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2025: Luck, faith, and self-discovery (evolving)

Perhaps it’s a combination of earlier hard work, timing, or simply good karma but I’ve been lucky this year. I’m genuinely grateful for the people at work: learning from them, observing how they operate, and seeing what “better” looks like in practice. It’s humbling. Being surrounded by people who are stronger than me has pushed me to grow without feeling threatened.

A lot of this year felt… easier. In the past, uncertainty would keep me up at night. This time, with a capable team, much of the work shifted to giving direction rather than carrying everything myself. That made a real difference. There were hiccups, of course, but we solved them creatively. For the first time since entering in 2022, I didn’t feel alone. I felt supported and that matters more than I realised.

There was also a quiet return of faith and optimism. I caught myself praying again, hoping for things to unfold well, and genuinely feeling grateful when they did. I tend to live in my head, but I’ve realised writing things down still works best to offload the mental noise. Old school, but effective.

One thing I’m less proud of is my growing reliance on ChatGPT. It’s convenient, but I notice it’s made me lazier in thinking through things myself. I ask questions when I could and should be articulating answers on my own. Questions are useful, but the real skill is learning to articulate what I already know, especially since many of my questions are inward-facing.

Self-discovery has been a big theme. For the first time in my 34 years, I understand what “comfort” means on my own terms. Financially, I have enough ease to explore interests without guilt. My watch collection reflects that: slow, intentional, refined. Not excessive, but affirming. It’s comforting to know that if I’m interested in something, I can allow myself to explore it even with luxury without it feeling reckless.

Having my own space (even if it technically belongs to my sister) made me realise how comfortable I am being alone. I enjoy it. I function well on my own. When I swipe or meet people, it doesn’t come from fear of loneliness it’s more curiosity, or a quiet openness. I’m not trying to change myself; I’m looking for someone I can welcome into a life that already works.

There were many firsts this year. Discovering Thai GL was unexpectedly eye-opening. I stopped watching Western shows and found myself rewatching Thai GLs instead maybe familiarity, maybe nuance, maybe recognition. LMSY, especially LM, struck something deeper. Parts of her remind me of myself; other parts feel aspirational. That small fan-meet interaction stayed with me not because it was dramatic, but because it quietly affirmed things I’ve observed and believed since growing up. Meeting people who think similarly felt grounding, like finally encountering my own frequency.

My growing interest in Thailand surprised me. At the same time, learning more about my sister brought some disappointment. Perhaps this is part of becoming, learning what I like, what I can endure, and what I no longer need to fight. Discernment, really. Not every battle is worth engaging.

I also noticed how freely I can socialise now. It showed clearly at the fan meet. Shared interests help, of course, but there’s also a quiet confidence there an ease I didn’t always have.

Granola surprised me too. The gradual shift from easy banter to something quietly special..felt natural. The pacing has been comfortable, unforced. It’s been… nice.

As a gentle reminder going into 2026: health and peace come first.

Skills I want to continue developing: people skills, connecting the dots, strategic thinking. Not for the title but for myself, for what I stand for.

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I know I have not written for a while, it’s wild. Did something I never thought I would, attending a fan meet. Somehow I think I broke a lot of my own rules for LMSY.

LMSY 1st fan meet in Singapore (post fan meet thoughts)

During the giveaways, I noticed many besties choosing either LM or SY. I kept gravitating towards the ones with both of them, didn’t think much of it at first. But after chatting with other fans, the question came up: there must be one you like more, right?

And I realised… maybe I do lean towards LM but not in a typical “bias” way. It’s more admiration. I relate to her sharpness, her quiet way of observing, being intentional with actions rather than words. Letting work speak, moving quietly, not feeding rumours, just doing her thing. Even her off-duty style feels very her: androgynous, grounded, yet able to be feminine when she wants.

For SY, it’s her warmth. She’s hardworking, kind-hearted, and so generous to people around her, especially younger artists. And I love how she sees LM, how she captures and flaunts her in the softest, most affectionate ways.

I think I finally understood it: I admire LM, and I adore SY. Maybe I want to be a little like LM, and have a partner like SY.

And while Harmony Secret is where everything really came together for me, I’ll always appreciate Affair for what it was..the beginning of their journey, and mine too. You can really see their growth there, both as characters and as actresses.

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babe i forgive you ❤️

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HAHAHAHAH, I love how she says sorry. Just got to know from threads that’s she’s landed in SG 🇸🇬

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Channeling their inner Pam and Rak

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Can’t help but miss the snuggling feeling.

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LMSY

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NAMTAN TIPNAREE as AI-OON (& OB-OOM) in PLUTO (2024)

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The fact that it's the same actress and I can easily identify which is Oom and which is Ai just by their expressions is completely crazy to me. Kuddos to Namtan. So much talent !

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Just started on Pluto, I’m swept by Namtam’s looks.

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Dear Myself LMSY

I really appreciate the depth given for this interview. And this had one of the better translated English subtitles for it.

I watched the interview today and it left me with such a deep sense of appreciation. I love the sharing about their family and what mattered most to them at a certain point of life.

What I love most isn’t the noise around them, but the way their talent shines so naturally on screen. Harmony Secret is more than just a series. It’s the result of so many thoughtful details coming together. It’s clear that every element was carefully considered, the directing choices, the camera work, the way scenes were framed, the styling and outfits, even the editing rhythm. At the centre of it all, the actresses Lookmhee and Sonya (LMSY)’s delivery. All of it worked together to bring out the chemistry and emotion on screen. More than anything, I hope the world sees them for the talent they truly are, and that they continue to stay true to themselves while finding more projects that let them grow and shine.

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College

Lately I’ve been thinking about how differently our lives get shaped through the journey of education. I never used to think much about having a degree, until I started to realise the doors it opens and how it shapes not just opportunities but also perspective.

Looking at peers around me, those who went through college and those who didn’t, there’s definitely a difference, sometimes even a material one. I find myself thankful for the exposure and the path I’ve had, even if I didn’t appreciate it as much before.

It only really hit me today when I came across a Reddit post about Thai actresses, pointing out how many of them have degrees. To me, that felt pretty normal in an Asian context, but the comments were filled with amazement, as if it were rare. The comparison was made to Western celebrities, who often don’t finish college. Then again, some of the biggest company founders also never completed their education. So it’s not always a simple equation.

What struck me most was the awe people had over something I used to take for granted. A degree was just another step for me, but spending time with people who’ve had different paths made me realise how differently it can shape lives.

Anyway, just a random observation.

On another note, Harmony Secret just wrapped up its finale. As much as I’m sad to see it end, I really liked how the editors tied everything up on a good note. I also find myself drawn more and more to LMSY. Their depth shows not just in acting but in interviews too.

Definitely not projecting, but I love catching the shorts and reels of them. Here’s hoping I can eventually get a grasp of Thai, it’s such a difficult language, and languages have never been my strong suit.

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Blurred Lines

The Thai GL industry is, in many ways, inseparable from the culture of shipping. For many fans, that’s part of the fun..imagining, projecting, weaving stories beyond the screen. But I’ve never quite found myself drawn to that. My enjoyment begins with their work and ends there: the performances, the craft, the occasional interview that offers a glimpse of their personality. Beyond that, I’ve never felt the need to blur the line between character and actor, or to treat their private lives as extensions of the roles they play.

Perhaps it’s because I’ve never been wired for idolisation. Even in music, I’ve never chased after idols or cultivated that kind of devotion. The only singers I’ve ever seriously wanted to hear live are GEM and Adele, even then not because of some starry-eyed fandom, but simply because their music resonates. Crowds and spectacle aren’t what I seek; I’ve always gravitated towards more intimate, quiet encounters with art. Maybe that’s why I prefer discovering talents that are still niche, not yet swallowed by the machinery of mainstream adoration.

Age, too, plays a part. I’m a working professional, older than many of the actresses gracing the Thai GL screen today. My first encounter with the genre was Yes or No back in 2010, with Suppanad Jittaleela and Sushar Manaying (Aom). That was fifteen years ago. It’s a strange thought that while I was already grown, many of the actresses captivating audiences now were still children. 00k, for example, would have been barely fifteen back then and LMSY would have been about eleven. Time reframes perspective: it reminds me that what feels new to me is, for them, the beginning of an entire career and life yet to unfold.

And so, shipping has always felt alien. To project fantasies onto real people, to demand proof of imagined narratives. It seems to me an erosion of the boundary between art and life. I’ve always preferred to regard them as fellow humans, simply living different lives shaped by choices and circumstances unlike my own. Admiration, for me, doesn’t require illusion.

What I do hold onto is discovery. The thrill of noticing talent in its raw form, of seeing names like LMSY, Punyaphat Wangpongsathaporn (Lookmhee), Saranphat Pedersen (Sonya), LingLing Kwong (00k), and many others finding their place. They are artists, still carving out their futures, and I find myself quietly rooting for them. Recognition, in the end, is what I wish for them..not for who fans hope they are, but for the work they bring into the world.

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AIWARIN 👏🏼IS 👏🏼NO 👏🏼BX 👏🏼UNLESS 👏🏼ITS 👏🏼FOR 👏🏼MAEVIKA

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Harmony Secret | Official Pilot

You should step away from that woman. Because if we lose… we won’t just lose in the business game. We will lose everything. And in the end, you will be the one who suffers. Because you’ve already fallen in love with her.

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This was amongst the pilot trailer but didn’t notice it being within the series. Nonetheless I’m enjoying this entire set of gifs.

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Shall we make a pact? No matter how the results turn out, we won’t let them decide what happens between us. Just the two of us, okay? Alright? I promise, Mae.

HARMONY SECRET. EPISODE 5

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LM’s eyes says everything.

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Baby Bear

I’ve been diving deeper into the Thai GL space and one thing that really stands out is how much undiscovered talent there is in the Thai entertainment industry. It feels like global perception is skewed. Netflix shows get all the visibility, but honestly, many of them aren’t the best when it comes to writing or acting. They’re accessible, sure, and that builds fanbases, but it doesn’t always reflect the true depth of talent Thailand has to offer.

I first watched Affair and that’s where I noticed Lookmhee and Sonya (LMSY). Even though the plot felt a bit abrupt and the characters were written as toxic, LM’s acting carried through, nuanced and convincing despite the flaws in the story. Then came Harmony Secret, and that really showed me her growth. The way she conveyed emotions through expressions and eyes alone was on another level. Honestly, I don’t recall many Thai GL actresses reaching that kind of standard. It’s the sort of performance you’d expect to see recognized on a global stage.

That’s when I realized: Thai entertainment has so much talent that could compete internationally, but it doesn’t always get the spotlight. Platforms like Dailymotion or iQiyi don’t give the same reach as Netflix, so brilliant work like Harmony Secret risks staying hidden, while other, less polished series get all the buzz.

To me, that feels like wasted potential as Harmony Secret isn’t just well adapted from the novel, it’s also a showcase of what Thai storytelling and acting are capable of. It could be chemistry, honestly it feels like the story was written for LMSY. The chemistry and dynamics between the duo is amazing.

For LingOrm, acting wise, I felt they could improve but somehow I prefer them at their interviews. Looks way natural compared to their acting. Then again, TIL what was fan service. And maybe it’s all part of the package as fan service on how they interact beyond the series.

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“Don’t you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go some place where you don’t know a soul?”

— Haruki Murakami

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No dialogues

It’s always during these late nights that I find myself penning down stray thoughts. Lately, I’ve fallen deeper into the world of Thai GLs, and through the magic of social media (and endless gif sets), I stumbled across LMSY and of course, the dramas they’ve starred in. I have to say, I’m genuinely impressed. Their performances are strong, yet their fanbase feels surprisingly small compared to LingOrm. Honestly, I’d argue LMSY’s acting could easily stand beside what you see in Western dramas especially in the way they handle non dialogue scenes, where emotion doesn’t need words. And yes, the intimate scenes too.

Lookmhee’s style of kissing really caught me. The angles, the teasing, the little details with jawlines, it was all so natural. Watching it brought back memories of how I used to “execute” things myself, playing that fine line between rough and soft, teasing at the neck, the back of the ear… those were the details I loved. Seeing that reflected on-screen felt almost too real.

And while I have so much respect for 00k, her professionalism, her dedication to her work and fans. I do think she could take a few notes from LM. There’s something about how LM conveys entire emotions with just her eyes, the way unspoken words still come across so clearly. Maybe it’s how deeply she studies her characters, maybe it’s just her natural gift but either way, I can’t help but admire it.