[School Trial] Harumi | Kiku Nekomura | RE: Just fuck her up
“I know— I know what you’re probably thinking…” Harumi said, wrapping her arms around herself. “That I must be selfish and— and manipulative—"
"Gh, Harumi-san is just too careless! I have to change seats… she’s a complete jinx. I can’t stand it anymore—”
"If I were her— I’d be embarrassed. The magical girl act is just so childish.”
She shook her head, thinking as if her mind were a piggy bank. If I keep shaking— I won’t even hear them anymore. I’ll get dizzy and they’ll go away. After all, Kiku Nekomura didn’t let anyone get her down.
But did Harumi?
I don’t think my feelings— I don’t think they’ve ever reached anyone, so what do you expect me to say?”
Harumi bit down on her lip once it had begun to tremble, her eyes welling up with more tears. She continued to stare downcast; everything had become a blurred kaleidoscope. She didn’t quite hate it.
"I was afraid, but it wasn’t just of the dark.” She admitted softly. “I’ve always figured that one day I’d go blind— that my eyes would get so bad that I’d never get to be Kiku again.” She paused. “The dark makes things worse, and I get really paranoid and scared—”
The girl’s frame began to shake vigorously as she held herself, her eyes wide and glossy with tears.
"I’ve always treasured being Kiku and playing derby because— that’s all I’ve ever wanted. That’s were I belonged.” Her voice suddenly grew faint as Harumi struggled to find the proper words. ”B-but I found other things to treasure without realizing it— and ruined everything. Without Moto-chan here, I don’t feel cute at all… I can’t be Kiku anymore…”
Before speaking another word, Harumi bowed her head in shame towards the others.
“I messed up—! I’m sorry! Please don’t scowl like everyone else…” She sniffled. “That’d be the worst…”
