tristes tropiques

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[utopicwork]

Elephant Seal Blast

190 tris + 1 256x256 texture

You can download the files for this project here

[deadeyesopened]

el gatito tuesday

[oceantoyz]

[sketchydsm]

i never post on here but wanted to say something that should have been obvious but was so deeply buried by shame: i love being a girl. it feels weird sometimes to claim it. i was born female etc but it’s hard to feel like i “deserve” to be called a woman. a decade on testosterone. anyway,

[retroactivebakeries]

[knifefightscene]

How i sleep knowing I never fell for an abuser’s misinformation campaign because i have critical thinking skill and don’t believe everything i read on the internet

[reasoncourt]

no but actually. so many people revealed who they are during the trial and they’re going to blame it on misinformation but i could be sitting in plato’s fucking cave and I still wouldn’t be doing a tik tok dance to someone’s SA testimony. like that’s not misinformation that’s just being rotten to your core

[sketchydsm]

i get about a week in southern california before i lose my mind completely! but hey! my boyfriend and i are moving in together! not in california!

i feel like i wouldn’t have wanted to move to a small city before i detransitioned, but now i guess it’s easier…? very excited for this move, to garden, hike, sew, doze on the porch with a book

[horreurscopes]

awake at 4 am i gotta remind myself that none of the emotioions im experiencing rightnow are peer reviewed

[odioart]

新世紀エヴァンゲリオン c o l o r f u l  オディオ  O D I O 

[sketchydsm]

pretty stupid that things are going great and here i am, feeling like his ex was better for him than i am, which is stupid for a lot of reasons, but sometimes the thought sticks in my head

[ourladyofperpetualnaptime]

maison martin margiela padded cotton top f/w 1995

[sketchydsm]

what if i feel like

it's too good for me

it's too good to be true

i ruined everything by drenching his bedsheets in sweat

i ruined everything by crying at high park

there is a secret resentment or annoyance building up within him, to be unleashed at a later date

my brain is broken

i am a broken person who gets overwhelmed having sex at night, in the dark, right before bed

i am too angry

i am such a know-it-all

i would rather build a fantasy life in a remote area somewhere in my head than solve the problems in front of me

my brain comes out at the edge of possibility, teeth out, bleeding to self-sabotage

i have opportunity in front of me now, a job interview, and i am frozen in terror

i miss los angeles

i miss my friends in california

i am ashamed that i had a flashback, ashamed that he touched me and i felt someone else, ashamed that he joked with me and reminded me i'm safe and i felt a vast cavern open up within me

i am myself until i am triggered, and then i am a mess of neurons and memories of men who should have known better

[braunography]

Nicholas Braun as Victor Slinack in Victor in Paradise (2020) dir. Brendan McHugh

[exercicedestyle]

Rudolf Freund

[myself-when-i-am-real]

[sketchydsm]

queen of getting stoned and realizing that the characteristics that annoy me most in others are actually also inside of me, ie, someone who i have long thought was an ass is still an ass but i’m no picnic either