hello! i am jes, one of three hosts of a did system. you'll probably see me on here the most, so i'm writing this.
info under the cut!
frequent (enough) fronters:
jes - it/kits - host
noelle - she/her - host
jacks - she/he - host
castor - any pronouns - internal and external caretaker
techno - he/him - gatekeeper
anyone may be added we are fresh out of blur trying to figure stuff out
we are an audhd system with bpd (in remission!!)
we love deltarune and minecraft and pokemon and we are a zoology student in college. ask us ANYTHING about animals i dare you
individual alters may or may not make intro posts, just depends on what they want to do.
DNI
p much just the obvious. and we dont want to see a single endogenic/willogenic/tulpagenic/whatever or their supporters. we even less want to talk to those who are neutral, cause it's fucked to be neutral about MEDICAL GODDAMN MIDINFORMATION. anyway. that's it. this is a shitty intro but i'm just here for fun
also don't send us your studies on tulpamancy, because tulpamancy is not systemhood and has nothing to do with us.
edit(s):
basic dni means bigots. we say the obvious because fucking obviously. zionists fuck off too but you’re part of the obvious to us. being more specific is dumb. if we don’t like you, we block you.
Remember to take a break from "syscourse" every now and then.
It is not healthy to spend all your time fighting with people that will not stop being ableist. It's okay to rest, it's okay to get away from screens. It doesn't make you a coward.
Please take care of yourselves. Drink water, eat, sleep/take naps. And have a good timezone!
well weve got the irl name that we arent sharing cause obviously and then the one on here. we’re called sideshow system cause we like the circus theme but circus system didn’t roll off the tongue with the s into s. it’s really just that
Idk if screenshots are aloud, especially with the tags, so if not feel free to just like ignore this or crop my asks, but uh
Idk, telling trauma survivors they stand for nothing is a bit odd... just a tad... little weird. Definitely made me a little uncomfy to tell trauma survivors to run with their tails tucked. Little bit of ableism in there, sprinkle some more ableism on top with that willo tag for good measure
Maybe its satire, I say as they drag me away
yuck thats so gross, also always so ironic to see them call themselves punk, like bro get a life /nay
we do!! it’s kinda complicated to explain cause i haven’t been all up in there in a while, but there’s the inner area around the front room, there’s a big field, and there’s the big scary evil forest. there’s more places but i don’t know them LMAO
I always forget there are maga people on tumblr, this doesn’t feel like a website you’d find them on, so to keep them away:
Reblog if your blog is a maga free zone because if it wasn’t clear enough fuck ice, fuck maga, fuck Trump, Fuck Rowling, and fuck all the other bigots I missed
oof uh. ones that i hear from, roughlyyyy 20? but i know there’s a lot more active internal alters running around and keeping things running. at one point we had 200 recorded, but idk right now
yyyyyes to an extent? amalthea and other heavily nonhuman alters (ones that say they don’t exist even) tend to have very poor memory compared to others. but it’s complicated for me to answer cause i’m not them and they’re not easy to exactly call forth. plus they give us a headache
So, I got this anonymous ask, and I wanted to respond to it. As big blocks of texts with no paragraph spacing hurts my brain, I color coded it by how I’ll be responding to it. Text color on the image corresponds to the text color of my response. Also TW for violence, death, transphobia, and ableism. Ask below⬇️
Ok, let’s begin.
1: I’m not deciding how mentally ill people are based on how they present or act. In fact, I’m not deciding how mentally ill people are at all— I’m not a psychiatrist, and I’m not qualified for nor responsible for that.
2: Endos do hurt people. They are often anti-recovery, don’t encourage enough research before telling people they’re endogenic, some of them actively encourage people to “become plural” aka separate their personality states, which can be actively harmful to your mental health, and I’ve even seen some encouraging others to try to force dissociation. Furthermore, they spread misinformation and negative stereotypes to not only singlets but other systems and perpetuate the spreading trend of misconceptions in the online system community, a lot which also spread offline, as goes the spread of (mis)information a lot of the time.
3: it’s not about “looking bad”, it’s about an accurate description of the disorder being relayed.
1: yes, ableists will go after any systems, real or faking. Ableists are ableists, and having only real systems post wouldn’t stop that, because most of the ableists that specifically CDDs have the idea of a “perfect system” already in their mind and will fakeclaim anyone who doesn’t fit that mold. That doesn’t mean that those ableists don’t get their fuel a lot of the time from endogenic communities, and use that to target traumagenic systems. Either way, yes, ableism is bad. On that, at least, we can agree.
2: no one mentioned anything about cringe culture or stupidity. Cringe culture is dead, stupid people deserve grace to be educated or just ignored. I never claimed endos were either of these things.
3: I never claimed all endos had the same mindset, as that’s just plainly not true. Some endos claim non-disordered plurality, others claim to have CDDs without trauma. Some believe in willing their system into existence, some don’t. But, in the grand scheme of things, almost all are just people who saw systems online and thought it sounded fun and either got pulled into the community or actively chose to start faking. A lot of traumagenics/anti-endos I’ve talked to said they were convinced they were endogenic by the endogenic community online and later either found out that they were traumagenic or that they weren’t plural at all. I would never lump every endo together, nor would I target individual endos.
4: for someone apparently so against ableism, you sure do seem to have a very lax attitude towards using ableist language.
1: it’s not the same thing as the transtrender thing. Gender is an identity that is based on a social construct, and can change. You can transition into a different gender, and transgender people typically aren’t telling people “become transgender! You can will dysphoria into yourself!” You don’t need dysphoria to be transgender, because the biggest tell is the euphoria you get. Furthermore, you cannot “transition” into having a mental disorder. Frankly, it’s transphobic to imply that being transgender is a mental disorder, and it feeds into transphobic rhetoric.
2: people don’t wake up one day and “decide” to be transgender. They can decide how they want to present. They can decide to transition, to come out, to stay in the closet. But they cannot decide to feel like a different gender.
1: “even if somebody is 100% making it the fuck up literally why does it matter.” It matters because they can spread whatever misinformation they want to spread, and that can be harmful with those with the disorder. Furthermore, the fact that they are deciding to fake a mental disorder can be a sign of a mental illness in itself, and it shouldn’t be normalized to lie and say you have something you don’t.
2: it’s not about how much someone suffered, or that suffering more or less makes you “valid”. It’s a mental disorder literally formed off of childhood trauma, and without that, you cannot have the disorder. How much trauma that is, isn’t my place to say. Everyone’s brain develops differently and copes with things differently. I will never question if someone’s trauma is or is not enough, but there must be trauma. That’s the nature of the disorder.
3: “everyone needs to shut the fuck up and stop being a whiny cunt about it.” Yeah, I know this was probably you pouring your frustration into my inbox, but holy shit did you not make a good case for yourself. You have done nothing but insult me and repeat the same thing over and over without providing even a semblance of an argument: “anti-endos bad and evil, endos are valid!” essentially. Grow up. Learn how to debate.
1: “psych doctors are not yalls friends lol theyre another tool of the regime to divide people.” I’m not friends with my doctors, no. But that doesn’t mean I don’t need them. Mental and physical health are things that people often need help with, and it is inherently bad and wrong for you to imply that those people are somehow morally failing for needing that help and support. Without physical health professionals, I wouldn’t have made it a day. Without mental health professionals, I wouldn’t have made it to adulthood. They are not there to divide people, they are there to help. Is it true that many things are made to divide people and that mental and physical health resources are extremely racist, sexist, and overall discriminatory? Yes. Does that mean that if you are experiencing a mental or physical health issue you should ignore it for the sake of, what, sticking it to the government? Hell no. Sorry to say, but just not going to the hospital or to a therapist/psychiatrist is not a form of protest that is viable or helpful.
2: “that piece of paper "proving" youre mentally ill…” I don’t believe that everyone needs to be diagnosed to have the disorder. As I said before, yes, the healthcare system is very very flawed, and where I live, very very expensive. Being diagnosed is a privilege that not everyone can afford. I believe that well-researched self-diagnosis can be helpful, especially when you don’t have access to a professional, as long as you don’t claim to be diagnosed. Do your research, try to get professional help if/when you can, etc.
3: “wont mean shit when a violent ableist is looking to cure you with a brick… Why dont yall just lie down with your mouth on a curb so the cops can come and stomp your head in” I don’t know if you know this, but sending random violence into a trauma survivor’s inbox isn’t really chill of you m8. I mean, you do you ig, but really, did you think that this was going to change my mind? Alluding to me getting violently murdered/beaten to death by the police, or some ableist coming and hitting me with a brick? Fun fact: that doesn’t get anyone at all on your side.
4: “since yall wanna be oppressed so fucking bad” hate to tell you this, buddy, but yes, disabled people are oppressed. Even just mentally disabled. And yes, CDDs can be disabling.
1: “perpetuating a culture to fakeclaim people will only make a negative impact on everyone involved. somebody could be 100% DID all the way and still get fakeclaimed” I don’t support fakeclaiming at all, ever. No one should be fakeclaimed, even if they’re “clearly” faking. You don’t know them, you cannot see in their head, and unless they explicitly tell you they’re faking, you can’t know(and even then, who knows. There are some parts of my system who are still convinced we’re faking despite being professionally diagnosed). Anyway, I don’t support saying all endogenic systems are faking, because they aren’t, and that’s been proven to me. I don’t support saying that individual endogenic systems are faking, because they are a stranger on the internet, at the end of the day. I do agree that fakeclaiming is bad and will only really hurt actual systems.
first one we can properly answer lmao! honestly we are a pretty 50/50 split. different eras have had more or less of both, but right now it’s even. at least uhhh in terms of who’s actually active
I don’t believe any pro/endo who has used “sanism” to claim they’re oppressed or to get mad at anti endos knows what that word actually is and it’s ironic and very clear that they only use these words as buzzwords and to copy real systems who face real discrimination. Sanism isn’t “you’re not like us we hate you” or whatever they think it is.
Sanism is “the discrimination against and oppression of people based on actual or perceived mental disorder or cognitive impairment.” It’s literally right there in the name, a mental disorder!! You can be discriminating against because you have a disorder if you DONT have a DISORDER?!?!?
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