Claire Keane
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"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
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occasionally subtle
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Sade Olutola
Misplaced Lens Cap
trying on a metaphor
NASA
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@shysneeze
bee | 22 | she/they| lesbian
usefull links:
→ masterlist
→ request guidelines | what i’m working on | tags
→ fic rec blog | book blog
dni/ rules
→ if you are homophobic, racist, transphobic etc - pls get a life of your own and stay away from me thanks
→ i don’t write nsfw so i’ve no age restriction on this blog but i am 22 years old so i’m not comfortable personally interacting with <16s (comfortable for u to read my fics and stuff, but mutual wise…)
the curse of growing up obsessed with romance, being a weird and quiet teenager, realising ur a lesbian, inheriting a fear of becoming ur mother in relationships, being told you have ocd - it makes dating feel like a psychotic break - realising you’re too mentally ill to date, but wanting to more than anything.
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i wish i could just tell someone my entire history of crushes etc and someone could tell me my sexuality, tell me i’m not faking it, but ik that’s not how it works, like i get so stressed trying to justify my un-attraction to men than i start doubting my attraction to women because i grew up with a million fictional crushes on male characters but i think it’s comphet because the thought of being with a guy makes me feel bad, but maybe that’s because men just aren’t interested in me, and maybe my attraction to women is actually just me getting wound up over men not being attracted to me, because nobody has ever had a crush on me- i was the girl asked out as a joke and you took to being accused of liking - so maybe i’m just lonely but that’s fucking insane because there are things that i did growing up which were gay and but then i didn’t realise liking girls was an actual option until i was old enough to know that people also thought it was gross if you did, but like i literally chose at random almost every crush i’ve ever had, even some of the current ones i’ve had on women so now i think i’m faking it entirely. then i go full circle and convince myself i’m ace but also women are hot and im attracted to them and boobies you know? but then maybe i’m faking that too, but are people who fake shit this scared that their faking it? surely that means i’m not faking it, but people who are faking it but don’t want to fake it would obviously tell themselves that if they were faking it??? i’m fucked in the head, like i’m getting obsessive over this at this point why is this so confusing? why can’t i just accept that i’m gay? my parents would be fine with it, my friends don’t care, i don’t have any sort of religious trauma or anything. i feel like if i tell people i’m gay, i’ll kiss a girl one day and not like it, and i’ll have lied to everyone, but now i’m like scared i’ve hyped it up so much that kissing a girl will feel weird and i’ll hate myself
guys turns out i’m just a lesbian with OCD
(the second i was told it was OCD I remembered writing this post several years ago)
“but are people who fake shit this scared that their faking it? surely that means i'm not faking it, but people who are faking it but don't want to fake it would obviously tell themselves that if they were faking it???”
holy shit girl you should have taken this to your GP this is textbook
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i wish i could just tell someone my entire history of crushes etc and someone could tell me my sexuality, tell me i’m not faking it, but ik that’s not how it works, like i get so stressed trying to justify my un-attraction to men than i start doubting my attraction to women because i grew up with a million fictional crushes on male characters but i think it’s comphet because the thought of being with a guy makes me feel bad, but maybe that’s because men just aren’t interested in me, and maybe my attraction to women is actually just me getting wound up over men not being attracted to me, because nobody has ever had a crush on me- i was the girl asked out as a joke and you took to being accused of liking - so maybe i’m just lonely but that’s fucking insane because there are things that i did growing up which were gay and but then i didn’t realise liking girls was an actual option until i was old enough to know that people also thought it was gross if you did, but like i literally chose at random almost every crush i’ve ever had, even some of the current ones i’ve had on women so now i think i’m faking it entirely. then i go full circle and convince myself i’m ace but also women are hot and im attracted to them and boobies you know? but then maybe i’m faking that too, but are people who fake shit this scared that their faking it? surely that means i’m not faking it, but people who are faking it but don’t want to fake it would obviously tell themselves that if they were faking it??? i’m fucked in the head, like i’m getting obsessive over this at this point why is this so confusing? why can’t i just accept that i’m gay? my parents would be fine with it, my friends don’t care, i don’t have any sort of religious trauma or anything. i feel like if i tell people i’m gay, i’ll kiss a girl one day and not like it, and i’ll have lied to everyone, but now i’m like scared i’ve hyped it up so much that kissing a girl will feel weird and i’ll hate myself
guys turns out i’m just a lesbian with OCD
(the second i was told it was OCD I remembered writing this post several years ago)
singing the giver with my entire chest but i’m ac nearly a 23 y/o virgin who can’t get into a relationship and ends up in months long talking stages that end before i can get more than a single kiss, and who’s only form of flirting is being such a loser some attractive cool person finds amusing enough to give some attention
why is having a mother a pre-existing mental health issue at this point?
my biggest enemy in life is pull and bear not bringing their arcane hoodie back in stock, after it ran out exactly 24hrs before i got the funds to buy it
frankly, i would just like to be able to wear clothes the same way conan gray does
can't get hands off each others' body kinda make out session would solve all my problems
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Warrior Nun (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Relationships: Sister Beatrice/Ava Silva Additional Tags: Inspired by Call the Midwife, Alternate Universe - 1960s, Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotionally Repressed, slow burn?, Lots of Babies, lots of sadness, lots of hope too
Summary:
It’s the 1960s. Ava Silva escapes one set of nuns, only to find herself amidst another, but this time she’s in Poplar, London, where every day is a birth-day and everyone knows you oughtta phone Cat’s Cradle…
The “Call the Midwife” AU
no one:
baristas looking me up and down then asking me for the fourth time if i definitely didn’t mean oat milk in my latte:
so you can have anything but me
for @jomaskin ♥
the glasses have to stay on babe
They’re in love y’all. They told me.
i love being the lesbian friend
After all these years. Who knew we’d make such a good T-e-a-m.
ANNE WITH AN E (2017 - 2019) | s03 ep07 ‘A Strong Effort of the Spirit of Good’
