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Vent blog/sideblog because I don’t always trust some people

Anyone can try to interact but I’ll block you if I don’t like you.

Plural system, transfem, autistic, some flavour of commie or anarchist. Pronouns change so ask but she/her usually works.

I’m legally bad at tagging so politely point out if i need to include trigger warnings and such.

That’s about it

sometimes i feel like im the only person who would actually have the strength/stupidity/tolerance for bullshit to help me.

ive never met someone like me before.

i dont know if ill ever get better without that.

Ok what the fuck is with some people just saying ‘i want to be friends with you more but i feel bad for talking to you and i dont believe you when you say you care about me’ like girl i am trying to let you know you matter what do you mean you dont care for anything im saying.

its so fucking impossible to talk to a pessimist sometimes.

tried talking to some friends about chronic exhaustion today 0-0. they immediately shut me the fuck down because apparently its ‘comparing suffering’ to want to know if my experience is normal or not. fuck sake i dunno why i hang out with those assholes.

i swear to god im going insane. i feel like i keep accidentaly stumbling into being that guy tm that depressed and suicidal losers talk to. i just fuvking meet people and feel bad and am trying to to everything right but am literally incapable of setting good boundries with them. i need like 100 fuckong years where they stop appearing in my fucking life so incan sort out my own shit. its not like i can like just fucking stop being there for someone with literally noone else so i just have to fucking deal with it tm until something changes. its the worse i cant fucking exist.

why are some people so fuckin serious about ‘caring’ about others. like good god anybody ever telling me ‘i would do anything for you’ please for fucks sake dont. thats fucking weird, i dont fucking get to tell you what to do or ask you for literally anything.

i genuinely don’t understand that kinda thing. why give up your freedom to someone else

at this point i don’t even think I’m a human anymore. i don’t think ill ever understand any of it any of the emotions. im something trying so hard to be a person but im not i dont get it. :(

#vent #ish #i dunnno #autism

why can people not just shut the fuck up and fuck off when i tell them to. i SAID that i did not want to talk to them and they just kept fucking ignoring me. please i need to be away from people for a long long time.

#vent post #vent

i just wnat a break i just want to rest i want to rest for as long as i need until i can actually bear to be near people again but i cant. everything around me is noisy and upsetting and i just want time to recover from it all.

i dont understand how im supposed to get anything done ever. i dont have the energy and all the energy i have is needed to bear with this wretched fucking world.

why is it too loud why are people here in my house why why why does this awful place want me dead

#vent #vent post

The demons making me question if I’m asexual are making me ask ridiculous questions like ‘can I like boobs in a non sexual way?’ And the problem is the answer is yes. Like what if it’s a gender dysphoria thing? What if it’s an autism sensation thing? Can I appreciate boobs in a non sexual way? I don’t fucking know!

#rant post #asexual