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[shanwhoohoo]

teens suck

as a teen myself, i would like to say that my fellow teenagers suck. at school students are always cursing back at the teacher and talking about them behind their backs. they make the rudest comments and say things like "i hope this teacher dies" and "i hate this b*tch". and they only say this when things dont go their way! also its kinda sad how much i hear students talking about having sex, doing drugs and drinking alcohol and how much im used to them saying things like this. although i do support having free will over your own body HOWEVER things like that have consquences. consequences that they are not mentally and physically ready for. anyways teens suck and i hope that future generations will be better than mine.

[shanwhoohoo]

do you ever

just wanna cry? the other week i was at a game with my friends and i never felt so alone. i felt like everyone was having fun and i was just pushed off onto the side. of course i did get to talk to a friend (shoutout to him) but before i did, i really was about to cry right then and there. that feeling of loneliness despite being in a crowded place is probably the worst thing ever.

[shanwhoohoo]

a few days ago it was my birthday and im not trying to brag but this year i got so many greetings compared to last year and that made me so warm and fuzzy inside. although not everyone who greeted me were close friends and family just those words many me really happy. even though to you it might seem like nothing, to me it freakin felt like everything. it reminded me of how much people cared for me and how the wonderful my community is.

[shanwhoohoo]

how does one be liked? when i was a freshman i didnt try and talk to others and in returned they didnt try to talk to me. i was too shy and awkward and i guess they saw that too. but i have a friend who im extremely jealous of. shes everything i want to be pretty, smart and overall a great person. i feel like everyone wants to be her friend and activally tries to talk to her. but me? im just someone pushed again to the side. again and again and again. and sometimes i dont know if thats a good thing. i dont like attention being directed only at me but i also want your attention. honestly i have mixed feelings about everything but this feeling of inferiority will never go away.

[shanwhoohoo]

who likes to bundle up all their emotions until they explode, pls raise your hands 🙌🙌🙌

[lovelustquotes]

[shanwhoohoo]

pretty but deadly

solos are so beautfiul. the way everything else becomes background noise until the very last note. the way your fellow musicians follows you as you lead that passage. the way the audience pays close attention to you and only you. but those are the exact reasons why i hate solos. i know i can play it and i have, but by myself. as soon they ask me to try for the solo my heart beats from anxiety and i feel like passing out or crying or maybe both. solos may be beautfiul but they are also deadly and probably something i may never do.

[shanwhoohoo]

i have the urge to cuddle with someone but i dont got a someone

[shanwhoohoo]

is it true that highschool is easier than college because if so adios

[shanwhoohoo]

jealousy is such a weird emotion. i understand that in many ways the other person is so much better but i cant help feeling jealous.

[shanwhoohoo]

I may complain on here alot but I really do love life...most of the times.

[shanwhoohoo]

Isn't everyones dream to start writing fanfictions and end up with bestselling books or is that just me?

[snorlaxatives]

i still can’t believe it’s already fucking november like october literally felt like it lasted 4 minutes where has this year gone why is the progression of time so mind boggling to me what the fuck

[shanwhoohoo]

is it normal to cry so much? ive been crying alot this past week because its about my mistakes playing and i started crying in front of people and my teacher and im so embarrassed now and its sO STUPID, so very stupid to cry about because i just need to practice more but i feel just super down lately and idk

[shanwhoohoo]

am i the only one that thinks pimples are so arrogant and a showoff? like here they are just randomly showing up and just chill there and being super rude. excuse me i didn’t ask for you please go away

[shanwhoohoo]

What she says: I'm fine

What she means: My father gave me a Kodak camera to photograph the dark shadows of my nightmares

[shanwhoohoo]

thanks internet

Honestly loving all these PSAT memes because it just reminds me of how poorly i did :)

oh noooo, will i get in trouble for talking about the psat??