me at family gatherings
#no guys you donāt understandĀ #this is super importantĀ #mental health in korea is literally awfulĀ #you can lose your job because youāre being treated for depressionĀ #the fact that this big name star is opening up about it is huuugeĀ #so thank you gong yooĀ
the screenshots here are from near the end of theĀ interview, whichĀ i think makesĀ it even worse, because the interviewer listened to everything heād said and still didnāt treat it very seriously. there are other parts where she seems very smart andĀ intuitive, but then other times heād say something likeĀ āi hate myself to death and feel like iām an empty shellā and sheād just laugh and move on while iām just like !!!
i was really impressed by how open he is about it though, even the āuglyā symptoms that arenāt really talked about normally ā like how he said he used to lock himself in his apartment alone and drink and ābang on the wallsā because he didnāt know how else to cope with all the pain he was in, and he even mentions hurting himself and talks about scars and refers to himself as a āmasochistā and says a coworker once referred to him as āsomeone constantly trying to hurt himself.ā the fact that he was able to talk about all this so openly, despite the reaction he got, was so impressive and amazing to me
itās really heartbreaking though because heās obviously never had the support he needs ā at one point he mentions that the first person he ever opened up to about all the pain he wasĀ in (back in his mid-20s, when he says it was much worse) was a director who was considering hiring him, and he later found out that that director had told people she thought āsomeone like thatā would be ātoo difficultā to work with, andĀ it caused this rumor/pre-conceived notion about him to spread that affected the way his coworkers treated him. now that heās famous and has had other work heās literally known for how charming and nice heĀ is to everyone, but at that point his coworkers all thought he was moody, pretentious, and rude and always avoided him on set because of this, all because he opened up about his severe depression to the wrong person
