Evermore

Fighting the darkness within

[latenights]

blood

[fortheloveofnutrition]

For those of us who pick and graze throughout the day.

[shmwrites]

i fear that

i am

both

too much

yet

not enough

even at my best i’m a mess.

[buddhaprayerbeads]

Press This Point For 1 Minute And See What Happens To Your Body

[surfer-roo01]

[tew-sad]

[alex-is-fragile-deactivated2019]

going back

back to obsessing.

back to late night thoughts.

back to self destruction.

back to compulsive behaviors.

back to wasting time.

back to procrastinating.

back to spending most of my time in bed.

back to self sabotage.

back to ruining everything i touch.

back to not getting shit done.

back to posting on all my accounts.

back to overthinking.

back to spending too much time on my phone.

back to feeling helpless.

back to oversharing.

back to feeling lonely.

back to feeling worthless.

back to spending too much time my socials.

back to feeling hopeless.

back to realizing i don’t have a purpose.

back to binging.

back to being fat.

back to having urges.

back to being stuck in a cycle.

back to going too far.

back to my bed.

i’m going backwards instead of forwards.

i can’t be who i was before.

what if i become worse than that?

[sunnyandpositive]

I love the clouds 🌤☁️❤️

[thepowerwithin]

“Relax. Breathe. It’s okay, you have time. Take it day by day and allow things to unfold as they’re meant to. Your life will happen according to its own timing, and you will become the person you’re meant to be.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin - More on Instragram

[flowingpoetry]

I avoid writing these days

I avoid to be alone with my thoughts

I feel exhausted and yet strong

Until i come back home from work

And then i sink in a state of paranoid fatigue

Where all i want to do is sleep

And yet I never feel refreshed

And then i have to study

And then i have to read

And then i have to cook to eat

And then i have to have to have to have to have to have to

Until the cycle is unending and the loop just goes on

And all the while i know I’m wrong

I know i know i know

I should get up and exercise

I should get up and live

I should pick up the pen and write

Write till my fingers bleed.

But I’ve been running away from my problems all my life

And I’ve gotten rather good at it

So excuse me if my only outlet

Has now fallen into the category

of things I’m not supposed to touch

because they hurt a little bit too much

[voidlightmoon]

Illuminate me

last light fading as a breath

set me, set me free

give me life, or death

Your words, to me,

a tangle

cracked streets and blood strewn debris

all there is to know, is pain

taking, and giving the same

Illuminate me, if you dare

show me, I beg you

just show me

you care

[bumbleblossoms]

“Where are you now? What happened to hands clutching hands as we desperately stood up against a world that wanted to tear us apart. I remember there was passion. Nights full of tears, and we knew just how to fix it. You were a moment away, and you were my world. It felt like love, whatever love meant to me then. Time sanded away the colorful memories of you, and there’s mostly just a blur left. I don’t really know what happened. I think all that is left is this yearning to be with you again, in any way I can. But you’re gone, so it just sits here, wanting to run to empty memories.”

— Miriam Kamens, a breath away

[plutoisrad]

“I wanted to be the person you were scared to lose. But somehow, someway, I became the person you gave up, to place someone else.”

-(via nemoday)

[i-wrotethisforme]

We always want sunshine but life’s boring without the thunder and lightning.

[serenasmiles]

💙💜💙

[jonaswpoetry]

Grasping peace

A single strand has come undone

So now ascent mayn’t be begun –

The ladder rope that I do hold

Does carry chance of fall and fold

 -

To spare collapse with watered eyes

My sorry self dares not try rise,

Yet neither shall coarse hands release

This fraying chance at grasping peace

[voidlightmoon]

River

so it goes on, and on

winding, binding its way through

and to

rising, sinking, loves enduring song

riven with hurt, with wounds,

with pain which stops the heart

driven and driving

hoping, and striving

for just another start

it’s taken a long time to see

that just because something is real

doesn’t mean

that it will ever be

water flows, water knows, water shows

everything of you

and nothing,

nothing of me

[dg-fragments]

Choices

What happened to our choices,

Life we imagined, dreams we had shared,

What about all the stories,

For which we once cared,

Now they lay turning into dust,

For our hearts are covered in rust,

The chosen ones, we called ourselves,

For each other, yet how many times,

Did we really choose each other,

Over someone else.

- DG