What is Christianity?
My entire life, I had been raised Christian, and while my family (thankfully) wasn't super restrictive (with me mostly as I'm the youngest) but still had its quirks (I was not allowed to read harry potter until I was 15) and my parents apparently thought I was demon-possessed? But they didn't try to exorcise me with brutally insane and abusive tactics. No, they just took me to church, hoping that the music, people, and scripture would be enough. And thankfully, I wasn't too wild; I just really hated church. Why did I hate church? I'm SO glad you asked! I hated the music; It was too loud. (i went to Free Chapel in Gainesville ga look it up) . I hated being around that many people. I hated being around children I didn't know (context, I was bullied in elementary school). I hated being that uncomfortable, and you bet your ass my parents had to bribe me to get me to go to church some days. I was diagnosed with autism at 17 years old after insisting to my parents that I needed therapy and fighting them on the benefits. I did not have a choice in going to church. So what is Christianity? It is a cultural icon with a long history steeped in martyrdom, Manipulation, corruption, ableism, oppression, fascism, colonialism, racism, the list is endless almost. And I know that a lot of these things are just human fuckery. I know pagan cultures were guilty of much the same thing. Everything you see with modern Christianity is not at all new. But where it becomes inexcusable is when you just ignore or deflect from it. And since Christianity took hold with emperor Constantine, I can tell you it's gotten a lot worse. It was like that when it took hold of Rome. But what appealed to these people psychologically to transition from paganism to Christianity? And what's keeping these people in the modern-day in this hellishly oppressive religion? So modern-day cults are an excellent way to look at it because I can tell you it's the same ALL across the board. Some churches are just a lot subtler and not as insane as what you see with Jonestown. They understand that they can get in serious trouble if they get caught. But they're still preaching damnation in the eternal fires of hell and their interpretations of the rules to stay out of hell. Unless they accept Jesus Christ as their lord and savior. Now I'm still new to the whole historical research of the religion. Still, I've read one book, 'God against the gods' By Jonathan Kirsch, and he brought up the point that pagans at the beginnings of Christianity joined because they were curious. The old gods were boring, and there was this brand new god. And as Christianity took over, hostilities escalated, and martyrdom was very popular for Christianity. But there is a likely chance these people were being coerced into martyrdom, like the Jonestown massacre and so many other modern Christian-centered cults (and that's basically all of them, actually) that forced their members into committing ... bye-bye mode. Preachers especially are excellent due to the societal perception that they are men of god and thus are to be trusted. And I want terrath to have this similar feel with its villains, this feeling that if you don't obey this guy, you will suffer. There is so much more than "It is gods will." The actual breaking down and into the person's mentality that you're trying to coerce. And to do that, you basically need to be trusted. And that is 100% what Christianity is. It is not forgiveness, compassion, or empathy. It has always been the opposite. It has always been this psychological minefield, and it's fascinating as hell. So that's why I've been holding off on writing the books because I've wanted to do my research. I'm still working on the study because there is a lot to unpack. I also want to have a clear idea of where EXACTLY I want to go with the characters, the mythology, and the series itself. I want it to feel more like Arcane and less like Harry Potter (let's be honest, my dudes, it's not that great, and she did NOT do a great job tying up her plots.)












