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i was at work today, jet lagged out of my mind, and at one point this afternoon i thought i was hallucinating. get it together, body.

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i like to do things, but preparing to do things is the pits.

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i've been doing more tv interviews lately because i am an authority figure and things are happening in the area in which i work. i of course watch every one of them - fascinating how the media sausage gets made and i'm getting better at predicting which half-sentences they'll use from a 15 minute interview - and i was expecting to worry about my appearance.

but no - i am terrified and appalled by my own voice. is that what i sound like? how does anyone bear to converse with me??

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i got reading glasses, which prompted a lot of thoughts about the passage of time and the temporality of the physical form, etc.

what's worse: they are very helpful

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we recently got a DVD player so we could check movies and shows out from the library because streaming is so deeply annoying and discovered that DVD players cost about $25 now!

the first movie i am watching on the new DVD player is the fast & the furious (obviously, the library has the whole series, here i fucking come) and in it they are stealing trucks filled with DVD players because they are the most valuable thing they can steal.

time! wow.

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people are really responding to this historic moment and context in just all kinds of ways.

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sometimes my job is just so fucking weird

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things i am not into:

inhaled steroids.

no thank you, not for me! i cannot even imagine the true hell that other forms of steroid consumption might produce. people do this on purpose! life is such a rich tapestry.

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i have been coughing for 4 days straight, coughing every 10 minutes or so, even while asleep, and i feel like i am losing every part of my mind.

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things that can fuck right off, a comprehensive list:

everything

literally everything

not a single thing escapes this list

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a mix of songs that i liked enough to keep in my review folder but that never made it on to an actual mix. remainders! i need to clear them out to finish year end stuff so, released remainders!

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aggressively and thoroughly rearranging furniture

is this a sign of a mental breakdown or is it a sign of just giving up on everything and doing exactly what i want no matter how deeply unreasonable it is

or are those the same thing

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after week after week of brutal surprises with only bad news, today was an actual pleasant surprise. will it last? who knows. but what a nice moment.