I’m venting so this is about to be all over the place and sound whiny af
So we were planning a trip to New Jersey next year to see my little brother. I ask what days was my mom planning this. She says oh I was thinking April 25th-May 8th. Alright, first off. My birthday is May 8th. Yeah, I wanna spend my birthday flying and not doing anything for my birthday. Every year when it comes to my birthday my family seems to not care at all. And I’ve honestly come to expect it nowadays. I make a big deal about other people’s birthdays and beat myself up majorly if they feel even less than special on that day. So it’s a little annoying when my friends (besides like one maybe two people) and family dont care at all. I never get a hey what are you planning for your birthday? or hey what do YOU wanna do for your birthday? Last year I spent it basically at home. No one hit me up to hang out at all. Anyways..
I tell her no I’m not doing that. Next she tells me I’m going to miss 4 maybe 5 days of work and that I should be okay because I have vacation days. When a few days ago she told me I would only have to use 2 maybe 3. No offense to my brother, but I don’t wanna use all my vacation days on this trip. Especially with my birthday being so close. I usually take those days off and celebrate myself because no one else seems to want to and it’s something I do for ME.
My mom also doesnt seem to understand that we don’t need to see my brother every year. For every vacation. He’s in the military. There are people who are lucky to see their family members in the military once every 5 years. We literally saw him last October for his graduation. Which I used my vacation days for. We saw him in December. We saw him in June of this year for my cousin’s wedding. Which I used my vacation days for. And now she wants him to fly down for Christmas and wants me to take days off so we can do something. And then she wants me to take days off in April so we can fly up there and see him. I love seeing him, but every time we do it’s about him and what does he want to do. Which is cool to an extent. But sometime I wanna do things I WANT TO DO. I mean it’s my vacation days, I should be using those days to do things I want to do. But I’m nice and don’t say anything so by the end of the trips its just me taking days off for other people. And doing things every one else wants to do.
I guess I’m just irritated cause I care so much about other people and will do what they want, but when it comes to other people caring about me and willing to do things I want to do, I’m shit out of luck. I know for a fact that if I moved far away, my family wouldnt be visiting me like this or caring about me this much. And thats irritating. I need to start doing things for myself more often and saying no to what other people want.
