.

Sungmin puffed his cheeks a little and nodded, giving her a quick, embarrassed smile. “I’m sorry, I tend to not speak formally, Eunjung-ah—-ssi,” he quickly replaced it with the ssi she wanted, feeling it weird in his tongue since he hardly ever called someone by that. “But please forgive me if I unintentionally slip an ah instead of a ssi every once in a while. It’d be a huge change for me,” he said, chuckling softly as his finger caressed the ceramic of the mug. He sighed and looked at the girl again, curiosity shining in his eyes. “So, I guess you’re studying something related to music here?” He asked.

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At school, Eunjung was known for being incredibly cold hearted unless she was around her small group of friends. Online she was known for her music and intense personality. Her smiles, though few, were always praised. One would think that with all of that attention, Eunjung wouldn’t have any insecurity issues. And yet she couldn’t help but see that light in Sungmin’s eyes fade as soon as she admitted to not knowing who he was at all. She bit her lip, trying to form a good apology in her head, but what could she really do about it? Was that something she should actually apologise for? His tone of voice got somewhat awkward and just slightly weaker, something that she had heard in herself every time she got insecure. Her heart really did bleed for the guy, and yet she had an image to keep up. So she continued to sit there, sipping at her coffee and listening to him speak.

“Everyone should always do what they love, no matter if they get recognition or not. Even if I had no subscribers or fans, I’d continue to put up my videos. I do it for myself just as much as I do it for them. No one should ever be stuck doing something that they don’t enjoy,” She finally responded to him, shrugging. Her youtube had started off as just an outlet for her music so that she could work on it and actually do something with it. She had decided to keep up with the youtube when she had started actually performing at all of the underground venues because she had people who enjoyed listening to her music that didn’t live anywhere near Seongam. “I’m sure you have plenty of people that encourage you,” She added quickly before taking another sip of her coffee.

“I’m sorry, I was just raised in a setting where it was polite to not refer to someone informally unless you knew them, and even then it hardly happened,” She explained, leaning back and crossing her legs in front of her. What she didn’t say was that she wasn’t really that strict, she just didn’t like it when someone she had just met was acting so casual with her. Once he spoke to her more than a few times, she would most likely stop caring.

“Yes, I’m studying musical production and composition. I’m taking a minor in psychology just in case, but I’m mostly focused on my music.” She peered at him, trying to ignore the itching feeling of wanting to leave. She had just spoken about manners, so she needed to stay polite. “What are you studying here?” She went to take a sip of her coffee and found herself sighing as she realised that she had already finished all of it.

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ooc -- ;;

I'll get to some responses probably in the morning~!

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30 Days of Character Development ;; Day 30 [FINAL]

Eunjung,

I feel like I should apologise to you for everything that I have put you through. However, I will not. Only the strongest of us can make it through so many horrible things. Whether you believe it or not, you are stronger than most. After everything you have been through, you have found yourself someone who loves you and cares for you where so many other people have failed to do so. Don't give up on any of the happiness you have found and you will finally find peace within yourself.

Sincerely, 

Aimee

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30 Days of Character Development ;; Day 29

Eunjung wears a light floral perfume. It isn't overwhelming and can really only be smelled when one is within close proximity to her. Most people would walk past her without noticing, only the closest of her friends would ever be able to tell just how good she does smell.

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30 Days of Character Development ;; Day 28

I know most of you probably expect me to say Rap because of Eunjung's choice in the music she puts out. However, I wouldn't feel right assigning any sort of Genre to her life as she has gone through so much already. If I was going to liken it to music in a way similar to that, however, I'd say it was a mix cd.

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30 Days of Character Development ;; Day 27

Wow, this one has been the hardest so far. Mostly just because of thinking up songs. This isn't based on songs that she would listen to but songs based on what I personally think fit.

Song one: Midnight Circus by Sunny Hill

I chose this song for the first part of her life because of how controlling her father was. She constantly felt like she was either caged or controlled like a marionette by her father. When he was pretending to be civil, she was paraded in front of all of his rich acquaintances like a circus animal.

Song two: Feel by Sleeping With Sirens

This song doesn't quite show the depth of her hatred for her father but it shows how she went from pessimistic and scared of what she would be to optimistic about what the future holds for her.

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30 Days of Character Development ;; Day 26

Comfort Food: Frozen Yogurt

Vice: Eunjung loves to drink even though she has a really low tolerance for alcohol.

outfit: Eunjung's favourite outfit consists of a pair of black shorts, a loose fitting red top, her black jacket, a pair of studded heels and a some silver jewelry that matches. Simple but works well with her body type.

hot drink: Hot apple cider

time of year: Fall. Not too hot and not too cold!

Holiday: Halloween! Eunjung loves to dress up scary.