it's never enough, is it? [TW]

|if you report I'll make a new acc||BMI idk||lbs lost idk|lbs to go idk|

[shinyunhappyskinnypeople]

I thought I'd make a pinned post for everyone who stumbles into my tumblr.

I have bipolar, bpd, anxiety disorder and ed. But I'm shitty at the latter. I lose weight I gain weight and bitch about it regularly.

I'm 24 years old and I don't check people's ages when I follow so if you're a minor and feel uncomfortable with me following you please block me. Also if you're a minor please do not message me I'm way too old to be interacting with you. You should talk to people that are your age.

I'm also very much pro recovery and hope y'all recover even though I'm really far away from it. I stopped posting thinspo when I got termed for the fifth time and this is my seventh so I'm really trying not to reblog triggering stuff. But I do vent a lot even though they're more whining than actually interesting.

Also porn blogs will get blocked.

[rottingtrouble-child]

it’s “mental health matters” til y’all start making fun of someone because they’re unable to take care of their teeth

[adhdtho]

your 20s are about fucking up your hair and getting long overdue medical diagnoses actually

[traumatizeddfox]

your abuse is still valid if

- you don’t remember all the details (or any)

-you still are with your abuser(s)

-still talk to your abusers

-have forgiven them

-haven’t forgiven them

-miss your abuser(s)

-love your abuser(s)

-felt like it wasn’t “bad” enough

[anxietyproblem]

[shinyunhappyskinnypeople]

#vent

Not at my sw. About halfway to my last year's lw. Not a catastrophe but way too close. Jeans don't fit but at least there's no binge food at my house anymore and I'm so broke and in debt I can't buy more. So. Taking the good out of total shitshow situation and focusing on the fact I'll get back to the same weight as last fall more surely. My life is awful and people tell me it's great but they just choose not to see the bad parts.

So in summary absolutely nothing new here. Still fat and a trainwreck.

[m0ldys0cks]

plz don’t comment on peoples eating habits it really hurts <3

[wishing-for-deathx]

How would you describe yourself?

Needy and pathetic

Clingy and annoying

Ugly and unlovable

[peachjamboobtea]

Growing up poor and then developing an ed is a horrid combination cuz now I have the "never waste food" mindset combined with the "don't finish it all" mindset 🥲

[returntosickness-deactivated202]

If I ever see y’all using ‘fatspo’ I’m blocking you idc that’s such a shitty thing to do ... I may have body image issues but I will NOT be projecting that onto people just living their best life that’s vile

[shinyunhappyskinnypeople]

I always fuck everything up. Should've guessed it would happen again even if I've done shitload of things to redeem myself. I'll always fuck everything up no matter how much work I put into myself. This is why I shouldn't let anyone near me.

[2o5]

"if you were abusive and/or toxic in the past and have made conscious efforts to change and better yourself you arent a bad person" and "victims dont have to forgive their abusers" are two statements that can and should coexist

[unloveddaughters-blog]

This is your reminder that losing weight only makes you lighter. It doesn’t make you kinder, smarter, more creative, more passionate, more determined, or happier.

[energiafemeninaligera]

yes im too sensitive and what about it

[lvd2]

would b nice to have a happiness that didnt turn out to be a horrible lesson in the end u know what i mean

[traumasurvivors]

An abuser genuinely not realizing what they were doing to you does not invalidate your trauma or feelings. You are still allowed to not forgive them, to be angry at them and even to hate them. 

[goldpixy-deactivated20230510]

just found out my entire personality is a trauma response