What if I don't, and what if I do?

[positivedoodles]

[seraphic5]

Color Me Purple

Color me purple, I beg you, color me purple. * A stolen wink A broken caress A forgotten hello A half-remembered goodbye kiss. The assault of vulnerability The pleading eyes, piercing the cold heart. The imagined innocence The constructed truths The benign language, All worshipping At the tomb of forgotten meaning. * Color me black, No color me grey (I know yet I don't know). Color me slowly. * The embarrassed laugh The thumping heart. (A kid's eagerness to please?) The scared sweat The clashing of teeth The inhaling of the other's breath. A forced kiss and a preteen kid. * Color me white. Listen to the broken pleas, Please, color me white! * "It was so long back, All forgotten and Reconstructed in your head. It was only a forced kiss Barely lasting few seconds. The nightmares are your construction." (Do I wish them every night then?) "But you said yes. You imagine and victimize yourself. I never negated you, only read selectively. You turn vile in retrospect, you accuse me and hurt me. I respect you. But what if, maybe, I can help you? Your no is a yes, For everyone wants it. I have a friend... Just meet them once! Well, you let him in on your bed." * Color me nothing And leave me alone! * Color me purple Not coz my soul has turned black and blue From your honey coated words, But coz I have found my people. Color me grey Not coz you see me confused But coz I know why I need time. Color me black Not for the abuse, the grief, and the black dog But for I am happy with me. Color me white Not coz then the erasure will hurt less But coz I have found someone who understands me well.

[unapologetically-human]

You may feel like you’re failing at recovery because you’ve been struggling for so long — but you’re not. Recovery isn’t a straight road. It isn’t something that happens over the course of a few days or months, or even a few years. It’s a path lined with ups and downs and road blocks and dead ends. It’s difficult and painful and exhausting. And it takes time. It takes time to unlearn the negative beliefs you’ve internalized. And it takes time to learn how to exist without using the behaviors you’ve depended on your whole life to survive. So if you’re feeling stuck right now, know that this is a part of your process. Know that it’s normal and not anything you need to be ashamed of. The fact that you’re still struggling doesn’t mean you’re going to be battling this forever. It just means that you have some more work to do. And that’s okay. You aren’t broken or hopeless. You’re wounded, but you can heal. You are healing, right now. Trust that you will get to where you need to be when it’s time. You’re doing the best you can to cope and make it through each day, and it’s enough. No matter where you’re at in your recovery, you’re enough.

Daniell Koepke (via internal-acceptance-movement)

[vintagemermaidscove]

College students only have 2 levels of stress:

1) I don’t give a fuck

2) OH MY GOD IF I CAN’T DO THIS MY LIFE IS OVER I’M GONNA HAVE TO WORK AT MCDONALDS

There is no in between.

[movie]

Badass vintage and modern female movie characters

[seraphic5]

What if we were allowed to wear our souls on the outside? Maybe then the world would not think of us as fools to shed our pretences and stand soul naked in front of a thousand indifferent eyes, singing our off-tune songs, begging and pleading for the deaf ears to pay heed to the song that is trapped inside of us waiting to burst out.

If only it were fashionable to wear our souls out in the open and not hide it under the layers of pretence. So whenever we would meet each other with pleasant smiles and hi-fives and even firm handshakes, we would also silently recognise in each other’s eyes our true souls and in a blink we would almost communicate “I’ll see your soul and raise you mine.” We would exist in contradictions and paradoxes without feeling the weight of being pulled apart by antithetical forces splintering and colliding parts of us inside us. Maybe then each of our fractured fragmented soul would shine out as shattered nuclear reactors, becoming beacons of hope for the isolated, shipwrecked souls that would have got tired of weathering the storm and might be on the verge of giving up.

Yes, it would be still performances, and we would still be unsure of who we really are. But it would be beautiful because our performances will be different, not weighed down by who expects what of us. There won’t be expectations from us and maybe that would be the only expectation under whose weight we will crumble piece by piece. There will be malice and jealousy, bravery and cowardice, gentleness and fierceness, kindness and heartlessness. They all might coexist within some of us (and separately for the luckier ones amongst us). But these would be nouns arbitrarily assigned devoid of meaning because when we all will be soul naked in front of each other we would see what we all are and nouns and labels would mean nothing. There would be no indifferent eyes, only eyes that see and accept all, and ears that hear tunes in our songs for no song would be off-tune then.

It would always be soul on soul. No pretence attached.

~ Musings of a Fool

[xmadam-me]

My life right now. 💀

[honerablerosemary-deactivated20]

MY GRANDPA WANTED TO BE AN ARTIST

BUT HE HAD 7 KIDS AND A WIFE TO FEED SO HE ENDED UP OWNING A GROCERY STORE AFTER SERVING IN WW2

TODAY MY DAD WAS CLEANING THE HOUSE AND FOUND SOME PENCIL DRAWINGS THAT MY GRANDPA DID AND ASKED IF I WANTED TO HAVE THEM AND I

CAN WE JUST LOOK AT THIS

MY BAD WEBCAM PICTURES DON’T EVEN DO THEM JUSTICE LIKE LOOK AT THESE

MY GRANDPA NEVER BECAME A FAMOUS ARTIST

BUT I WANT TO MAKE HIM KNOWN

[angstyfries-deactivated20160327]

this is so beautiful hell im crying

[fairykids]

i wish ur grandpa could know that almost 1 million people have seen his artwork. 

[somelittlejoy]

To worry or to smile, such is the choice when we are assailed by the strange; our decision depends on how familiar we are with our own ghosts.

Julia Kristeva (via somelittlejoy)

[did-you-know]

Magnets + tilt.

Source

[oddismycopilot]

My lesbian lit lists

Although flattered by the honor bestowed upon me by littleoases, I really can’t claim to be an expert on lesbian literature; there are others who have far more knowledge than I do, with fuckyeahlesbianliterature being preeminent in the field, IMO. However, I have read quite a bit of it, and since it’s not always easy to find, I have come up with some recommendations/suggestions to share with folks seeking out lesbian fiction. For those who are interested, here is a list of lesfic posts I have made: 

My Top Five All-Time Lesbian Fiction Favorites 

Review of Her Name in the Sky by Kelly Quindlen

Books by Carol Anshaw

Books by Lucy Jane Bledsoe

Books by R J Samuel

Book suggestions for lesbian, queer, and questioning girls 

Lesbian Lit: Pulp fiction

Lesbian Lit: Canon classics 

Lesbian Lit: Humor

Lesbian Lit: Romance

[followpearlpinesnotthisblog]

Crewniverse!

love Steven Universe, it’s an amazing show made by Rebecca Sugar! And as much as i love her, i feel like the rest of the crew don’t get much recognition! So here’s a masterpost of where you can find the crew onli ( I recommend you go and follow all of them! )

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rebeccasugar

ianjq

joethejohnston

hilaryflorido

jeffliujeffliu

@raveneesimo

stevensugar

ducksofrubber

waltzforluma

colin-howard

troffie

surasshu

laurenzuke

neo-rama

egomatter

Twitter

Rebecca Sugar

Ian JQ

Lauren Zuke

Jeff Liu

Amber Rogers

Steven Sugar

Katie Mitroff

Danny Hynes

Lamar Abrams

Emily Walus

Ben Levin

Matt Burnett 

Aivi Tran

Surasshu

Sam Bosma

Jeremy Sorese

Angie Wang

( List doesn’t include voice actors, sorry )

I hope this list helps show we need to share awareness for our fellow crew members!

[redbeardace]

I’m sorry, you were saying something about how asexuality is a “disorder”?

The American Psychiatric Association disagrees with you.  Officially.  In print.

[sullied-deactivated20141030]

i am so jealous of all the people who are comfortable with who they are physically and mentally

[tukut]

college tips 

- do  not  take  8 am classes

- dont take 3 hr classes that only meet once a week

- sleep 

- when u write an essay pick out the quotes/examples u want and write the essay around it

- email ur teachers and meet with ur advisors regularly

- quizlet

- TRIPLE CHECK YOUR ALARMS 

- bring tupperware to the dining hall to smuggle out extra food

[fkhjsafjkl]

- dont wear your lanyard around your neck

- try to group your classes together in back-to-back time blocks. you wont want to go back to class once you get home

- STAY ON TOP OF YOUR HOMEWORK EVEN IF THERE ARE OPEN DUE DATES

- when walking on the sidewalk keep all the way to the right especially if your pace is slow

- yes, sometimes we can hear the music through your earbuds. we really don’t care or mind

- try not to eat a whole bunch after 10PM, especially fatty foods like pizza or lots of pop. you’ll get stomach aches in the morning

- nerd clubs are 100% okay and there are tons of students who share your interests with you, you just have to look

- take out the fucking trash

[fortheloveofmish-deactivated201]

-if you’re in a completely silent library, be courteous of others and don’t blare your music through your earbuds PLEASE

-always sit by plug outlets

-enjoy your time off

-keep a log of all passwords and usernames for online homework (YOU WILL HAVE ONLINE HOMEWORK)

-get a planner

-geT A PLANNER

-GET A PLANNER

-USE the planner

-ps 8ams aren’t that bad if it’s not every day

[100493503004422]

*has one uncomfortable interaction* *is fucked up for 3 days*

[placeholderurlimgone]

me: *goes to nasa* hello i would like to volunteer to be thrown into the sun nasa: u would die me: i beg u