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the oxymoron you did not dare to solve/ a paradox/ love finder/ soul searcher/ foodie and a dreamer

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Hi tumblr! I know it's quite early to be overly dramatic but I just really need to let this off. I'm stuck in this phase where I don't think I'm happy with my life anymore. I just,. .. I just just don't know how to hold on any longer, I don't want to continue. I hate myself! I hate myself for being so overly dramatic, for being irritable, for being stupid, for being kind, and for being just plain sad. I don't wanna be sad. Believe me, I tried, I'm trying.. I pray, I play, I make hobbies, I sleep, I eat, I cry but none of it helps. I can't stop thinking things. My mind can't stop over processing everything. I think I'm gonna be crazy. I'm tired of fitting myself into anyone's idea of me. I'm tired of being the good kid who never said No. I'm tired of hearing those voices asking me if am I really that happy? I'm tired of asking myself, am I? And I'm tired of telling myself "Yes, I am", eventhough deep down, I'm not.

To the stranger reading this, I hope you're not stuck in the same place as I am. I hope you're happy scrolling your feed, talking to your friends, and minding your own beautiful life. I hope that it will never comes the day that you'll have to write something as if it was your dying note.

May the silver lining show itself to me, while I still can hold it.

Good night tumblr. Cry with me tonight.

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Behind those smiles, she was crying for help

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Dami pang gustong sabihin ..

.. ngunit wag nalang muna

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Ang sakit ng ulo ko, mej mainit din yung mata ko

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Eto ba yun?

Eto ba yung sinasabi nilang pag ibig?

Parang sobrang bigat na burden kapag may nagmamahal sayo, kase parang kailangan mong ingatan yung mga kilos mo wag lang silang masaktan.

Kase alam mo sa sarili mo na masakit ang mahalin ka

Kase hindi ka pa buo para mahalin.

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Mas mahirap pala yung ikaw ang magiging dahilan ng kalungkutan ng iba, kumpara sa ikaw mismo yung malungkot.

Ibalik nyo na ako sa pagiging malungkot

Mas mainam yun, kesa sa makasakit pa ng iba.

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We are no rehabilitation centers, stop using us to heal yourself.

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Maaari ba tayong bumalik sa umpisa?

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Halloween Special Poll!

Okay so I have concept art for Sunny Side Blogs costume but I wanna get everyones opinions on which one they prefer before choosing!

So, heres a picture of the concepts!

The choices in order from top left across are

Victorian Belle, Creepy Doll

Phantom/Spirit, and Zombie!

Vote now and reblog to get more votes!

Taglist:

@ravenpuffwriter @galexy-eevee @rosewinterborn @aj-the-satyr @littleredwritinghat

@emmaghost181 @hyba @toffee-obession @inspiring-prompts @azhrhere @candy687

@darlingjas98 @pied-piper-of-hamlet @with-a-little-bit-of-light @lazydreamlandblaze

@clocksandchaos @edgy-english-egg @ravenpuffwriter @cookiecutterwrites @just-george-here @lukada

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They all look amazing, but Phantom/Spirit looks the best!

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Paano nga ba mag move on?

Mayroong iba na idinadaan sa kanta, sa mga awiting tumatama sa kanila

Tumatagos mula puso hanggang kaluluwa

Dinadama ang sakit hanggang sa mamanhid na

Mayroon namang iba na humuhugot ng lakas ng loob sa alak

Yung iba ay walang magawa kundi ang umiyak

Ang iba nama'y

Naghahanap ng karamay

Naghahanap ng sasalong kamay

Pinipilit ibaling ang pagtingin sa iba

Naghahanap ng pusong sawing kagaya ng kaniya

Malilibang

Mahihibang

Tatabang

Tatabang ang kay tamis nitong ngiti

Tatabang ang matamis nitong pagtingin sa ideya ng pag ibig na ilang taon nilang itinayo , itinayo na tila ba isang gusaling kulang ang pundasyon

Isa nanamang nasawing relasyon

Maraming sinusubukan

Ilan nadin ang natitikman

Ngunit hindi padin makamtan

Na sya'y iyong makalimutan

Paano nga ba mag move on?

Ano ano nga ba ang dapat gawin upang makalimot?

Kung ako ang iyong tatanungin

“Wala”

Wala kang dapat gawin

Wala kang dapat sisihin

Wala kang dapat gawin

Wag kang humanap ng bagong mamahalin

Hayaan mo munang sarili'y mapag isa

Mahilom ang sugat nang walang tulong ng iba

Marahil'y makatulong sa iba ay sumaya

Ngunit hindi ba’t mas maganda kung tuklasin mo muna ang sarili mo ng mag isa?

Mag isip isip

Ipahinga ang sarili

Ayos lang na damhin ang sakit

Sakit na kalauna'y magiging aral din

Huwag kang mag alala

Kung ikaw man ay mag isa

Hindi ba’t ang basong basag kapag pinilit gamitin ay mas lalong nakakapinsala?

Huwag mo munang madaliin

Huwag mo munang pilitin

Hindi ba’t ang syang maglakad ng matulin

Kung matinik ay mas malalim?

Matuto munang lumigaya

Ng walang tulong ng iba

Kapag ikaw ay handa na

Kapag ang sakit ay limot mo na

Kapag sya ay napatawad mo na

Muli, ikaw ay iibig na

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Tulungan mo akong ihayag ang aking nararamdaman sa pamamagitan ng pagsulat.

Huwag mo akong hayaang malunod sa mga ideyang hindi ko mailahad.

Huwag mo akong hayaang ilahad ang damdamin sa maling paraan.

Tulungan mo akong pigilan ang aking naraaramdaman sa pamamagitan ng pagsulat.

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When people don’t care about how others would feel. When the only thing that matter is the face on their feed. When everyone is unsure and the world has no cure. When all gives less, and take all of what’s rest. When the world is uncertain and everyone closed their curtain.

When everything on the desk is nothing but a mess and life thrown things they called test

When life is a big question and everyone is untrue

I will be the only sure thing in this world full of uncertainties 

I will cut all doubts and boundaries 

I will love like there is no tomorrow 

I will never be afraid in pain and in sorrow.

I will never regret the things I’ve said and done for love

For I will regret more if I didn’t 

It doesn’t matter if it will work or not, doesn’t matter how it ends. Atleast for once you’ve experienced, how to love someone like there is no end.

#random #poetry #love #brokenhearts