For eternity and beyond I will miss what I was

I quit. But I'm still Shadowsans wife and if this upsets you don't be mad pls I'm not mean and this is a joke . Oh also I'm a disabled bpd yume shipper so I'm very very weird . Not dragging other women down, only myself because I'm sick and this is what I do So don't block me pls I swear I'm a good person I'm not mean

[shadownymphette]

Im quitting (sorry I accidentally deleted the post without noticing. I have a bit copy and pasted so)

You are welcome anons and everyone that sent me rape and death threats

I didn't want it to come to this, but I think it's time to call it quits. Or I hope so

I have to be honest. I really hate it here.

I think we all know why but, I do. I really do.

Everytime I open this site i hear the voices calling me that same name.

I can't keep it up, and I feel so much pain

It's just ever since that day my life has been, to shit.

Really to the shit.

And I'm not enjoying my life

I miss the days where i was just small creator with a cringy yume and drawing doodles in my notebook during class.

And if I could tsotp myself from posting any of it, I would. I hate where i am at I hate what I've become

And now I'm getting sent harassment

When I started Tumblr I thought of that little girl who wanted to make people smile, even at her own expense. Make people laugh and smile. I never wanted to anger, or upset, or hurt.

It was never my intention, and for that I'm sorry to everyone I've failed.

Suppose I should explain myself about why I even started tumblr

To heal

When i started Tumblr I'd left an abusive environment. Too bad I'm going right back.

When I left originally, I was tired. And I needed an outlet. And that's what cs is to me, an outlet. To release my trauma. And I know I've hurt people with it, I'm sorry.

Shadowlily was a symbol of my healing. But now it's a symbol of how desperate I am for attention and recognition. I create with spite. Not with love but with the need to be a star and loved

So yeah I'm an attention seeker. What can i say.

My au was made to help me with cptsd and all my other disorders. But it's stopped working so now I'm defenseless. And it's why I've been such a mess

And these anons were the final straw. I tell people not to bully me, not to harass me. Not to be harsh. Because I'm so mentally ill it will kill me. And if it doesn't it will leave permanent trauma and affects. I wish people understood

The insult dicksucker has ruined my life. And since that day it's been used against me anh chance. I'm so tored

Shadowlily has my heart. And thank you to everyone who supported and loved my work. And got inspired by it. But I don't think shadowlily and I are welcome anymore.

I don't FEEL welcome. I feel judged. I feel hated. My self consciousness will forever haunt me so long I'm on this app. And I was right, so you win anons. I'm out of here

I'll think abt deleting posts. But I do feel pained about it. And all of this.

If I ever come back it'll be a new user (moots will know) and it will NOT be Cs related. Because this Fandom doesn't want me in it and I understand and will take a step back

I however will still keep my rp accounts, I'll think about it. I love rping and I'll see

Finally I love you All Thank you really for everything

The support was legendary and what kept me going but it's time to move on

Idk what I'll do after this, maybe kms (trying not to) maybe move on. But just know I love you all

For eternity and beyond

Love from the catharsis coast

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[shadownymphette]

Wait what situatiin/genq I don't have tt

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

Fab1ola did an edit of Aisha and she made Aisha say she was the slave of Andros, many of her followers tried defending her.

[shadownymphette]

Oh what the fuck.....

[winxclubuniverse]

Yeah its really disgusting 🫩

[melissatheshowgirl]

I checked the account but I couldn't find where they said that so I gave up

[shadownymphette]

Coward rremoved jt

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[shadownymphette]

Wait what situatiin/genq I don't have tt

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

Fab1ola did an edit of Aisha and she made Aisha say she was the slave of Andros, many of her followers tried defending her.

[shadownymphette]

Oh what the fuck.....

[winxclubuniverse]

Yeah its really disgusting 🫩

[shadownymphette]

I rremember having tt in 2023 and the community was horrible there was everyone beefing and using Ai

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[melissatheshowgirl]

Mother Flora is still active??? Jesus Christ I haven't heard that name in years she pmo so bad

[shadownymphette]

He was never fucking funny dude.

His bloom slander was so fucking unfunny

[melissatheshowgirl]

Oh it's a guy too

Idk what I expected

[shadownymphette]

Misogyny ❤️

[subtletwilighteternity]

THEMED TAG GAME

If you have one, describe you're Sona/blog character in the simplest way possible

I'll go first

Big space lady

@weedleysnumberonefan, @cosmic-entity-official, @anonmous-offical, @killer-offical

[ubcomics]

Inverted cartoon cat.

@kittysluvforfics @idontwant2bhereijustwant2lookart @slimeciclesimp @cutesygamerava @bigbackjack-owo @ourabsentlord

[kittysluvforfics]

Voltron simp

@thegingerestginger @queenofsoggydrownedapes

[mollyv-offical]

**lesbian cat

@idontwant2bhereijustwant2lookart

@aedynlikesgreen

[aedynlikesgreen]

bug

@itsaboon @annoying--moth @angeygirl @vaguelyhumorousbeans @gmtgab @strwberrysl4shed @jaedyn-here +open tags

[jaedyn-here]

virtual idol

@fbpanimations @miffku @theannoyingparasite @shadownymphette @angel-pd + open tags

[shadownymphette]

Morally gray mentally ill dream chaser who's doomed and fucked

Open tags :3

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[melissatheshowgirl]

Mother Flora is still active??? Jesus Christ I haven't heard that name in years she pmo so bad

[shadownymphette]

He was never fucking funny dude.

His bloom slander was so fucking unfunny

[thebettercharles]

This one roblox game took over my life

Unfortunately @melissatheshowgirl keeps KILLING PEOPLE

[imabouttoplaymy-aceeee]

At least you guys could play

I died in shift 2 when we played remember

[thebettercharles]

You were stupid

[shadownymphette]

Came bback here to say I played with melissa

Look I love Melissa, habibti Melissa.

But uhm

Well.

Errrr

Ok.

[melissatheshowgirl]

WHAT'D I DO BESIDES BEING ATTACKED BY MIMICS

[shadownymphette]

STOP GETTING STALKER'D

[thebettercharles]

This one roblox game took over my life

Unfortunately @melissatheshowgirl keeps KILLING PEOPLE

[imabouttoplaymy-aceeee]

At least you guys could play

I died in shift 2 when we played remember

[thebettercharles]

You were stupid

[shadownymphette]

Came bback here to say I played with melissa

Look I love Melissa, habibti Melissa.

But uhm

Well.

Errrr

Ok.

[shadownymphette]

Mdni accounts try not to interact with minors challenge failed

[ring-a-ding-ding123]

Me: “I can’t have NPD tho cuz I’m not grandiose!”

also me: “what if that person fell into the river next to us, and I saved them and everyone thinks I’m wonderful and a hero and—

what if I got laws in place to help improve my home city and the people in need and I was on tv for that making a speech—

WHAT IF I WAS THE PRESIDENT OF—“

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[shadownymphette]

Wait what situatiin/genq I don't have tt

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

Fab1ola did an edit of Aisha and she made Aisha say she was the slave of Andros, many of her followers tried defending her.

[shadownymphette]

Oh what the fuck.....

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[perfectlythoughtfulwhispers]

The Aisha situation on TikTok just PMO so bad. No you didn't make a funny joke about Aisha, you're a frickin racist fab1ola of whatever. And Mother Flora with all that Bloom hate trying to make Bloom what she isn't also pmo

[shadownymphette]

Wait what situatiin/genq I don't have tt

[melissatheshowgirl]

Just a quick rant you might like :D

This is basically an issue I have with the Fandom and society

Now I know Daphne x thoren is definetly hated. (sad) but I'm not really gonna start hating on those who aren't. Afan because yk preference opinions all that

But one critism always rubs me the wrong way which is "Daphne is strong and independent why does she need a man to protect her"

Or something along that

This one makes me annoyed because it's clearly deep rooted in misogyny

The concept that once a woman marries she has to submit to her husband and get protected by said husband is a misogynistic concept

Now I've noticed female characters in media who are considered strong when they get a partner are considered "not badass and weakened" but not the same standard with men. And even then it's just such a misogynistic thing to say

The belief that when a woman gets married or falls in love she suddenly lost her entire badassery is inherently sexist. Intentional or not

It's not something leftist to say. I feel like society isn't realizing the issue.

We want women to be autonomous to get married! Yes forcing marriage sucks, but belittling a woman for getting married is just as bad

Daphne can be married and still be a powerful independent woman, I don't actually remember thoren saving her, rather the opposite!

The concept of belittling powerful women for marriage in general has been an issue for so long, implying marriage takes away your personaloty(look at what people are doing to Taylor!) and it's bleeding into people's perception of media.

Plus the misusage of pick me girl which is a rant for another time that I'll do later today maybe if you are interested

And like you don't have to adore the ship to admit it's a sexist thing to say, and my least favorite critism of seismic mask for this reason

Okie bai

The love of my life omg

The concept of people calling women “tradwives” the second they wanna get married is misogynistic and I hate how no one is talking about it

People get married when they’re in love and they can get partners to love and not to protect them btw guys

It’s also so weird how “badass” women can’t get boyfriends in media because not being submissive is seen as not feminine therefore it supports the idea of “if you’re not a damsel in distress soft sub girl you either have to stay single or be a lesbian” which I HATE

Not to mention Daphne literally not doing anything that would be seen as “badass” anyway

[shadownymphette]

THANK YYOU.

This wwhole thing is a preformatist feminism thing

It all originated from being against forced marriage and the traditional marriage stereotypes that are generally abusive

But instead of preaching "Women deserve the autonomy to get married, and not lose autonomy while doing so" the preformatust feminists are preaching "women that get married are anti feminist bitches"

Strong men can get a girlfriend and this critism wouldn't happen. If anything they criticize said girlfriend

Being single or in any way queer is powerful because the woman had the autonomy to choose so, I agree. But what about women who chose their marriage as well

We are classifying them but it's really all the same beautiful thing that is women's autonomy and the fact that women are deluded into believing otherwise is just crazy

And you could argue oh it's just media lys but media affects reality. Because this 'argument' is frankly pushing a misogynistic stereotype onto young girls that finding love will make them weak tradwives

The issue surpasses Daphne and thoren it's about the message being pushed acriss

I really hope golden era fans can understand this because this pattern I also noticed with aisha (which also ties into racism and antiblackness but I will be talking about this later onbbecause it's a lot more deep and focuses more on the Fandom perception of aisha)

[winxclubuniverse]

THIS ALL OF THIS!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Yes, please talk about Aisha, I hate how the Fandom treats her sometimes

[shadownymphette]

THANK YYOU 🥹

Aisha is so masculinized(is that the word) by the Fandom its crazy...

[shadownymphette]

Some of you Winx fans...

[shadow-otousan]

Your blog is pure heaven/vpos

Thank you! I’m flattered

[shadownymphette]

YWW :DD I REALLY LOVE IT I'M A HUGE SHADOWSAN STAN

[tenblades]

usually stoic f/o who gets cuteness aggression because of you but doesn't know what to do with it. you're sitting together, just casually leaning on each other while you watch some show, and all of sudden they're biting your face. not hard, just enough to gently hold the flesh of your cheek between their teeth.

that is, until they realize what they're doing and sheepishly release their jaw, pretending as if nothing happened. but their avoidant eyes and slight flush tells you all you need to know.

[shadownymphette]

This system blog who's against self diagnosis followed me so I'm here to say:

I am self diagnosed. Diagnosis is a privellege. I did extensive research and consulted psychologist friends. Self diagnosis is valid.

Also not all systems want final fusion and that's okay it's no one's fucking business. I want final fusion but it's just not your business

Never blocked a follower before but like I'm on your dni so wtv idgaf