[Sorry if i made a lot of grammar mistakes , but i’m italian so please understand ]
"Every single step you take can and will change your future. Your whole life is unwritten. You are the author ,make your story count.Â
Started 9 months ago and still on the road !
 When I was younger they call me  "N.  the fat."
The first time I tried to dress up as a woman, I had a really cute white dress and my hair was all in order: that night at a party those who were present laughed at me, laughed at me in front of everyone and I ran away crying.
The first guy that I can say i felt in love with said to me “I do not want you anymore."
Every single thing that I did from the point of view of society, it was determined by my weight, and not by the fact that I was N.
Then it dawned in me a desire, a strong desire  that makes me gnaw: revenge.
Revenge of the people who have made me suffer, of myself that has taken refuge in the food instead of dealing with things.
Revenge towards those clothes that didn’t fit me ,  to the evenings spent alone in the house, because I did not want anyone  to see me.
In addition, i have  problems with liver  and kidneys, and not ignoring the fact that risked to take my diabetes.
I had to make a choice: to live or die?
At 18 years  an average person doesn’t have  kidney stones.
At 18 years  a normal person does not have the liver covered with fat.
So this summer, around July, I started.
My patience has lasted for 2 months and then I gave up.
I had lost a few kilograms, but had taken them all.
Then towards the end of October, my grandfather died.
I wanted to commit myself to something, I wanted to change the situation, I did not want to live my life as obese  and die of a heart attack in a hospital.
I got strength, and here I am, with almost 30Â kg less.
And I begin to appreciate me, somehow.
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