Okay, let me make my headcanon a little more specific. John Shelby realizing he's in love with his female best friend, please? đ
PEAKY BLINDERS HEADCANONS
ok so i feel like it would be super sudden
you and john would have known each other for like basically your whole livesÂ
and hes always been like a brother in some ways but also not
if anyone ever hurt you or made you cry hed kick their asses (even if you already did heâd go for âem again like hes fuckin ruthless when it comes to you)Â
things change a little when he meets martha tho
hes still present but a little distant and its understandable
but when shes gone johnâs a mess and youre like the only person who can get to himÂ
you and polly spend a lot of time looking after the kidsÂ
to the point where youâre almost like their motherÂ
the littlest one has even slipped up and called you âmumâ a few timesÂ
one night youre like chillin and drinking tea in the living room
the kids are in bed and johnâs thanking you for helping himÂ
and youâre telling him about everything they did and said that day when suddenly it just like hits him
and a million memories come flooding back of all the times hes looked out for you and youâve looked out for him
and all the times hes made you laugh and the times youâve made him smile
john thinks of how he got so used to having you around he never thought of you dating bc somewhere in the back of his mind youâve always been his and its been normal for you two to be together but now its kind of different
john goes all quiet and weird and shyÂ
and youâre like âwhats the matter with you? youre as red as a tomatoâÂ
and hes not saying much at allÂ
blames it on the whiskey he had before he came homeÂ
john just insists he walk you home bc its late and finn can watch the kids for five minutesÂ
its hella weird but you just go along w it
from then on he acts weird
he doesnât burp in front of you
or talk about other women look (even though you talk about girls with him all the time)Â
he doesnâ t slouch or loudly slurp his beer
he always gets the drinks at the garrison so you can stay seated and enjoy yourself
and he opens doors for you a lot moreÂ
everything he does is to impress youÂ
arthur and tommy start teasing him but it kinda just goes over your headÂ
you dont notice how john stares at you when youre not lookingÂ
or how he lingers in the door when he comes home bc he likes to watch you with the kids and imagine hes coming home to you as his wifeÂ
you dont see how he primps more than usual when he knows hes going to see youÂ
and it sucks for john bc he doesnât know what to doÂ
if you love him back thats great
but if you dont he could loose youÂ
and thats the last thing he wants to doÂ
so he just lays awake at night
thinking about how badly he wants you in bed beside himÂ
dreaming about what your lips would feel like next to his
and hoping and praying youre not thinking about some other person bc if you are itâll kill him