trying to be myself

Hi, I'm Amanda. Sometimes I'm here and sometimes I'm not. I also stream on Twitch every now and then - twitch.tv/shmanda_

[shmanda]

oh my - its been years since ive been on here. I'M TURNING 30 THIS YEAR AH

the last time i was using tumblr i was depressed as fuck (i realized i've been very depressed for a very long time)

after realizing how long i was depressed for, i figured out that a lot of the choices i've made, was never really for me. it was always to appease someone. to be the perfect daughter and sister. and people making choices for me.

i need to be myself and that's what i've been working on these past couple of months. i'm just trying to be the me i've always wanted to be and for the first time in the longest time, i feel happy.

hope you're all doing well. maybe i'll come back to tumblr, who knows

[sustancy]

[digitalachilles]

reblog for a group of crows to choose you as their leader and follow you around every waking moment

[shmanda]

hello all, hope you’ve been well :)

[ashstfu]

i woke up tired like 8 years ago and i haven't recovered since

[shmanda]

IMAGINE LIKING D4RKLINA 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮 BRO THAT SHIT IS TOXIC AS FUCKKKKKKKK MY GOD

[deconsecration-deactivated20170]

*sees same stranger three times on campus in one day* what are we

[k-uwaiti-deactivated20210813]

don’t ask me “wyd” u know i’m at home deteriorating

[cantina-band]

Watching twilight on a poorly hung projector. (x)

[ashstfu]

i woke up tired like 8 years ago and i haven't recovered since

[bitterrosebud]

[treygotguap]

Girls will say they busy and be in their bed relaxin or sleep

[melanin-majestic]

Sounds busy to me

[sensiblereblogifposts]

Reblog if you are busy 

[buzzfeedreader]

[drinkspill-deactivated20210201]

2017 better be nice to my mom

[drinkspill-deactivated20210201]

2018 better be nice to my mom

[drinkspill-deactivated20210201]

2019 better be nice to my mom

[drinkspill-deactivated20210201]

2020 better be nice to my mom

[drinkspill-deactivated20210201]

2021 better be nice to my mom

[everythingfox]

someone asked me to post a good birb so here you go

[roach-works]

phone plays a tune that means ‘stop what you’re doing right now and pick me up and pay attention to me’. bird also plays that tune, probably for the same reason. 

[kuragin]

[anxietyproblem]