howls in the night

Shiloh Holmes. 22. Delta Wolf.

[shilohholmes]

close your lips, it's a secret - shiloh&zoe

[tattooed-wolf]

"Aw, c’mon! You can’t go baiting me like that, blondie!" Zoe howled in fake frustration. "Here I am, putting in my own effort, and I don’t even get to know what else you’re planning? Such a shame." Shaking her head and laughing, she brushed her own loose curls out of her face. Just spending some time talking to and laughing with Shiloh was nice, really. It was rare that they spent any time together, especially on their own. Both of them were more likely to hang out with Flynn, if for different reasons. "Man, I miss running," she mumbled without even noticing, remembering how Flynn and her often went out to just take off running. Not while they were on lockdown, though. Everything had been put on halt for now. If she didn’t know any better, she would’ve vaulted out a window sometime at night long ago.

Zoe thought about it for a moment, then replied with a huge smirk, “We both run, throwing the camera back and forth between another. If we’re incredibly lucky, maybe one of us gets away with it.” Chuckling at the thought of one of them punching some human’s lights out, she wondered if there was any place they could actually safely go, without having to worry about one of them fucking up. “You think bowling’s gonna be any better? We got some really sore losers in this pack. Wouldn’t want anybody to have to cook for the lot of us either. Whoever’s buying the ingredients is gonna end up broke as fuck.” Then, with a sigh, she added, “Not much we can do at the moment anyways. Got way too much energy to be sitting around the house pretty much day and night.”

Letting her gaze sweep around the room, her eyes landed on the pillows at the head of her bed. Maybe those could be put to use. Sliding and stretching backwards, she inched towards one, abruptly grabbing it and pulling it forwards, aiming to hit the blonde square in the back with it as she giggled like a little girl. Nothing better than a good old pillow fight.

[shilohholmes]

"I can't reveal all my secrets, not now that I know I can keep it a secret from more people!" Shiloh laughed, feeling the ease of just messing around with someone. It was certainly different to spend more time with Zoe. Shiloh thought of the girl as family, same with everyone in the pack, but she tended to see little of some in the pack and more of others. The blonde knew she could have fun with Zoe though. The other's mumble caught Shiloh by surprise for a moment, a smile quirking on her lips. "Runnin' is somethin' you'll always miss even if it's only been a day since you've last ran or months since you have. Ain't nothin' like it really. I wish everythin' wasn't as bad as it is, I'd go runnin' with ya." Her wolf loved the idea of going out and running, to just have the freedom without constraints of the full moon. She liked being able to just adventure out with one of the others in the pack.

"Reckon Kinsey would have our heads no matter how fast we ran. If one of us managed to get away, she'd wait for the moment to get whoever and the camera." Shiloh ran her fingers through her hair, pulling it all over one shoulder as she looked down at her lap. It was certainly be funny, but Shiloh felt like all those fun times were so far into the future. "We do have some sore losers. Reckon a few people would just end up pretty pissy rather than havin' fun. Don't think we all need to worry about that stuff, not if it's for the sake of just havin' fun." Leaning over a bit, Shiloh set her notebook to the side for the moment since she didn't need it anymore.

She hadn't expected to end up being hit by a pillow next. That was certainly the last thing she expected, leaving Shiloh gaping at Zoe as if she were trying to believe if the other 'wolf had really done that. "Oh, it's on." Shiloh grabbed one of the other pillows, aiming it at Zoe before getting ready to jump out of the way.

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

[thom-docker-blog]

"I’d always rather be outside, workin’ on my bike or runnin’ around. I’m definitely not a house dog," Thom said with a smirk. He hadn’t had much of a chance to get out and have fun, whether by himself or with Shiloh or Zach. This time of year he liked to take his mountain bike through the trails in Table Rock, the ground still wet and soft from the snow. Any excuse to get muddy was a good enough excuse for Thom. But between the lockdown and whatever was mauling people in the park, Thom had to go without. It would be nice to get into the water and splash around for a while, but for now Thom was content to lay in the sun next to Shiloh. "I ain’t ever been inside a house this big before," Thom admitted with a shake of his head. "And yeah, we’re all together, but the place is so spread out I feel like I never see anyone outside of boot camp." He reached over to the chips, taking another handful of them. He listened and ate while Shiloh explained her little disappearing act, nodding his head. "All you had to do was say ‘not now, Fathead’ and I woulda got the picture," he told her. "Don’t make me worry like that. What were you doin’ hidin’ anyway?"

[shilohholmes]

"Don't think I could ever see you bein' in the house too much like that. If you did, I'd think somethin' was really wrong with you." Shiloh pulled her hair across one shoulder, splitting off the strands into three bundles in order to braid her hair so it wouldn't be as messy. Her waves could be a good thing and a bad thing depending on just what she was doing. "I've always been in not too big of homes. My home back in Tennessee was maybe 'bout the size of Woodmere, smaller by just a bit and definitely not as much land. Then the other home I lived in was probably the size of a bedroom and a half in the mansion." Shiloh tied off her braid, moving to plop down on her towel and crack open her soda as she stretched out. "Guess that's a good and and thing. Everyone gets their own space when they want it. But still don't like being all in one place." Shiloh reached over to take her own bit of chips, tossing a few of them into her mouth. "Sorry, just was in that mood. I was hidin'...just had somethin' on my mind. It hadn't been a good couple of days so I needed to kinda forget 'bout everythin' for a few hours and then get on with things." Shoving the rest of her chips into her mouth, she chewed and chased it down with a sip of her drink. "If ya can't find me, look on the roof."

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

[thom-docker-blog]

"Yeah I get sick of ‘em, but they’re fun for a while." Thom agreed with Shiloh, much preferring the XBox games where they could play against each other. If he was playing by himself he needed an interesting story to hook him in, or he’d just get bored. Thom kept an eye out for any other packmates as they made their way to the little pond, but no one was about. He knew the property well, Zach’s safety drills getting the layout of the mansion and its perimeter stuck in his head. "Now that the weather’s nice, maybe they’ll come on outta the dark," Thom teased. "I know I’m gettin’ sick of being cooped up inside. This place ain’t exactly my style." He flopped down onto the towel once Shiloh laid it out, placing down his things next to them in the grass. Thom tugged off his t-shirt, wanting to feel the sunshine on his skin after the long winter. He glanced over at Shiloh when she apologized, raising a curious eyebrow. “‘Course I was worried, I looked all over this damn mansion for ya," he said, though his tone was light. "I get that, sometimes you just gotta be alone. Will you at least take your phone with you next time?"

[shilohholmes]

Shiloh kicked her shoes off, pulling off her socks along with them as she looked around at the land. The one thing she did love about that mansion was the surrounding land. It was peaceful and rather beautiful, making it hard to completely hate the current residence. "I don't know, some of 'em seem pretty content on just stayin' in for as long as possible." Shiloh pulled at her tank top, letting it drop on the towel right beside her shoes. "Oh, I get that. Ain't simple and got too much to it. Makes it seem uncomfortable and I feel like I've gotta walk a mile to get to the kitchen when I need midnight munchies." She joked, an easy laugh leaving her and it felt like things were back to normal. She wasn't having to keep serious, keep worrying about everything. Being outside, she was obviously still on guard and keeping an eye out, but she could relax at the same time. The blonde shimmied out of her shorts, tossing them onto the pile of clothes she'd made. "Had it with me." Shiloh admitted, setting her hands on her hips with an apologetic expression. "I ain't stupid enough to go anywhere without it, but I didn't feel like answerin' since I just needed to be alone. Probably would have texted you back a while later if Zach hadn't found me. Although now he knows how to get to my hidin' spot and that's a damn shame." Shiloh cracked a smile again.

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

[thom-docker-blog]

Thom took his phone back from Shiloh with a light chuckle at the look on her face. “You got no problem with the XBox, but this little thing is too much for you?” he teased, elbowing her playfully. “I’ll get you hooked on Angry Birds, just you wait.” He nodded at Shiloh’s reasoning; the weather had taken a warm turn lately and Thom had been itching to get outside and run around a little. “Everyone’s too busy inside this damn place,” he said, hooking a thumb back in the direction of the mansion behind them. He snatched the bag of chips from her, partly to help her carry everything and partly because he never said no to junk food. Boot camp kept him in shape, not to mention the working out on his own equipment he had moved in, so a few chips wouldn’t kill him. “I hear ya there, gets boring only going to work and then back again.” Thom opened the bag of chips with his teeth while they strolled, reaching in for a handful and shoving them all in his mouth before holding out the bag for Shiloh to take some if she wanted. 

[shilohholmes]

"That's a lot better than messin' 'round on a phone. Tiny and it doesn't really seem to be as much fun. You can't play it with another person really and have fun trying to mess whoever it is up." Shiloh said as she enjoyed the feeling of the sun on her skin and being able to walk around without someone staring her down to keep an eye on her. It wasn't like they'd be off the property. "I worried 'bout everyone stayin' in there so much. Gotta get everyone in the mansion to just sit down outside and enjoy a relaxin' day. A break ain't a bad thing." Shiloh knew even she needed a break every once in a while from everything that she did. That's why the roof had become one of her favorite places, easy to just take a break. "S'why you always gotta have a little fun." Shiloh turned to the bag of chips, taking up a few to pop into her mouth. "Sorry 'bout the other day too. Zach told me I had you worried. I was just hidin' out, mindin' my own." The blonde stopped at the tree near the water, moving to lay out her towel before dropping the drinks down on the towel.

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

[thom-docker-blog]

Thom grinned at the mention of the water hole out back, remembering fondly the time that Shiloh had made a mud hole at the farm and the two of them played around in it for a while. Thommy may be older than Shiloh, but he was always ready to play, whether it be video games or swimming or basketball. “Give me just a sec,” he told her, handing over his phone to her. “Make sure no barbarians get in, throw some rocks at ‘em.” He didn’t much care what happened in the game, he usually wasn’t patient enough to stick with phone games for very long anyway. Sliding the door shut, Thom quickly rummaged in the drawers for something to wear. He didn’t have a bathing suit, but he had basketball shorts so he settled with those. He left his jeans in a pile on the floor and went to open the door again, barefoot and dressed in the shorts and a Kiss t-shirt. “So what gave you this bright idea?” he asked, pausing in their trek through the halls to grab a towel out of the bathroom. 

[shilohholmes]

Shiloh took the phone, staring at it as if it were a strange thing from another planet before she started tapping at the screen randomly. She didn't get the point of phone games much, they seemed more like they should be used for calling and texting people rather than playing games. Shiloh wouldn't be able to mindlessly sit and play a game for longer than a few minutes. It just wasn't something that had any interest to her. Not knowing whether or not she ruined the game for Thom, she handed Thommy his phone back when he came out of the room and headed down the hallway with him. After he'd grabbed his towel, she shrugged her shoulders while heading to the back door of the mansion. "Dunno, guess it was when I was up on the roof the other day and just starin' at it. Thought it was kinda silly for it to be there and ain't no one doin' anythin' with it. Why not go swimmin' then?" Shiloh ducked into the kitchen quickly on the way to the door, grabbing a drink for herself and one for Thom. She also stole a bag of chips, running back to Thom and continuing on. "Besides, I gotta get outta these walls. I'm gonna go crazy one of these days." She pushed open the back door, holding it open for Thom.

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

[thom-docker-blog]

Thom had the day off from work and was spending it lounging in his bed playing Clash of Clans on his phone. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to hang out with the rest of the pack, but living with so many of them in one place could get overwhelming. Thom had always lived on his own in Pickens, until Cora started staying with him, and sometimes he missed his alone time. He could usually be found in the garage working on his bike, but with all the overtime he’d been pulling at work he just needed a break. There really wasn’t anywhere else he’d want to go around the mansion besides his room; the place wasn’t exactly his style. Thom was much more comfortable in his own house that he’d fixed up with his own two hands. Even staying at the farm the few times he had felt more natural than this lavish house they lived in now. Thom was a simple man with simple tastes, and the life of luxury just didn’t suit him. At the knock on his door and Shiloh’s voice, Thom hopped off the bed, bringing his phone with him. He opened the door, making a show of being absorbed in his game and not even looking up at her. “I dunno Shi, I gotta set up these catapults or my castle is gonna get taken over,” he teased, finally looking up at her with a grin. “Swimmin’? Where at? Don’t tell me this place has an indoor pool, too.” He groaned a little at the thought, because enough was enough already. 

[shilohholmes]

Shiloh waited patiently, eyes glancing down the hallway. She wasn't sure where the others were at although there were scents clear in the air. Mostly she just smelt Thommy though. When the door opened, she pushed off the wall next to it and looked at the other 'wolf. Shiloh raised a curious eyebrow, rolling her eyes as she smiled at Thom. "You're even more of a dork than I thought you were." Shiloh said, not knowing just what he was talking about other than it being a game on his phone since he'd made the play of pretending to be focused on that instead of her. "Out back, there's the water hole and ain't no one used it yet so figured it was time to make use of it." After spending a lot of the time on the rof, she'd realized that no one ever did use it and what was the point of it being there other than to swim? Shiloh wanted something to do, something that wouldn't drive her crazy. "So change, grab a towel, and let's go! Unless you have better things to do than spend time with me." The blonde smirked, leaning back against the wall again. "I'm sure your phone is much more fun than I am."

[shilohholmes]

Always a Ray of Sunshine // Thom and Shiloh

Shiloh dug around in the bottom of her dresser, looking for something that had long been forgotten considering winter had been around and made it impossible to use it. She let out a little sound of joy when she found the bathing suit, grabbing the two pieces and shutting the door with her foot after she'd stood up. Disappearing to the bathroom, Shiloh stripped down to change into the light blue bikini that she'd had for a while now. The blonde pulled down her hair from the messy bun it had been in, running her fingers through the waves before going back to her room. Shiloh pulled on her black shorts and a white tank top, just for the sake of wearing something else, and grabbed her towel that was laying on her bed. She'd decided after finishing up a few things that she was tired of sitting around and she wanted to have fun. So why not make use of the water hole out back? No one else had and she figured it would give her a bit of joy rather than just being bored in the mansion. Of course, Shiloh never went to have fun without taking her best friend with her. With the towel draped around her shoulders, she left her bedroom to go down the hall and make it to Thom and Cora's room, banging on the door lightly. "Thom, you decent? We're goin' swimmin' so you better not be doin' anythin' important." Other than when she hung out with Thom and Zach on the couch not too long ago, she couldn't remember when had been the last time that she'd just hung out with Thom. That only made her sad, but she felt better knowing that it hadn't stuck a ridge between them. There just hadn't been time and the both of them were busy working on themselves. But Shiloh needed the time with her best friend and that's what she was going to do.

[clement-zachary]

Rooftop Warriors || Shiloh, Zach

[clement-zachary]

Zach took in a breath, prepared to answer when the impressive view finally registered and he closed his mouth.  He let it out through his nostrils while taking in the land surrounding the mansion, trying to pick out specific scents from the breezes as they passed on by while enjoying the silence for the weight in gold that it was worth.  The Beta didn’t return the squeeze of hand but the gesture wasn’t lost on him, and Zach reconsidered what was originally going to be the usual vague, generic answer he gave when people inquired as to how he was.  He thought on it as little as possible because it didn’t change from day to day.  How was he?  Unwell.  Those days, though, who was doing any better?  He didn’t know.  Maybe that was half the problem.

"Ain’t hidin’.  Clements don’t hide for nothin’, tellin’ you now."

Somewhere under his beard his mouth twitched in a little smirk, murmuring out his answer playfully though he let a little bit of the tiredness he was starting to feel in his bones reach his tone.  His beast enjoying the company of a packmate, Zach sighed out a breath he’d seemingly been holding forever and shook his head gently, keeping his eyes on the scenery before them.

"Goin’ on with me? Nothin’.  I don’t know, sweetheart.  Been some rough times, lately, gettin’ rougher still.  Reckon my spirits’ve taken a blow or two, sure."

[shilohholmes]

The day was passing by and Shiloh wanted it to stop, to just be sitting on the roof with Zach and pretend like there weren't problems going on. Shiloh wanted to forget about her fight with Gabe, forget about the break up with Flynn, and the danger that they were all in, These small moments were the bones that made her feel better, like everything could get better. Only time would really be the judge over whether or not things actually got better. Shiloh rolled her eyes at Zach, smiling as she used her free hand to hit his chest playfully. At least she was going to get an actual answer from him. It bothered her when people kept things from her, always wanting to believe that people could talk to her about anything. Some things people kept to themselves, Shiloh knew that more than anyone else. She had her secrets, still has them when it concerns some people.

"Been rough times for everyone, but reckon you've been hit pretty hard. I ain't one to glance over things, Zach. You look worn down. Are you gettin' sleep? Are you doin' too much?" Shiloh leaned her head back on his shoulder to look up at him. "I wanna help if I can. If you're takin' on a lot then let me help with somethin'." If anyone needed help, the blonde would be willing to always lend a hand to everyone. Zach always seemed like he had everything handled and he still did, but Shiloh hadn't missed the signs of tiredness since she'd gotten closer to him. "You've got your own limits, Zach. Can't drag yourself too much."

[rubysatoshi-deactivated20140611]

Oh yeah? What are some that you like? 

[shilohholmes]

I love Lassie, just one of my all time favorites. I love Lucy is always good. Can't forget about Bewitched.

[rubysatoshi-deactivated20140611]

Oh wow, I was going to make some suggestions, but I don’t know anything about classic black and white TV shows!

[shilohholmes]

That's a shame. Probably gonna be the funniest and best thing you ever see.

[rubysatoshi-deactivated20140611]

Sounds like you need to watch something a little different? 

What’s your taste in tv shows? 

[shilohholmes]

It would help if I could find somethin' good. Ain't anythin' on worth watchin'.

I prefer old black and white movies and tv shows. Gotta go with the classics.

[shilohholmes]

I don't get TV shows these days. All of it is people doin' stupid things.

[clement-zachary]

Rooftop Warriors || Shiloh, Zach

[shilohholmes]

clement-zachary:

 Zach had been trying his best to be mindful of how he spoke to Shiloh, knowing the respect she was starting to demand (and deserve) and understanding that he, himself, had spoken down to her considerably before she had been thrown down to Omega.  The little white wolf had made a surprisingly strong comeback, earning Delta once again as well as continuing boot camp and side training.  Shiloh worked hard and still found time for family and music.  She was different than what he could first recall of meeting her…but then again, who wasn’t?  Even though the Beta bit back the lectures he wanted to give and the questions he wanted to ask the Delta knew him well enough and answered them anyway, though shortly, and spared him the trouble.

After hesitating a moment, he did eventually join her and kept his mouth shut.  She knew already that doing what she wanted and doing what needed to be done were two separate things and it was up to her to reconcile them.  If there were going to be consequences to her day spent on the roof then Zach could only assume that Shiloh was already prepared with having to face them.  The underlying concern was that there was something the matter enough to make her not seem to care about those penalties whatsoever.  He didn’t have to wait long to find out, moving his arm without much thought given to it as he kept Shiloh held close against his side once she found her way there.

Zach would be the first to admit he’d lost touch completely with the other Beta.  Save for some odd texts and even rarer in-person encounters, he and Flynn had barely interacted since the last moon.  It was something he assumed fault for, along with for nearly forgetting that Shiloh and Flynn had been together.  The two had seemed to be doing fine, had never been something to worry about before.  The Beta scolded himself for not bothering to read between any lines or notice any changes in demeanor that would’ve clued him in to there being trouble.  As if in apology, he squeezed the little blonde a bit closer to his side and ducked his head down to graze his bristly cheek against the smoothness of her face, his wolf nearly whining.

“M’sorry, sweetheart.  S’not easy.”

Despite having wanted to spend the entire day alone, she felt much more relaxed now that Zach was there. Her wolf that she could feel pacing inside of her, calmed down as well. Whatever tension had formed in her back and her shoulders dissipated. She couldn’t help but wonder if Zach was doing it on purpose of if she really was that naturally relaxed with him around. It was almost the same as with Thom. Almost. The blonde closed her eyes for a moment went she was pulled a bit closer, smiling for the first time all day when she felt his cheek against her own.

Thinking about it now after saying it seemed a million times easier. She’d broken up with Flynn after their fight, a fight that consisted of Shiloh doing what she needed to do and wanted to do for the pack. All she wanted was to be strong, protective, valued. She didn’t  want to be the little pup when she wasn’t one. If Flynn couldn’t understand that, then it wasn’t her fault. Her heart was broken, but Shiloh wasn’t going to be one of the girls who cried for weeks and threw little fits. It happened. The future holds what’ll happen next.

"It ain’t, but I’ll get through it."

Shiloh turned her head to the side, looking at Zach. It wasn’t the ‘let me just smile at you’ look or a passing glance. She really looked at him. It was odd to her, how he wasn’t that much older than herself and yet between the look in his eyes, the dark circles, the overall aura that came off him seemed to age him. She worried about him, especially as of late the more she noticed Zach never stopping to just relax. “I don’t wanna talk about me. I just needed to hide away for a day and I’ll be good to go. But what’s goin’ on with you, Zach?” Shiloh moved one of her hands to take a hold of Zach’s that was near her side since his arm was over her shoulder. She gave it a reassuring squeeze as she looked back up at him. “Don’t hide from me, ain’t like I’m gonna tell the world.”

[clement-zachary]

Rooftop Warriors || Shiloh, Zach

The text message from Thommy didn’t really surprise Zach as much as it perhaps ought to have.  It was either given the current state of things nothing could really phase the Beta anymore or he was simply running too tired to muster appropriate concern.  For all the talk Shiloh did of wanting to be treated less like a child and more like the she-wolf she was becoming it didn’t stand to reason that she would foolishly run off and away from the mansion.  Leaving the study shortly after receiving word from his best friend, Zach frowned at the fact that she hadn’t answered her phone…but had to remind himself that he’d dared to take a shower not too long ago and had almost missed out on some important texts, himself.  It was impossible to sit around all day staring at the home screen.  Maybe she was playing her guitar or the phone was charging in a different room.  She had to be around somewhere and there were a lot of ‘somewhere’s to search in the estate that Zane had left them so he reserved any panic or overwhelming concern for when there was more proof of it being needed. 

The soldier trekked carefully through the house, starting with the obvious rooms like the kitchen and living room before he started examining room by room.  He made sure to take his time, using his nose and ears to the best of his ability as he tried to pick up on any trace of the young blonde.  It was some while later when he’d searched the main floor twice and sent three or four texts of his own that he decided it was perhaps time to take his search to the next level.  Literally.  The Beta returned to his study only to get his shoulder holster and the Sig Sauer- you just never knew- before making a quick detour to the kitchen again so that he could wrap a piece of pound cake in a napkin and tuck it away in his sweatshirt pocket just in case he needed to feed the Delta in a pinch.  Once he felt prepared enough he headed for the steps that would lead to the attic.

Zach carefully pulled at the small hanging string, opening the trapdoor in the ceiling and easing the collapsible ladder into place so that he could pull himself up into the attic.  The Beta took in a deep breath and sneezed shortly after, shaking his head and some of his body as if ridding it of water though he just felt altogether and suddenly dusty.  Taking the time to make note of the state of things, as he hadn’t much had time to organize the storage in the attic let alone keep track of it in the basement (and since when was that his job, besides?) , Zach caught sight of the open window and muttered a breathy ‘bingo’ to himself before making his way over.  Minding the gun at his side, Zach stuck his head out the open window and tried to take in what he could of the roof while letting out a whistle.

“Shiloh!  Shi?  Got Thommy sick worryin’, girl, where you hidin’?”

[shilohholmes]

There was a peaceful wind that blew over, kissing the visible skin of her arms and her legs. Her sweater was laying at one side of her, having taken it off after the heat had gotten to her and she couldn't take it anymore. She roof scratched at her legs, but she paid no attention to it as she shifted to lay back completely. She was partly in a daze, letting herself stop worrying about everything she usually did now days to just sit outside. Her phone was stashed in her sweater and she'd been fully aware of it having been going off for at least an hour or two occasionally, but the 'wolf didn't make a move to check it, reply, or answer. It was the least of her concerns to her at the moment.

Shiloh had worried when her head started to clog too much and she couldn't sort what she needed to sort out. Since figuring out how to get herself onto the roof, it had become a place for her to easily think and so the moment everything went to shit, she found herself crawling her way to the roof and finding a nice little spot, not too far from the little window. Her mind had already played through her argument with Gabe, not even sure what she was going to do about that, if anything. Shiloh didn't see herself in the wrong, not for worrying about the other 'wolf. After the first hour, she'd already made the decision to let it be and put the ball into the other girl's court.

But then that left the bigger problem. Shiloh had gotten herself up and walked around the roof, silent little footsteps gracefully over the roof and the slopes and the curves. She'd picked up fallen leaves and sticks to toss off the roof, she'd written a few lyrics down in her notebook, and she'd taken a short little nap. The entire time, keeping the one topic she didn't want to think about away as much as she could. That didn't stop the entire scene with Flynn replaying through her head a millions times. Was she wrong? Was he wrong? Was it a heated moment? Was it coming? But all those questions, she left unanswered. She didn't want to analyze it.

A scent had carried over to her nose, circling in the air and making Shiloh wrinkle up her nose. Only because she knew the scent and she knew she'd been found. Hearing Zach's voice as if he were right beside her, she groaned and rolled over on the roof where she was laying for a second before rolling back. "Other side." Shiloh said as she sat up, looking over at Zach. "I'm not movin'." The blonde went straight ahead to say, turning her head to look down at her lap. She pulled her legs up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them lightly till the movement she heard ended with Zach beside her.

The 'wolf looked at her Beta, a long look of swimming blue eyes that held so many emotions and at the same time, had something about them that was missing. "Didn't want to answer the phone." Shiloh mumbled, looking forward at the land. "Been up here since mornin'. Didn't wanna go down to the farm or be in the mansion." She was being short with her sentences but she was at least saying something. Now there was a war raging inside of her, one side wanting to tell Zach what happened while the other still wanted to shy away from everyone and pretend on like nothing was happening. Shiloh knew she'd tell him no matter what. Zach made her feel the most comfortable now days,

Maybe it was the move to the mansion or maybe it was something that she didn't know about, but her relationship with some within the pack had altered. She didn't feel as close with Gabe or Indiana anymore and her relationship with Flynn had obviously changed. Shiloh had gotten much more closer to Thom which seemed impossible considering they were close enough as it was. But now Zach had found his way up there, leaving everyone else behind except for Thom. "I broke up with Flynn." Shiloh said finally, quietly and staring off as she shifted to lean into Zach's side.

[shilohholmes]

[shilohholmes]

heart of mine | | self para

Shiloh stretched out her back, laying down on the roof where she'd been for the majority of the day so far. When dawn came, Shiloh woke up like always, but she stayed in bed rather than getting herself up and dressed. There were things to do on the farm, the horses to take care of, and the barn to comb over. For once, Shiloh didn't care.

She stayed in bed for half an hour more before she rolled herself out and took a shower. The blonde got herself dressed after, puling her wet hair into a messy bun at the base of her skull. Her mind wasn't thinking much, nothing past the simple thoughts of walking, moving, and forcing herself to leave her bedroom.

Rather than go to the farm to do her work or fill up a spot on the couch to watch television, she grabbed her notebook and left to move through the mansion. Eventually, she found her way to her hiding spot and got herself comfortable looking out at the land behind the mansion. The spot where she hadn't moved.

It was a nice day, but the inside of her head and heart didn't match. Her mind replayed what happened between herself and Flynn over and over, each time finding a different part of the argument where things really went wrong. Maybe it had been in the heat of the moment, maybe it hadn't been. All Shiloh knew was that her heart hurt and she couldn't stand to be around anyone.

Being in an argument with Gabe didn't help either. Shiloh had only been looking out for her friend and now the two seemed to be at odds ends with each other. Fighting with the other 'wolf was something Shiloh always hated and she didn't know how to fix things. Not without apologizing for something she wasn't in the wrong for and Shiloh wasn't going to do that.

Sighing, the blonde grabbed her notebook beside her and flipped through the pages of messy scrawling. She stopped at one page in particular, feelings she didn't want at the moment trying to push through her but instead, she ripped out the page and tore it into pieces, letting the wind catch the tiny pieces of paper to blow them away.

Setting her notebook back to the side, she looked at her phone to check the time. It was mid afternoon, far enough into the day that she knew she should have been going down, at least to be where people would know where she was.

But she stayed.

Closing her eyes and letting the simple things of the outside calm her down.

[joeyaiko]