until now i cant find the answers to my questions, i still cant figure out the reasons why it has to end suddenly? Was it you or was it really me? I dont know and i guess i dont even wanna know why someone i love just dropped me like a hot potato. There's so many things running in my mind, so many things i think had caused this bitter ending.
until now im still trying to convince myself that it will all be okay. that i will be okay. that i can still survive the pain everyday. that i can still smile even it's really hurting me inside.
until now im telling myself not to cry too much. not to think so much. but every song, every place, every movie, every food, everything....reminds me of you. it was torturing me like i will just feel so empty all over again.
until now i still dont understand why the hell you need to like me before and you even did all your best to make me fall in love with you when in the end you cant do all that you can or just anything to keep me yours..until the end.
until now theres this pain i keep so deep where no one else can see, even you. :(