I miss going outside, I miss having a job, talking to people everyday. Telling them to have a good day, or seeing them smile at a joke or the food i served them. I've spent the better part of this year locked inside my house because of how much things have changed. I feel like this is the first time in months I've been able to wake up and start doing things again. I know things will get better. But I have motivation to make those things better. I don't wanna stay here forever. Moving into a new house, esp one so small with family has filled me with so much dread. Finally though I have the motivation to start doing something about it. Trying to find a job. Gonna hopefully try to go out more soon. Maybe learn how to cook, just to eat something nice. Life is very out of control right now but I will try to change that. I sometimes forget that this site exists and then I remember it's the only site where I feel I can be weird and a lil silly













