P.S. I'm okay

This blog is the author's way of keeping her sh*t together.

[sunsetquotes]

“People are people, and sometimes we change our minds.”

— Taylor Swift; Breathe

[ink-and-oceans]

“If you smile, I smile. If you cry, I cry. If you jump off a bridge, I’ll be down here with ten mattresses and a boat.”

— tara love / for my crazy best friend

[anancientheart]

[sheismadeupofdepths]

Thank you, Lord ❤️

[riffatmatinpoetry]

“I know it’s taking longer than I would have hoped for but I’m going to get everything together. I’m going to get to where I want to be.”

— Affirmation of the day.

[leohearts]

“And I’m still hoping that maybe one day I’ll get that drunk text from you saying how much you miss me.”

—

[sheismadeupofdepths]

Day 3

Ang dami kong ginawa today. Pinilit ko talagang matapos lahat para hindi ko mamalayan yung oras. Umupo lang ata ako 20mins para magpahinga tapos work ulit hanggang 9pm na. Pero hanggang sa kwarto pinilit kong kumilos hanggang 10pm, para by then shower nalang tapos tulog agad. Yung katawan ko pagod na pagod na pero yung isip ko ayaw magpahinga.

Wala naman sana akong balak na mag-online, kaya lang nakaka guilty narin na hindi ako nagrereply kay Ma. Hay.

Kumusta kaya siya. Iniisip niya rin kaya ako. Sa nakita ko sa previews ng IG story parang normal lang naman sakanya, nagbrowse din ako saglit sa Facebook, parang mas naging active pa siya. I guess naka buti sakanya yung pagiging malayo namin literally and figuratively. Okay yun, diba? I should be happy or relieved at the very least. Pero syempre, at the same time, it pains me. Not because I don’t want her to be okay, but because I’m seeing how much she’s better off without ‘us’.

Okay. Tama na. Ayoko na muna mag-isip ng kung ano ano. I’m just glad she’s okay. Yun naman ang mahalaga.

I miss you though, love :(

[bryandaugherty]

[wnq-writers]

“Don’t allow your wounds to turn you into a person you are not.”

— Paulo Coelho (via wordsnquotes)

[sheismadeupofdepths]

Day 2

Ang galing natin. Wala satin ang bumigay. I wonder why. Is it pride? Or maybe I’m being too negative. Is it because we both know it’s for the best? For now? I hope it’s only for now.

Sabi ni ma, nagsend ka na raw ng deposit for the lot. Ako rin, nagsend na. Pwede ko kaya yun panghawakan as an assurance na this phase will pass? Na ako parin yung gusto mo makasama? Or baka nahihiya ka lang kasi closed na yung deal about it, baka no choice lang? I hope it’s not the latter.

Sa totoo lang, I almost gave in last night. I was already writing a lengthy message to send you. But then I saved it as draft, keeping in mind that we’re both after the long run results. Hindi tayo pwedeng bumigay agad dahil lang namimiss natin isa’t isa. We have to go through this so that when the right time comes, we’d be able to appreciate it more. We’d already learned, we’d already be closer to healing completely.

That’s the mindset I’m trying to keep. I’m not sure if it’s the same for you. Either way, I just want us to be better. Individually, and maybe eventually, for each other.

Goodnight, love.

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

via @extramadness

[extramadness]

[vomitingwords]

“It aches everywhere.” she said. “And I don’t know what to heal first.”

My heart would be the last. //ma.c.a

[jamiedornaniseverything]

[just-bellerose]

[thepersonalquotes]

[sheismadeupofdepths]

Kauwi lang namin ng boss ko from ze mall. Lutang all the way haha. Nagshopping lang sa Zara tapos mag-Starbucks dapat kami, but he didn’t know what Java Chip was kahit anong explain at turo ko hahahaha. We ended up with KFC instead. I’m good, anytime is a good time for KFC.

Kaya lang, bakit ganun hindi ako makakain. Hay. Mas namiss ko siya lalo. We always eat this together. Pero ngayon ultimo yung Coke hindi ko maubos. Ni hindi ko pa nababawasan yung bucket. Sayang :(