Parting is such sweet sorrow (OOC)
((Dear BUC (my online family, as I've called you all time and time again), So I know I've been silent. I kind of just stopped going near the chat. I have an overwhelming sense of guilt whenever I think of you all. I feel like I've abandoned you. I'm ashamed to really contact people because ignoring the fact that I just dropped off of the Earth here is so much easier and simpler. I'm sorry. That's not what I've meant to do at all. I still think of all of you so much. You all got me through one of the worst rough patches I've yet had in my life and I can't thank any of you enough. I love you all with everything I have and don't want to lose you all, although part of me is afraid that my absence has made it so that I already have? I hate goodbyes. I hate partings. I hate endings. But maybe it's a new beginning? I don't know. I guess I'll find out eventually though. I'm still figuring everything out with my life. There's a ton of stress and I've learned more about myself this summer than I have in a long time- good and bad things. I hope you all don't think I've wronged you, I haven't meant to cause any negativity for any of you. I love you all too much to wish any of you harm or sadness or anything of the sort. On the contrary, I wish you all the best of luck, the best wishes. I hope that you all find happiness and live life to the fullest. I hope that those of you struggling will conquer and surpass the obstacles that challenge you day to day. I wish so much for all of you. This is really bittersweet for me and I've been putting it off for quite some time, but I knew it was inevitable in the end. I don't have the time, energy, or muse to keep up with roleplay, as much as I'd love to. I have so much with school, with family, with personal struggles that I just can't keep up with this. I haven't been able to for a while. I don't want you guys to worry though. I'm actually happy, which is really really nice. Things are running smoothly for the most part, and I'm learning to cope with the crazy things that keep popping up in my life and trying to push me down. I have high hopes for the future, which is all I can really wish for. There's so much in store for all of you and I hope you all know how special you all are to me and just as individuals. I think most of you if not all of you know my personal blog- @my-dreams-under-your-feet. Send me a message any time, I'd really love to talk to you all. I'm always here for talking, whether it's just catching up or venting or talking about life. Never worry about annoying me or anything like that, I'd tell you if I didn't want to talk. Seriously, come message me please some time. I dread falling out of contact with you all. It's the last thing that I want this to result in. Anyway, I love all of you to pieces. ALL of you mean so much to me and have made a lasting imprint on my life. I won't forget you ever. Stay amazing, know that you're beautiful, and keep being you because you're some of the best people I know. Love, Kat PS- I'll leave this message up for a week and then I'll be deleting the account unless there are objections. It's sort of painful for me to look at it and know that I just left you all. ))














