Renatta

25, MTF, Minors don’t interact

[skinbreaker]

Noooo Babe your suffering is so meaningful

[skinbreaker]

I’m not depressed I’m just age regressing to 13-14 when I was depressed

[bwv572-deactivated20260113]

According to tradition, Lazarus never smiled during the thirty years after his resurrection, worried by the sight of unredeemed souls he had seen during his four-day stay in Hell. The only exception was, when he saw someone stealing a pot, he smilingly said: "the clay steals the clay."[1][46]

[skinbreaker]

Sometimes I feel like I know a disgusting and unbearable truth

[misscaptor]

My icon and background here and on my other two blogs are all paintings by the artist Gerda Wegener. Most were done between 1918 and 1926 if I’m remembering correctly. My icon here is from a series of erotic aquarelles incorrectly attributed to an “anonymous male painter” in SEVERAL textbooks of historic erotica that I own. Really funny. Wegener is a woman and signed her work very noticeably. The clown character (Pierette) that I use as my icon here is believed to represent Wegener’s wife, Lili, considered to be the third trans woman to ever undergo the earliest form of modern HRT and SRS. In this particular painting, Pierette is having oral performed on her by a woman in a butterfly costume, believed to represent Wegener herself. The associated poetry tells the reader that Pierette is on… I believe her sixth orgasm? If I’m remembering correctly? So anyway. Yeah. My very cutesy chaste clown icon is actually some 1920s tgirl clown porn. Nobody asked but you all should know. I’m not just a weird unethical porn writer. I’m also a historical porn enthusiast.

[misscaptor]

This scan of the painting is from a printing done in 1928 I believe. The scan I use in my profile pic I had to beg a Danish museum for so I don’t have it on my phone, sorry, I’ve only got this blue version I got from… some American university I forgot which. My translation uses the feminine for the Pierrot even though the poem uses the masculine because. Well. thats a woman. There’s nine more poem/painting sets including one more that includes this Pierrot character penetrating another character. Also I did this translation four years ago and I don’t stand by some of it- I’d probably title the poem “Pierrot’s pallor”, among other nitpicks. Also sorry I was wrong in the original post, she’s only on her third orgasm. Disappointing.

As for this character being transfem, the evidence is well documented. Gerda Wegener was married to Lili Else Ivernes, called Lili Elbe in some accounts. Exact accounts of Lili’s surgeries were lost when the institute for sexual science was destroyed by the Nazis, but in her personal letters she documents having an early form of vaginoplasty and estrogen therapy, and later passed from complications from an attempted uterine transplant. As for this character BEING Lili, commonly cited evidence comes from the book “Man into Woman” which claims to be an autobiography of Lili Else Ivernes, though she’s called Lili Elbe in that book (it was ghostwritten by an acquaintance while she was on her death bed, she did approve of the final manuscript). In that book, Gerda makes Lili her first women’s costume- a Pierette- which Lili wears to many parties. This event is backed up by several letters Gerda and Lili sent to their friends around this time. The Pierette also physically resembles the way Gerda painted Lili, which she did regularly.

[hollow-toy]

handfeeding + CNC. more on this later

[hollow-toy]

okay so. you're her captive. she keeps you in her basement. she brings you 2-3 meals a day. you think it's cause she likes you strong enough to fight back. but because you don't want to be weak, you eat them. you need to eat

at first she left the meals and cutlery in the room then left you to eat. then she started staying to watch you eat. you didn't want to give her whatever kind of sick satisfaction she'd get from it, but you need to eat. so you put up with it

then she started sitting closer and closer to you while you ate. then she started holding the plate in her lap while you ate from it. it all happened so slowly, so gradually, that you didn't even really notice how strange it was until she started petting your hair while you ate. you tried not to eat for a few days after that. but you need to eat. so you cave. and she keeps petting your hair

one day she ties your wrists behind your back before she brings your meal. when she comes in with the food, she sits in a chair directly in front of you. you think about how much you hate her. you think about how much you hate that you're so used to being close to her. she picks up some of the food and cups it in one palm. then she extends the hand towards you

you stare at the food in her hands. your mouth starts to water. you understand, somewhere deep in you, that if you do this, you will be crossing a line. something in you will snap in a way that can't be fixed. you hate her. you don't want to give her whatever kind of sick satisfaction she'll get from it

but you need to eat

[skinbreaker]

In life you’re either the boner or the bonee

[skinbreaker]

Im not plural it’s just me and the tiger in here

[skinbreaker]

The tiger is sadly quite pathetic and ineffective

[skinbreaker]

Im not plural it’s just me and the tiger in here

[skinbreaker]

Where is my illithid husband

[dragongirlsnout]

a girl at the club spiked my drink with jasmine and a wave of tranquility washed over me

[dragongirlsnout]

when it really started hitting she watched me gracefully compose myself and then pulled me off into a corner to touch on my thoughts and probe the depths of my insight

[local-dog]

woke up the next day with a pounding sense of clarity and and wisdom

[cheddar-baby]

[skinbreaker]

She’s so girlypop and I’m made of BUGS and SLIME

[skinbreaker]

Lookin at his nutrition facts oh yeah baby oh yeah 100% daily value of everything I need

[sawed-on-shotgun]

i am of the sincere belief that if ur on ur computer a lot you should visually customize it to high hell and back not just for funsies but also because it has literally made me less depressed before. its kind of like how rearranging your bedroom is good for your brain, yknow. i do stuff like this every few months

[sawed-on-shotgun]

and if anyone wants to follow suit

LIVE WALLPAPER: wallpaper engine. only thing on here that costs any money (its like 5 bucks on steam). im sure theres free alternatives but this one has a lot of presets and stuff so its less hassle and its what i use. might be a bad idea for lower end pcs tho

CUSTOM TASKBAR: retrobar on github (lots of different options)

CUSTOM CURSOR: theres a lot of places to find these, but rw-designer open cursor library is a good place to start

DISCORD: betterdiscord, im using the clearvision v7 theme with a custom background

EXTENSIONS (these are for firefox, might or might not exist on other browsers):

tabliss for the new tab theme

stylus for tumblr -> specifically the 'tumblr - custom dashboard pallette' theme for colors + bg, and this for the pre-twitterifcation layout

enhancer for youtube for custom youtube colors

the browser theme is just one i found on the firefox theme 'store'

[skinbreaker]

My gunga 😢

[skinbreaker]

I fuck with the attack dog vibe more than I thought I did