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♡ borderline personality disorder ♡ cocsa/sa survivor ♡ codependency ♡ hypersexual ♡ just a blog for my recovery thoughts ♡

[recovery-doll]

sometimes i feel like i’ll never be worth anything bc of my cocsa trauma.

sometimes i feel like i’ll never be worth anything bc my bpd makes me act out at times and causes people to be upset with me.

sometimes i feel like i’ll never be worth anything bc of the men who took advantage and harassed me.

but i keep telling myself that i’m not a bad person and i’m trying and i’ve got good intentions and despite the shit that’s happened - it don’t change who i am and i’m more than just a body. i’m a good loving person.

but i can admit some nights it’s just too hard to believe that so i fight through it. recovery isn’t really a one way road, it’s a crazy journey but i’m getting better and that’s what means somethings to me.

[feministtalks]

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[recovery-doll]

i absolutely love this post. i absolutely hate how misinformed and demonized feminism has became because if people properly informed themselves instead of listening to just anybody - they would see that feminism is for everybody.

[secretbookslibrariesdesignslime]

If a man told you to jump you'd probably say how high and tell yourself it was your choice to jump lmao.

[recovery-doll]

1. stfu and stop acting like u know people on tumblr.

2. feminism isn’t just about women. it’s people who believe or push the narrative that it’s only about cis white women that harms it.

[quietvoiced]

[yungatito]

[recovery-doll]

i seriously have no desire to be that committed to somebody again. it disgusts me.

when you push me away and only use me when you need me and you don’t put effort in — i become the same way. i’m not going to want to commit and i may end up hurting feelings in the end.

like i’m going to return what you give and i’m not an abuser, i’ll leave before it gets that bad but i ain’t trying to get attached and committed at this point.

[recovery-doll]

[unseentrauma]

how do you deal with being a hypersexual minor. most of my friends are adults so i dont wanna talk abt it with them but god i have No outlet. plus all my k/nks are bc of trauma and theyre genuinely all fucking disgusting so. sighs

[recovery-doll]

i just want to add that just bc ur a minor doesn’t mean ur invalid. hypersexuality effects people of all ages and i would definitely try to find someone you trust. a lot of people could take advantage and i really don’t want you to be taken advantage of.

i know it may seem weird talking to an adult about it but could you try a therapist? because minors wouldn’t be qualified and i know you’re probably trying to find someone you feel safe with and someone you can definitely trust.

i wish you the best.

[recovery-doll]

best u ever had

[homecoming]

lil peep performs problems, 2017. 

[nympho-cherub-deactivated201605]

[quietvoiced]

[recovery-doll]

i am afraid of u not liking me anymore :/ should i pull back? can i trust u?

[deathknell-s]

i didn’t put on this skirt for nothing. finger me.

[recovery-doll]

ive been planning on working out after i have the baby. too i think it’ll benefit me a lot since i’ll be accepting sobriety and starting a new life journey.

[recovery-doll]

Your eyes are like, really fucking pretty. Hope life is good x

thank you so much ❣️ it’s greatly appreciated sweetheart.

[recovery-doll]

7,9 ☺️

7. what are my top five coping skills?

- i like writing. i enjoy writing fantasy and erotic stories on wattpad, it kind of puts me in another place/world and gets my mind off of things.

- i try to surround myself with positivity. so i like to get on my recovery instagram & i’ll make new informative posts and kind of fill my head with good things.

- getting ‘ready’. i kind of cope by getting ready as if i’m gonna go out. when i’m done it normally makes me feel better if i look my best and it helps my confidence.

- i plan for the baby, preparing for my son also has been helping me. thinking about him makes me feel stronger like i can get through anything.

- tumblr. i make vent art or i get on here and i vent.

9. do i have a support system?

- i have to go to counseling every friday for like two hours. i haven’t really talked about any of my mental illnesses or problems yet and i don’t plan to. it’s mandatory that i go to counseling right now and i’m trying to seem like i’m perfectly fine so problems don’t arise with my babh but i do have that option. my mom & brother is my other support system with the baby right now.

❣️❣️❣️ thank you for asking ❣️❣️❣️

[recovery-doll]