while scrolling through my asks to answer them, I realized that Shiten’s apology to me was deleted, alongside their account. I should’ve answered it sooner to clear up the misunderstanding that I’m still mad at shiten, because I don’t have the original apology screenshotted or saved. so I’ll go ahead and respond to the little that I remember about the apology.
content warning for mentions of CSA, rape, inappropriate depictions of real minors and harassment
“I apologize for adding you into the meme when I knew you were a CSA victim. Rin told me why it was bad and I still tried to defend it and I apologize for that”
the biggest issue I had regarding the meme is that I didn’t know what the original image looked like + the context of it. my only knowledge of the meme, before rin reached out to shiten to ask further questions about it, was that it was depicting isaac being gang-raped by me and other friends of his at the time. I believe the meme featured me, cosmic/toby, max, isaac, vlad and tao.
before I knew the full context of the meme, I was horrified that anyone would stoop so low to draw rape art of isaac. I was even more horrified knowing I was in the image and, presumably, taking part in raping isaac. I’ve heard stories of such art being drawn of people before (like Neko Koda from the SCC) and it’s even been made of me before in the past. back in 2021, an explicit fanfiction was written about me by a proshipper in a fandom that hated that I was calling them out. I was fifteen at the time of this being written and was even more disturbed because rumors were being spread that this user would draw me in these acts next. I don’t know the age of this proshipper and they’ve long since left the internet. so naturally, I freaked out.
however there was context that was left out of what isaac had told me. I had presumed this was a drawn image (again, similar to Neko Koda) but it was instead our pfps edited over a meme. the meme in question is the “don’t be the guy with the flowers” meme, a meme depicting a man being cucked while a train is ran on the girl he wants to be with. there are many depictions of this meme, some of the guys in the meme wearing clothes and others not, as well as the punchline always being the same: the girl is half or fully naked, getting fucked.
now while this meme is still one that is meant to be sexual in nature (cucking is a sexual activity), this isn’t nearly as bad as the image actually being drawn. is it still bad, demeaning and inappropriate? yes. me and max are both a decade younger than isaac and half of the people in that meme are on the asexual spectrum. is it as bad as isaac made it out to be? not exactly.
again, my biggest issue with this is that shiten knew I was a CSA victim and even had similar art made of me in the past when I was a minor (grey’s video where I discuss this was up at the time) so I don’t forgive shiten for making the meme of me but I do appreciate them apologizing.
“I can help you with any log censoring if you need it”
not exactly a point but I thank you anyways for the offer. I will still be doing the censoring myself, considering that I know who is and isn’t in Isaac’s friend group anymore. plus the logs are long and I’m only trying to archive certain events that happened in the server (ex: the peacekeeper situation as it was happening)
unfortunately that’s all I can remember from shiten’s apology because I have a dumb idiot brain. I do appreciate what was said though, and I assure you that your apology means a lot, shiten. fuckass tumblr just had to delete it smh
I mostly blame isaac for stretching the truth and making the meme to be something way worse than what it actually was. he says it was bad for shiten to make the meme but it wasn’t bad for tao to draw hanadji as a dominatrix whipping duncan’s ass? don’t get me wrong, I get the joke is that hanadji was incredibly pushy in their DMs and was exhibiting what I can only describe as “mr enter never ping me again” energy. but I feel like there were better ways to portray that than drawing them in a situation like that.
anyways go follow shiten, they’ve been documenting a lot of the stuff isaac and co. have been posting @shitenshitsuru 💜💖
