And so this is how it goes, where you can reach for my hand without
me flinching away.. I remember when touch, brought me fear,
when things used to fill me with fear so much like liquid in my body.
Where I would tremble and not even your words could bring me back
from the past. My breath is calm now, walking down this dusty road
where we found each other. The same trees stand guard
and sway in greeting to one another, the sun reaches us with warmth.
I've come to know the way your hand is held in mine and the way you wrap
your arm around my shoulder and lay your other hand on my knee. Through
habit from when I would constantly have anxiety and rocking my leg
up and down to try and calm down. Darling only love me, I feel you
in my veins and shelter me from all of this. I have fallen apart and now
I am only a shadow. But you've come by and said hello and the shadow
does not bother me, it rains down around all of me and envelops me
but I let it be. I’m done trying to push something that cannot be moved.
Elsewhere I can see that you are doing well, and you do not need me.
I wonder even now if you think of me, with a smile? A frown?
I still feel your lips brush mine and your hand in mine.
You are still in my veins..
