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[skelesammi]

intro ^_^

hiii!!! im sammi and im looking for ed moots!!! relapsed recently and am looking for people who understand how im feeling bc this disorder is SO lonely :((( (stats below!)

i’m 17, and i use any pronouns! i’m emo/scene and some of my favorite artists are: ptv, mcr, brokencyde, msi, the front bottoms, radiohead, nirvana, fob, paramore, sws, get scared, ghost town and sm more!!!! some of my hobbies include crocheting, gaming (minecraft, robloc, cod, sched 1, phasmo, stardew, animal crossing etc!!), writing, and making music :)))

my stats:

height: 5’4” / 162.5 cm

cw: 95.0 lbs / 43.2 kg

bmi: 16.3

lw: 89.2 lbs / 40.5 kg

gw: 90 lbs / 40.9 kg

ugw: 80 lbs / 36.4 kg

[expectedadult-deactivated202607]

god never designed a better torture than a sick body with an ambitious mind

[dollysarexxy]

when i feel skinny but then i remember what fat looked like in the 2000s

[skelesammi]

learning how to take blood pressures in my cna class and my biggest flex is that i have to have a pediatric cuff used on me cuz the adult cuff is too big 😁😁

[skelesammi]

:(

getting cpr certified and having to learn how to save someone who’s oded is gonna break me. she shouldnt have died she wasnt meant to she was supposed to be a mother like she always wanted to she wasnt supposed to die. she was supposed to recover and live a long fruitful life and she couldnt. i wish i had seen the messages sooner i wish i had been a better friend i wish the ambulance had gotten there sooner i wish she never died i wish she never felt like taking her own life was the only way she’d ever feel at peace i miss her so fucking much its so unfair. why are the best people the ones that experience the worst of the world?

[segamascott]

[skelesammi]

leaving behind the “i cant have that food even though i want it so bad” mindset and entering the “i can have whatever food i want, i just dont want it “ mindset

im not restricting. i just dont want food.

[jianna-iscold]

also doing this !! i imagine that the f00d is super disgusting, like ew ew ew that must be SOOOO sour and unpleasant !!

[rottenlalka]

This thInspo 🫢 Not me⚠️

[veezc0ffee]

THIS.

[sxjctrr3j-deactivated20251101]

i wish i was real skinny. im fake skinny i think my tummy is flat until i see a girl with a real flat tummy i think my thighs are kinda thin until i see someone with actual skinny legs. i wish i was real thin and not sucked in tummy thin

[adonis-the-goth-sheep-lover-wl]

How it feels to be a leftist on 3dblr

[summerhighsandbutterflies]

biggest lies ever told

1.) "if you eat the apple you'll be like God"

2.) "i'll just recover once i reach my UGW haha"

[starving-ang3ll]

[chell-rry]

🫶🏻

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

there's not a single nonchalant bone in my body. I care so much I could literally vomit.

[echoesofsaturn]

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

[skelesammi]

tw

lol

i think i might kill myself tonight. theres no reason for me to stay. im suffering every day and i will suffer for the rest of my life because my mental health conditions will never go away. my poor physical health will never improve. i have no friends and the only thing stopping me was talking to my boyfriend after his graduation. seems he wasnt very excited to talk to me and i dont think that will change.

bpd, bipolar, and ana have ruined my life. i have no chance of ever being happy for more than a passing moment and i am tired of it. i am tired of hurting.

i guess maybe this is a last ditch effort to stop myself, as attention seeking as it is. i just dont think anyone irl will actually care until theyre going to my funeral. i have no one. im sorry

[skelesammi]

i actually fucking hate him so much who the fuck does he think he is??? he goes off to the fucking military, conpletely fucking leaving me behind, and then once he conpletes badic suddenly he doesnt need me anymore? he completely fucking ignored me yesterday and he didnt sound excited to fucking talk to me at all today. he ended our call abrubtly and had the fucking audacity to say that hes “sorry” that he “hasnt talked to me much” all bc his family is there and he hasnt seen them in forever when we all know damn fucking well if i was thete id be the only fucking person he would want to talk to. i genuinely wanna fucking end it because obviously he doesnt need nor fucking want me anymore. he just doesnt know how to leave me because he knows ill take it really hard but its so fuckong obvious that he wants nothing to fucking do with me given that he cant even gove me five fucking minutes of his undivided attention.

whats worse is that i KNOW im in the wrong. i know that im being unfair and childish. i know that im just splitting and i dont actually believe any of this stuff but that doesnt change how i feel. i fucking hate being self aware as a borderline because it makes me feel even more fucking insane