BTS having to perform CPR on you
WARNING: this is a delicate issue. It’s angsty, so please read it at your own risk
He already knew about your heart disease but he never thought you’d need CPR. When it happened, he froze and he didn’t know what to do. Luckily, there was a defibrillator near you, so he used it until the ambulance arrived. When you woke up, he could only cry and regret not knowing how to help you without the defibrillator.
It happened in the middle of the street. Luckily, he did a short course of CPR because you never know what can happen. He performed it perfectly and he kept you alive until the ambulance arrived. They praised him for his help, so very deep inside he felt proud about saving your life, because your health is the most important for him.
When it happened you were all alone in the street. You taught him how to do it, just in case. He never expected it so he didn’t practice at all. That day, he was so shocked and nervous that he did the compressions a little bit harder than the habitual. Fortunately, he didn’t break you any rib, but he felt so bad for you that he promised he’d do whatever to help you properly in the future.
His worst fear was having to perform CPR on you. He was so shocked that he started to cry, but he tried to do it anyways. He was trembling so much that he couldn’t do anything, so he started to cry more and more. Luckily, there was a doctor near that helped you until the ambulance arrived. He was so sorry that, when you woke up, he promised he was going to be strong for you no matter what.
He couldn’t tell what was happening to you at all. He saw you fall on the floor and he tried to wake you up, but you weren’t reacting. He heard about your disease from you, but he never expected you to stop breathing. He was freaking out, but he immediately called the emergency number and tried doing the CPR. He didn’t know exactly what he was doing, but it was enough to keep you alive.
He already did it once but, when it happened to you, he barely managed to control the situation. He was in the verge of tears and he was feeling really impotent, so he had to control his strength. Besides that, the ambulance arrived really late, so he almost fought with the driver. Once you were in the hospital, he spent 100% of his time by your side taking care of you.
He somehow knew it could happen to you, so he prepared himself for it. He took short courses to learn about first aids and he even practiced. Despite of that, when he had to do it in real life his emotions overwhelmed him, so he couldn’t do it properly. He was so sad about the fact that you arrived in a bad state at the hospital, that you had to cheer him up instead because, if it wasn’t for him, you could’ve died at the street.
I think this is the most angsty thing I’ve ever written. This is something that can happen to everyone, so it’s far from being fantasy. At first I thought this was a great idea (I want to be a doctor so CPR just called me) but it was really sad tbh. I hope you liked it tho <3