𐙚⋆.˚ just a 22 year old girl trying to find her place in the world ⋆˚࿔
please don’t DM me + doubles please DNI. <33
this blog is a collection of interests, (more on that under the cut) full of reblogs, rambling posts about personal things in my life (not venting) as well as a space for me to indulge in my yumeships, so there will be content in regards to that, too! <33 this is my only safe space online and i’d really like to keep it as peaceful and as private as possible, thank you! <33
𐙚⋆.˚ f/o’s: tomura shigaraki & shu sakamaki (romantic) ⋆˚࿔
elmura ⋆˚ ⟡ ˖° shuli
interests/hobbies: doll collecting, makeup, fashion, dressing up, cosplay, reading, writing, otome games, video games
fave games/currently playing: diabolik lovers, collar x malice, collar x malice unlimited, obey me, final fantasy 7 & 15, kingdom hearts, dramatical murder, our life, disney dreamlight valley, twisted wonderland, devil may cry, ikemen revolution, date everything
fave manga/anime/manhwa: tokyo revengers, death note, my hero academia, bna, haikyuu, diabolik lovers, vampire knight, caste heaven, boys of the dead, yarichin b-club, demon slayer, uramichi oniisan, bj alex, virtual strangers, beastars
fave movies/tv shows: barbie (all of them), monster high (animated), the vampire diaries, my little pony friendship is magic, priscilla, you (netflix), bridgerton, the maze runner, teen wolf, totally spies
fave doll lines: pullip, blythe, monster high (g1), mermaze mermaidz, licca chan, momoko, disney, bratz, barbie, my scene
tags: #linus plays diabolik lovers #linus watches sailor moon
i just took out my lip piercings and it feels so weird…i’ve taken them out countless times to clean them and stuff but i’ve been thinking about just dropping the whole thing altogether for a few days now and i just decided to do it right now…
it’s so weird, because it feels like it’s become a part of me, i’ve had them for about four years now and i feel like it really matched 18 year old me but i feel i’ve outgrown them now. i don’t have many piercings, just one on either side of my bottom lip (which i just removed), tongue and earlobe piercings (just the first set) and i feel like i clung to my lip piercings because they made me outwardly feel alt for a while, you know ? like, i felt like it was a blaring signal for my style, and even though i still am alt and probably will be forever, i feel i’ve outgrown that mindset of having to prove to others what i am before they even speak to me, if they ever do at all, lmao.
it feels nice, i’ll say. i’m so used to metal discs on the inside of my lips, pressing against my gums, that it feels weird and gummy now, lmao. i have heard that they don’t fully heal, which is alright, i don’t mind, it’ll be a reminder of my younger self, lmao. it’s not too bad, though, only noticeable when i smile (which is a lot, but still, lol). i’m happy. i’m going to keep my tongue piercing though, i think.
i was afraid to take my piercings out because i was scared that i’d regret it and it’d heal and i’d have to go though the pain all over again, but it’s been on my mind for a while and i haven’t felt connected to them or happy about them for a long time, so it’s whatever. worst case, i do regret it and get it re-pierced, you know ?
it is seven am, so it could be late night/early morning delirium, but who knows…i’ll know later when i wake up, lmao.
“i am the exception” has been one of the biggest things pushing me towards chasing my dreams and never giving up.
i don’t have the energy to listen to things like “oh, but it’s so hard to make it” i am the exception.
“it’s based on luck” i am the exception.
“you’ve got to think realistically” i am the exception.
i don’t care how hard it is, i don’t care about “realistic” dreams…it’s thoughts like that that keep dreams, dreams. my dream is my reality, and it’s already starting to pay off.
i may sound like i have my head in the clouds, and i do, partially, but it only sounds that way because my dreams are something that seem “unrealistic”, you know ? if i said i wanted to be a doctor and was super positive about it and worked super hard toward it, it wouldn’t sound too crazy, right ? right.
i have my dream and i’m going to make it and i know that. positivity is the biggest thing that’ll help me get there, and a whole lot of hard work, but i’ll get there, i know it in my heart, and i have my mom cheering me on, too.
i have so much to give this world and i will make my mark, i will touch people’s souls with my art. i will create someone’s favourite game, someone’s favourite book, someone’s favourite character!
The thought of your f/o immediately knowing that you’re overwhelmed just from the sound of your voice from calling you, or even the tone of your text. As you feel on the edge of breaking down especially after a long, stressful day. Then you open the door to see your f/o is right there, waiting for you with the warmest hug you’ve been needing. Them helping you put up your coat and things, behind them is a whole setup of comfort, clearly full of love. F/o did all this just for you to be able to decompress without a second thought or worry for the rest of the night…
Imagine your f/o just... resting their chin on top of your head. Not saying anything. Just settling in. Like that's exactly where they're supposed to be.
Playing some music or a record in the background as you mull about the kitchen - playing the part of an old married couple bickering over nothing playfully. Handprints of flour finding their way over each of your clothes, nose, and cheeks from play fighting with the fake snow.
Stealing licks of the batter from each other’s fingertips as you clean up while it bakes - perhaps taking the time to dance or lazily sing. Or curling up on the couch for an upside of your show which is forbidden to be watched unless in the presence of one another.
And when the cake is finally done, you get messy all over again decorating it. Finally you taste the sweet concoction you both made together with wine tea or coffee, urging the other for just one more slice.
just saw a video similar to what spider-man’s perspective would be whilst slinging from building to building and i don’t think i’ve ever seen anyone talk about how dizzying it would be…how is an average person supposed to just lock in and do that one day without throwing up afterwards ? forget all of the dangers about crashing into buildings like a pancake, the dizziness would take me out first, lmaooo
there’s this youtuber who i was obsessed with for super long time, she’s still one of my fave creators but she became a vtuber a while back and hasn’t posted on her channel for years and she’s doing pretty good, so i feel like she won’t come back for a long while yet.
however, i still search her up from time to time so that i can watch her old videos because there’s no other creator like her and her videos bring me comfort.
i did so today and one of the first results was an interview she did at a convention from, like, 8 years ago and it barely had any views and it was the first time i’d ever seen anything like that so i clicked on it, out of curiosity, right ? it wasn’t anything special, i remember her saying a few times that she used to be one of those table girls at conventions who would just stand there and look pretty in hopes of enticing customers over, so i figured that’s what it was for, but i kept scrolling with it playing in the background, i found more. sometimes she had a table with her own business cards, there’s a video of her playing poker with some guy, too. i think because i clicked on the first video, it just triggered an influx of similar videos, you know ?
i stumbled upon another video of her at a con, an interview, and it only had one comment, from her channel, and it was asking the op to change the description because it said her real name (she goes by an alias) and her job had seen the video and had asked for her to take it down. thing is, it’s still there! they didn’t remove her name from the description and i think this is one of the only places online that has her actual government name attached to her face, insane, right ?
pretty shitty of them to not change it, or even reply back to her comment, though.
i have absolutely nobody to talk about this with, lmao, and yes i still am waiting for her return :3
i have seen a lot of channels just straight up steal and reupload her videos too, which is super duper weird…straight up stealing her videos and it’s so surprising because there’s a lot and i’ve never seen them until now
there’s this youtuber who i was obsessed with for super long time, she’s still one of my fave creators but she became a vtuber a while back and hasn’t posted on her channel for years and she’s doing pretty good, so i feel like she won’t come back for a long while yet.
however, i still search her up from time to time so that i can watch her old videos because there’s no other creator like her and her videos bring me comfort.
i did so today and one of the first results was an interview she did at a convention from, like, 8 years ago and it barely had any views and it was the first time i’d ever seen anything like that so i clicked on it, out of curiosity, right ? it wasn’t anything special, i remember her saying a few times that she used to be one of those table girls at conventions who would just stand there and look pretty in hopes of enticing customers over, so i figured that’s what it was for, but i kept scrolling with it playing in the background, i found more. sometimes she had a table with her own business cards, there’s a video of her playing poker with some guy, too. i think because i clicked on the first video, it just triggered an influx of similar videos, you know ?
i stumbled upon another video of her at a con, an interview, and it only had one comment, from her channel, and it was asking the op to change the description because it said her real name (she goes by an alias) and her job had seen the video and had asked for her to take it down. thing is, it’s still there! they didn’t remove her name from the description and i think this is one of the only places online that has her actual government name attached to her face, insane, right ?
pretty shitty of them to not change it, or even reply back to her comment, though.
i have absolutely nobody to talk about this with, lmao, and yes i still am waiting for her return :3
I'm unsure if I am reaching when I say MC has a lot of sacrificial lamb motifs.
MC is literally represented as a sheep/lamb when drawn officially.
◇They are a sacrifice on behalf of humanity when they are brought to the Devildom.
◇Besides that there was the time MC willingly sacrificed themselves to try and protect Beel and Luke from Lucifer's wrath.
◇I'm not entirely sure about this but I remember during the time MC's magic was going haywire, they offered to end themselves despite their fear if it kept the three worlds safe. Another case of offering themselves up like a sarafice.
◇Besides those, there is every time MC sacrificed their time and other things for the sake of someone else.😃
