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★☆ ACTIVITY CHECK 12/15 — 12/21

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                                                                                   hello.           don’t you know life and love's                                  i am the gatekeeper           a ga m e;                                                                  to lovely gorgeous death           and no one gets out alive.                                        and your body is up for grabs

how exciting. 

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[seoxjoo]

[ f l a s h b a c k ] 1 ` of hellos

[shimchngmn-blog]

( `he feels his body tense up upon contact — even if it was a brief one when her hands grabbed onto his arm instead — and he lifts a hand to muffle a cough spluttered against the back of it, swallowing thickly after; god knows the reason for this overwhelming nervousness that’s infiltrating his system and affecting his reactions and coherency, and while these seem all too unfamiliar to him, changmin doesn’t dwell on it too much (for now at least). it takes him by surprise when he lifts his head to see that she has leaned closer for a glance at his watch, and his gaze settles on her features, briefly taking in a couple of distinctive details at such close proximity and he’s a little dazed. thankfully her attention is directed elsewhere or it would have been awkward, and he catches himself before she does, grateful for the bit of self-control that has returned to him. ) ah.. ( `he can’t say he isn’t the least bit disappointed — because he felt his heart sink and he knows he is very much so — but he settles for the suggestion she proposed, hand slipping into his pocket to fish for his phone almost instantly in response and handing it to her. ) no, no no that’s perfectly fine, too. i’d text you, and we could discuss this further, and meet another time ( `he’s a little too hasty in his reply to notice that he has basically just echoed her words, his gaze focused on his phone instead while he waits patiently for her to key in her number; it seems a little too unbelievable that she is going to be his partner for this event and they will be working together for the next month to come )

[seoxjoo]

{ ' waiting a moment for him to unlock his phone and find the correct screen, she takes the device off his hands and quickly keys in her number, putting it under Seo Joohyun. There's nerves getting to her for some reason, something making her look up at him and though she notices that she's probably slightly too close to someone she's only just properly met, she can't seem to get her thoughts straight long enough for her to do anything other than lick her lips as she smiles nervously and hands the phone back to him. she tucks her hair behind her ear, bowing once more } I'll see you later, then? goodbye! { ' waving with much more confidence than she feels, she turns on her heel and walks back in the direction she came, somehow feeling tingles running up and down her body, as though she was being watched - and she tried her best to walk as normally as she could, not too fast, not too slow, and hopefully not jilted and lopsided as her parents always told her it was. Once she rounds the corner she runs to the car, and can hardly keep the smile off her face the entire way home. that is of course, until she realizes that she just barely got through that first meeting with her dignity intact and how is she going to possibly make it through actual meetings? Ones that involve getting things done? Breathing deeply, she decides to take her cues from him, nodding to herself as she runs into her room, closing the door behind her and sliding down to sit against it. Biting at her lip until it turns bright red, she rubs her hands together, sitting on them to keep from jittering as she stares at her phone - waiting for it to chime and let her know a text has come in. } This is kind of sad. { ' she whispers to herself, trying to resist grabbing it and turning it on just in case she hadn't heard the chime } 

[cheongukapts-blog]

★☆ ACTIVITY CHECK 11/23 — 11/29

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This is now mandatory. We will no longer have mid-check warnings, and anyone who doesn’t reblog this will be automatically taken out of the tenant list. We will be less lenient about moving back in from now on.

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Make sure that your URL is the same as the one that’s listed in the main tenant list. If you changed without informing the building, we will assume that you have since moved on and have no interest in staying.

It doesn’t matter how new you are; please reblog this to make sure that you don’t get take off. Thank you!

Think of this post as your rent notice. Failure to comply will leave you without a place to stay. Thank you for your time, and have a good day tenants!

[seoxjoo]

[ f l a s h b a c k ] 1 ` of hellos

[seoxjoo]

shimchngmn:

( `he seems completely oblivious to the fact that she probably already knows his name, given that she approached him in the first place; taking half a step back, his gaze drops, following as she bows slightly in front of him; dipping his head forward, his body leans in an exaggerated manner in his hasty attempt to return the bow, and his bag slips off his shoulder, in which his other hand reaches out of reflexes, grabbing the strap before his bag hits the floor; with a quick tug, the bag’s slung over his shoulder once again and an almost sheepish smile is on his features, tips of his ears burning a darker shade of pink at the embarrassment that creeps on him half a second late; at least he’s finally managed to snap out of the slight daze he’s slipped into, though…what did she say her name was? changmin lifts a hand, scratching lightly at his cheek while he attempts (at the very least) to recall the brief introduction she gave a while ago. joohyun— ) seo joohyun? ( `he echoes the syllables out loud, and it takes him a couple of seconds to realize what he has done before he clears his throat against a balled fist, nodding in response ) ah…athletic day, yeah it almost slipped my mind, i knew i was assigned a partner but i didn’t know— ( `didn’t know he’d be this mesmerized; this time he catches himself before his thoughts slip again, and he masks his awkwardness for his seemingly incoherent sentences with a quiet hum; a quick glance at his wrist watch tells him that he has approximately an hour before he needs to get to the cafe for duties, that should probably be enough (although he has half the mind to call in for the day off), for now ) ) do you have time now? i have some time to spare and we could probably just, work something out first, start somewhere? 

{ ' she bites her lip, almost tempted to laugh as she sees him bow haphazardly, nearly dumping his bag on the ground before grabbing it and saving it from crashing. she'd reached forward out of instinct to try and help ( though he hadn't needed it ) but as a result she'd stepped closer and her hands, which had been reaching for the bag strap - had been pulled to his arm. her eyes widened and she coughed, stepping back and soon her cheeks have flushed to a color that matches the burning of his ears. ) a-ah yes. { ' she stutters out a confirmation; head ducking down as she clasps her hands together tightly behind her back, much of her former bravado lost. the underlying nerves take over as embarrassment crashes over her and she starts to return to how she normally is when she isn't trying to make an impression or stubbornly get something done. as it is, though, she's still somewhat miffed that he forgot about athletic day. } Didn't know what? { ' she asks curiously - somewhat confused as to why Changmin suddenly seems so...dazed. Almost as though he's thinking of something else entirely, like his mind is preoccupied - so different from the 'cool, calm, charismatic changmin' that she always hears about from her friends. she must admit that that's likely the reason she hadn't forgotten and he did - after all, she's nothing exciting and the second she said her partner was going to be him her friends nearly broke her eardrums with their shrieking. not exactly a memory that's easy to lose. she doesn't carry a watch and her phone is buried deep in her bag so without even thinking about it she peeks over at his watch, leaning over to check the time before humming in consideration. technically she should be going home - her parents haven't given her a curfew for the sole reason that she's not allowed to go out at all in the first place - and in the distance she can see someone she distinctly remembers visiting her parents a few days ago, hidden in the shadows. it'd scare her if she wasn't used to it already. smiling apologetically, she shakes her head } I'm sorry. I have to get home, my parents will worry. But uhm - I can give you my phone number? so we can arrange a time to meet later. 

[cheongukapts-blog]

★☆ ACTIVITY CHECK 10/26 — 11/1

Please make sure to reblog this post before the end of next Saturday (11/01, 11:59 PM KST) if you don’t want to be out of an apartment by the end of the week.

This is now mandatory. We will no longer have mid-check warnings, and anyone who doesn’t reblog this will be automatically taken out of the tenant list. We will be less lenient about moving back in from now on.

People on (non-expired) hiatus will still be exempt, of course.

Make sure that your URL is the same as the one that’s listed in the main tenant list. If you changed without informing the building, we will assume that you have since moved on and have no interest in staying.

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Think of this post as your rent notice. Failure to comply will leave you without a place to stay. Thank you for your time, and have a good day tenants!

[seoxjoo]

"Do you trust me?"

the question comes abruptly in the course of their conversation and normally under typical circumstances, joohyun would simply say ‘of course’, in a sort of incredulous tone because there is nothing more obvious to her than the complete trust she places in the man she is currently leaning against. 

but there’s something somber in the way his voice has turned deeper and his arms have tightened almost imperceptibly around her waist and so she turns her head, twists her neck around to look at him as best she can with her lips just barely skimming across the curve of his jaw, pressing a kiss to the skin there as she whispers, “yes, i trust you. in everything. why do you ask?” 

and it’s true, she muses, as she waits for him to answer  - it is true that she trusts him in everything. There is likely very little actual basis for this trust - but then what is trust if not faith? She doesn’t need to know for certain what kind of person he is or his track record or anything - trust is just trust, plain and simple, and there is nothing as certain to her as the knowledge that should she fall, he’ll always be there. she is fully aware that he’s likely gathering his thoughts in order to present his words in the best possible manner, he’s extremely deliberate with what he says and she’s used to their conversations slowing into a sort of lazy, second-thought, exchange .

as such, she simply sighs and leans her forehead against his neck in order to wait comfortably, breathing in the faint smell of laundry detergent ( theirs now, not just his - she’s used his washing machine enough that her clothes started to smell like his ) and the warmth coming off his skin melts into hers and she shifts to get closer, eyes falling shut contentedly. 

he breaks the silence a few seconds later, lips parting and he swallows before murmuring something about wanting to take her somewhere on a trip, just the two of them, somewhere nice and warm and sunny - but it has to be a surprise. joohyun’s joking when she whispers something back jokingly about it being like a honeymoon but the way his eyes widen and his fingers clench against her stomach prove she’s actually right and she cannot help the little gasp of surprise - “are you…do you mean…?” 

she’s not entirely sure what she’s asking, but as always, he knows what she means and simply smiles, slow and knowing, before leaning forward and kissing the corner of her mouth. “maybe.” 

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[seoxjoo]

[ f l a s h b a c k ] 1 ` of hellos

[shimchngmn-blog]

( `with his bag slung over a shoulder and a hand stuffed in his pocket, changmin is standing by the door and having a brief conversation as to where they should head to after the dismissal bell, waiting for the crowd of students flooding the hallways to clear; in all honesty, organizing athletic day is the last thing on his mind — all until the partner (that he was unaware of) gives him a tap on the shoulder, like a prompt reminder that this is a pressing issue at hand, at least more urgent than hanging out with his classmates. his own introduction left forgotten at the tip of his tongue as his gaze settles on the girl who’s at least a head shorter than he is. love at first sight is a far-fetched concept, honestly. in his seventeen years of life there has never been once where such an idea of romance registers itself in his logical mind; he has always been about all things rational and barely any of emotional matters, all until now, and his thoughts are wiped, mind a state of blank so all he does is to stare. maybe it is the way she carries herself, maybe it is the way her eyes seem to be glistening with a hint of anticipation. His lips part around a quiet inhale before his friends give him a light shove on the shoulder saying they’re leaving first, and he snaps out of his reverie ) uhh ( `he presses his lips taut into a thin line as he meets her gaze once again, blinking once, then twice when realization dawns upon him that she seems to be waiting for a response or an answer of sorts from him ) I’m class 11-A..I mean, I’m Changmin, Shim Changmin.

[seoxjoo]

[ joohyun stares up at the other student - marveling for a second just how tall he really was. she'd seen him around, of course, but only from large distances and within crowds of people. for someone so used to being the tallest within a group, to actually have to look up at such a sharp angle is honestly something she isn't used to at all and it staggers her for a second, throwing her off. she's so left in her own thoughts that she hardly notices he hasn't replied in the longest time but it is something that occurs to her eventually - her lips parting into a little gasp of shock when he suddenly stumbles closer to her at his friend's push - and she barely has the presence of mind to step back a little. she looks back up at him expectantly, waiting for acknowledgement now that her head was back where it should be. although she does feel a little trepidation at the notion that perhaps he won't acknowledge her as an equal, that is overshadowed by her own assurance that even if it happens she'll just prove him completely wrong. they're going to have to work together regardless, so her worries are unfounded - at least, that's the logic she uses to try and push them out of her mind. when he finally, finally, replies to her ( it felt like ages in her head ) she sort of laughs, hiding her wide smile behind her hand - ] It's nice to meet you, Changmin-ssi. Please take good care of me. [ she cannot help but bow slightly once again, polite mannerisms bred into her very instincts ; it is the only reason why she was able to hold back the voice in her throat that waned to say that of course she knew who he was already, she'd found him on her own, hadn't she? she isn't entirely sure what to say next - so she broaches the subject of their project once more - ] we really do need to plan athletic day, though. when can we meet? 

[seoxjoo]

"I’m in jail."

x 

The call comes when she’s studying, and she writes out the last equation with her hand as she flips her phone open and answers it absently, “Hello?”

“I’m in jail." She pauses for a second at that sudden reply, a little breathy giggle escaping her - he takes himself much too seriously sometimes. 

"Oh, are you?" she replies, her cell phone cradled against her ear as she pushes herself away from her desk, her chair spinning wildly in a circle. "This is about that hypothetical, isn’t it." She isn’t expecting a serious answer, so it is a statement, not a question - after all it had been something they’d discussed not too many days ago…what she’d do if he ended up in jail. She isn’t entirely sure how the conversation happened, but that’s true of a lot of their talks, it just seems to be one long flow of thought that both of them understand but neither of them are able to explain to others. 

“No, I’m really in jail." That’s an expected answer, Changmin is nothing if not enthusiastic, after all, especially when it has to do with his own pet research projects. And though she should be worried when he’s so insistent on the truthfulness of his words she knows it isn’t serious - if it were, he’d be telling her to do something instead of wasting time on debating his own honesty. He’d have said ‘bail me out’, or ‘call my parents’ - as it were, he’s fishing to try and see what she’ll do and say. 

She tells him as much. 

"You know, this surprise roleplaying thing doesn’t really work when we know each other this well," she murmurs into the mouthpiece, laughing to herself when a very resolutely serious "I have no idea what you’re talking about," vibrates against her ear. 

"I can see you pouting all the way from my dorm, Changminnie~" she teases, the pen in her hand twirling between her fingers and tapping against her lips as she considers the unasked question he wants her to answer. She’s well aware he isn’t going to stop until she does what he wants, but it isn’t something she really minds. After a few moments of companionable silence, the sort where it seems that time stretches on forever in the seconds between breaths - she hides a smile and replies. 

"Well, honestly I’m disappointed you landed yourself in jail in the first place. You should know better, as an aspiring lawyer and all. I could just leave you there - if it’s because of something serious and you have to go to trial you’ll just get even more experience in being a lawyer, right?" She laughs, crossing her legs lightly, "But I think I’d miss you too much, and I kind of need you to fall asleep - so obviously I’d just bail you out, it’s the easiest way." 

"Now hurry up and get over here, it’s almost time for bed. Besides, you still haven’t told me what you’d do if I went to jail.” 

[lxckwolf-archive]

Sentence Memes.

[seoxjoo]

"You belong to me."

"I found you."

"I’m in jail."

"You make me so hot."

"I have to leave."

"Please don’t leave."

"Who did this to you?"

"You shouldn’t have done that."

"What happened last night."

"We never tell anyone about this."

"So, you want to play games?"

"Does that require pants?"

"Lets just have a lazy day."

"Then go kill the bitch."

"I’m pregnant."

"You broke me."

"Don’t touch me."

"You can’t fix this."

"There’s nowhere we can hide."

"I’m not listening."

"Who do you think you are?"

"I don’t need you here."

"Did I fall asleep?"

"A little evil goes a long, long way."

"I will not die."

"I don’t care."

"I have no regrets."

"I feel numb."

"All monsters are human."

"You look beautiful, but you don’t look fine."

"How many time have I told you to be more careful?"

"Let’s get you to bed."

"I can’t even look at you, you promised not to get into any more fights!"

"Are you crazy?”

"Do you trust me?"

"How did you escape?"

"Take. This. Off. "

"What’s in it for me?"

"What’s in it for you?"

[shyskybabe]

A daydream, or so it seemed.

Eva Meszaros Six words: 30/?

[seoxjoo]

o o c - ;

Alright guys! I've sent out all the thank you messages for the ad and followed everyone, if I happened to miss you just let me know, and be aware that you have my thanks ( and we should totally plot ouo ). And speaking of plots, please note that my relations/plots page is here, there'll be more to come. Please like this post, and I'll swoop to your inbox! 

[seoxjoo]

Would You Rather

Pierce your nose or your tongue? tongue. nose piercings are unsanitary and obvious.  Be serious or be funny? serious. Drink whole or skimmed milk? who cares?  Die in a fire or drowning? drowning. isn't it romantic? Spend time with your parents or enemies? sometimes i wonder if it isn't both. 

Are You?

Simple or complicated? who isn't complicated?  Straight, gay or bisexual? straight Tall or short? tall. Right handed or left handed? right A lover of music or a lover of books? books. i don't really have time to read anymore though. i listen to music on the way to work.  

Do You Prefer

Flowers or sweets? flowers. Grey or black? grey. black has only one shade.  Colour photos or black-and-white photos? no photos.  Sunrise or sunset? sunset. but can you really tell the difference?  M&Ms or Skittles? i don't eat sweets.  Staying up late or waking up early? i have to do both.  Sun or moon? the moon. Winter or Autumn? winter.  10 acquaintances or 2 best friends? 2 best friends.  Rainy or sunny? overcast.  Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla Vodka or Jack? ew. neither

About You

What time is it? 2 am. just got back from the night shift. Name? seo joohyun.  Nicknames? joo.  When is your birthday? june 28 What do you want? to sleep.  How many kids do you want? if i ever had children, then at least 2. siblings are a gift, i think.  What would you name a boy?  i don't like to plan for things that might not happen.  You want to get married? depends on who's asking. generally, no. 

Unique

Nervous habits? licking my lips.  Are you double-jointed? slightly. or maybe i'm just flexible.  Can you roll your tongue? one direction only  Can you raise one eyebrow? yes. Can you cross your eyes? of course. 

Random

Which shoe goes on first? right.  Ever thrown something at someone? in a fight? probably. i've thrown things to give them to someone, too.  On average, how much money do you carry with you? about 40,000 won?  What jewelry do you wear? nothing.  Do you twirl or cut spaghetti? just eat it. like eating naengmyun. or japchae. you don't twirl naengmyun.  Have you ever eaten Spam? of course? the stand across the street uses it in their kimbap and my favorite dinner place always puts it in ramyun.  Favourite ice cream? i thought you asked already.  How many kinds of cereal are in your cupboard? two. i only like one of them, though. 

Last

Alcoholic beverage? something disgustingly fruity.  Car ride? i can't remember. a few weeks ago? i normally just take public transit.  Song played? Person you saw? i don't know, i passed someone on the way to my apartment. if you mean last person i went to go see, that'd be myungjae.  Time you cried? i actually know this one for certain. it's been 67 days.  Fight? with my supervisor a few weeks back. 

[seoxjoo]

[ f l a s h b a c k ] 1 ` of hellos

[ joohyun was so excited, she could hardly keep still. her friends were almost at the brink with how often she brought up her impending duties, but it wasn't as though she could help it - she finally had been given the opportunity to do something, to make a difference, and even if it was athletic day and everyone was going to enjoy it no matter what she wanted to make it special. it was a  breathless gift of responsibility, the thought of it bringing a flush to her cheeks and a pound with each beat of her heart, her feet tearing out of the classroom the second the bell rings, skidding to a stop a few hallways over. Her books are clutched to her chest, being in such a hurry she'd just grabbed them instead of sliding them into her bag as she should have - she couldn't risk the chance of missing him! She rocks onto her tip toes to try and peek over the heads of the students spilling out of the small doorway, and lucky for her the person she's looking for is taller than average, and she spots him quickly. she proceeds to edge her way over, squeezing between others before tapping on his shoulder, clearing her throat and introducing herself with a bow ] Hello! I'm Seo Joohyun, class leader to 10-B. [ to be honest she could continue - an explication of ages is always helpful and she might need to explain how she knows who to look for - but that's something for another time, because this is urgent! ] We need to talk about athletic day. 

[5000letters]

A Lonely Guide to Forgetting People

(Warning this is difficult and teary and requires willpower because people are hard, and they will make you fall in love with them.) 

When you leave, do not look back. Do not turn your head or your shoulders. Point your chin. Walk.

Forget the photos, and the way you laughed. Fill letters with memories and put them in boxes. Put those boxes in the attic. Do not look at them for years. 

Cry until you are red faced and shaking and your fingers will not slow down from clenching and unclenching. Leave nail marks on your skin. Remember how it feels to hurt, remember that you will not always feel this way. 

Take walks in places you have not been, run until your feet hurt and your soles are aching and you are lost in forests or parks or night time trail rides (with someone who is not the person you want to forget.) 

Look for magic, in books and airplanes and hidden places like secret gardens and parks and those cats, the ones you don’t know, the ones who rub their heads against your calves and purr. Let that feeling fill you like warm milk. 

Write it down. Burn it. Write it again. 

You will be a bundle of nerves, accept it, move on. Hold onto the edges of your skin, tighten your arms around your organs, make sure they do not fall out. 

Beautiful things exist everywhere, you are a star and that boy over there is another and that woman and that little girl. 

Remember you will be happy again, remember to breathe. 

(If you have forgotten: inhale, exhale, expand, be balloon like, be beautiful.)