Greetings! We are the Skyedancer System/STAR SPACE System, and welcome to our plurality side blog!
We are a mixed origin (trauma-endo) gateway system of fictional nonhumans and alterhumans. We also have a few subsystems.
We are collectively draconic and fictionkin, and all experience this in varying degrees. If you want to know more about our alterhuman experiences outside of plurality, our blog for that is @unchainedclaws.
Collectively we use drei/drem and it/its, and are aroace-spec (fictosexual/romantic specifically) and xenogender.
Our main/art blog is @skyedancer2006, if you are interested in that stuff!
DNI
LGBTQ+ antis. (This includes people who are anti MOGAI, neopronouns, and connected things)
Racists of any kind
Sexists
Ableists
(No)MAPs and pedo supporters
Incest supporters
Bestiality supporters
Anti Informed Self-DX
Anti Alterhuman (Otherkin, therian, fictionkin, etc)
Found out about the shit the Ourcana dev has said/done so yeah we’re deleting our shit and going full PluralSpace then (and the offline SP as a backup)
We like PluralSpace better anyways so it’s not a loss to us really
Have an interesting situation happening in system rn where all the guys that have been in front for the past almost year (who are all Roblox guys) got shunted to the designated Destress Zone that’s between front and headspace bc of all the Roblox-related stress we’ve been under recently
It’s feels. Really weird the brain suddenly saying “no more Roblox” essentially since it’s been like our entire life for the past year. Also I have no clue who I am either but that’s an issue for me to figure out later
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Edit figured out who I am, I’m a fragment that’s been here for years without an identity and just doing a job lol. Still have like no identity outside of being a Gatekeeper but being out here for a few days might help change that
I need to talk at more length in a more constructive way about this later but oh my god. There's a lot of thoughts and shit I have on Gachiakuta as my source and how that may or may not intersect with objectum communities here. And similar stuff.
For a quick and simple rundown so those who don't know the source aren't entirely lost... Some people are called Givers, and what this means is that they can--through pouring enough love and care and significance into an object--wield that object as a weapon or similar sorts of things. You give it power and kind of a soul through loving it enough, basically. Those objects are referred to as Vital Instruments and are incredibly personal and significant. That's about all you need to know to get this post I think.
I'm a fictive of a Giver from Gachiakuta, Enjin specifically. And man, coming here and learning about how this world handles objects? Interesting! Specifically interesting how there's a community of a kinda adjacent experience--those who are objectum. Thinking about it for more than 5 seconds? I think a lot of us folks back home had at least some form of intersection there more often than not. We didn't have that word though, for sure. I don't think being romantically (or otherwise similar) intertwined with your Vital Instrument was really taboo for us at all either though--that's your "partner", an extension of yourself in a way, a huge part of your life by very definition.
(More below, 1,600+ words total.)
Maybe if we had that word back home, some Givers would have used it? It applies to me for sure at least in some aspect. I don't think anyone really broke down how they feel about their Vital Instrument to specifics back in source, people there weren't overly public about their inner workings so I don't think there'd have been much a need for labels like that. But for sure, there were folks who had an attraction to their Vital Instruments in a very similar way to how we've seen objectum folks describe their relationships to their partners here. The overlap of a phenomenon I'm used to back home and a community here where there's not necessarily a magical/power aspect to it is admittedly cool as hell to find. Makes this place at least feel a little more homely.
I'm used to people thinking it's weird, back home. We had guys who thought we were freaks and shit but I'm used to paying them no mind. So any hate towards objectum folks rings the same to me, nothing new there. That's no extra weight on my shoulders. I know some of my systemmates had been worried about me seeing folks being against objectum-esque stuff but honestly if anything I have the attitude about it that I did before. Gonna grumble about it occasionally but I've seen it all, bigots don't often come up with new lines. I'm fine to keep being me. So, pretty glad I'm able to cope with that.
It's interesting how one (or a few) people joining our system with an understanding of a foreign concept can make waves of difference though. My walking-in did something to us. My system previously only had one headmate who considered itself even vaguely on any form of objectum spectrum--It doesn't really interact with the community though, and it's not something it talks about often. It's a shapeshifter that likes taking the form of objects because it likes looking attractive and some objects are attractive, but that's about the extent for it. We didn't know much. The concept wasn't something we related to overall, and while we were not against it? We didn't get it either, aside from that one guy in here. It was just a thing we knew people experienced, shrugged about, and moved on.
But I think, through this media--my source--and myself alongside a canonmate of mine walking in? We're causing some in-system awakenings to having an experience we otherwise would still not really understand. It's like a shock wave of "oh shit I get it now" or "oh fuck that may be me". Which I think is actually cool as hell. It serves as another tick against the imposter syndrome screaming "you're not actually plural!!" at us, in my opinion at least. How could we internally fake my own experiences suddenly causing a deeper level of understanding and awakenings in peoples' orientations? Doesn't sound like a "we're totally just one guy" thing to me. Interesting how that shit can happen either way.
While I'm glad to know there's community who will at least somewhat understand.. On a sadder note, I so fucking sorely miss my Vital Instrument. It's an extension of myself. I feel hollow, naked and torn apart without it on my person. It's absolutely a kind of mourning. It's a separate entity in a way sure, but an extension of my soul in another. That's not an easy thing to lose. I mourn it more than my own death. I mourn it more than my own body, the fact I'll never look like myself again, the fact that my world is nothing but a work of fiction here. I'm missing a fundamental part of my very being and that's not something easy to cope with. My biggest form of dysphoria is not having Umbreaker with me anymore.
I know I'm laying it on thick, but I want to make it clear that this isn't just missing a thing I had once. This experience isn't missing an umbrella I just carried around, it feels so similar to the way otherkin could miss their tails or wings, the way shapeshifters could miss the ability to change forms, the way alterhumans tend to have a sense of "this part of me is missing, this is inherently wrong". It's not just an object. This feels like I've lost a limb, or I've lost organs I need to live, or I've lost function in half my body and can no longer do what I used to. There is a fundamental piece of me that is missing. It goes beyond sentimental and goes into what feels like part of my soul fell out.
No other damn object will ever replace it. It's just something I'll have to learn to cope with. Some other types of alterhuman related dysphoria can be lessened with gear to replace limbs or stuff like that, which is great for folks it helps. I can't get another umbrella though, getting one and treating it as if I know it and it's anything remotely similar to Umbreaker feels like cheating on my own leg, the thought makes me sick as hell. But, we all have to learn to cope with shit we can't help at some point, yeah? Like any other loss, I'll move forward.
Zanka, my canonmate who walked-in alongside me, feels roughly the same. They're not as pressed about the whole "cheating" feeling, though. They want to connect to our walking stick, they feel better having some sort of pole in their hands even if it's not their instrument. It brings em comfort to at least be able to carry something with a vaguely staff-shaped vibe around. They got their own struggles with the loss though, they're trying to weigh up their own feelings of "how to connect to this thing so I feel whole" vs "how to not connect to this thing so hard I get possessive and don't want my headmates touching our mobility aid", haha! They'll get something sorted out in the end though I'm sure. Maybe it'd be a good idea to buy them their own, separate from our main one? Or, I suppose get the collective a new one seeing as Zanka is already pretty hooked on this one. We'll have to think on it.
Along that line of thinking though, about connecting to new objects. I've almost... Imprinted? On some object we own already. It's not a replacement, it's not even an umbrella, but it's something. It's a necklace, one we made ourselves. We picked a chunk of agate, we spent hours shaping it into as perfect of a half-sphere as we could get, polished it as best we could, and it took so damn long. We cut, welded and polished the silver backing pendant we put that same stone into. It's a thing we've worn for countless hours and repolished countless times. Some of our more spiritual folks did an enchanting ritual thing on it to make it a protective charm. This thing has been with us for so long and we put it together and shaped it with our own hands out of love for the craft.
And you know what? This isn't something I put my own energy into, but this thing has such a rich history with this body I can't help but be drawn to it. If we were a Giver bodily? This would be it. This would be our Vital Instrument. So even though it's not mine, it has no power, and I'm never going to have mine again? This thing brings me a separate kind of joy. There's something. It's such a relief to have that kind of pull towards anything we have here. Even if the concept of Vital Instruments doesn't really physically work, I have something with just as much love and care poured into even the very crafting of this necklace. And that's... Well it's comforting, to say the least. Umbreaker may be lost, but there's more things to find joy in--new things to love and care for, and new community to find.
That system feel when you accidentally say something really revealing or concerning and your headmate is like hey. Hey hang on we've gotta talk about that. Headmate to headmate we've gotta talk about that hang on now
Ok so with the shutting down of Octocon too we have all our SP data imported to Ourcana as another backup in case SP goes down before another app we can use comes online.
Ourcana seems nice so far, we like the tarot aesthetic of it, but it not having an ios app yet is a little annoying and the browser version doesn’t work great on mobile. It being offline means we can’t just set it up on pc either since it won’t sync.
If Ourcana does get an ios app soon we might go with it honestly, we like its setup quite a bit. After this whole fiasco we’re probably gonna keep our data in multiple places though to be safe
Edit OURCANA DOES HAVE AN IOS APP!! It’s just in testing/not fully released yet but you can still download it!!
So anyone who follows us knows that we’re trauma-endo (longer explanation: traumagenic but our spirituality is deeply connected to how we view our plurality) and generally endo supportive right?
Well one of our really close friends (who is also a system) is anti-endo and we’ve been really scared of them finding out that we’re chill with endos. They aren’t like all “I hate endos!!” and harassing people or anything, it’s just a boundary that they have that we didn’t know about till after we were already close friends. We don’t want to think that they’d end the friendship over it or anything cause they aren’t really that kind of person but it’s still giving us a lot of anxiety
We know reasonably that talking to them about it and explaining our side but saying that we respect their stance too is probably the best thing to do, but that anxiety about things going wrong and us loosing this really meaningful connection is making us panic a bit. We’re on the fence of just sitting and hoping the topic never comes up, but that would let this anxiety keep festering and it’s just been getting worse over the past 2 months.
My in-sys partner is encouraging me to talk to the friend or offering to do it for me, but I’m still really scared to lose them over syscourse of all things… does anyone have any advice on how to go about this and/or manage the anxiety better??
Made a proxy for me/Darkheart last night to test out if it was like a kinshift making me want a different name situation and yeah being called Darkheart yesterday felt really nice
But also I am not beating the subsystem allegations bc Telamon (my in-sys partner) told me this morning that Darkheart was referring to me as a different person when they were talking last night. Like me and them are the same person but also not?? I can remember being around and doing things yesterday when Darkheart was present but it’s also sorta not me doing them? My memories from yesterday being a bit fuzzier than usual and me feeling blurry as hell today aren’t helping
Also JX1 might also be present in the same sort of situation so that’s. Fun. Been trying to figure out if he was a headmate that was just being weirdly secretive or if he was a kintype or whatever for the past week or two but. Him being part of a subsys would explain a lot of the confusion
I wish Night was still here so I could ask claw about this since drei had a subsys and I think it went through a similar questioning process. I might have to try talking to Mare since star’s one of the few people from that time that are still active and would have an idea of how to help
Idk if I mentioned it on this blog but hi Player here aka the guy that used to be Shadow Milk
Tldr a few months back I unintentionally source separated and freaked out about not having a source so I latched on to our collective kintype, hence me being Player now lol
Anyways I drew myself in my old fit cause a friend inspired me to :3
Genuinely though why does the Shadow Milk fit look so good on me (it def wouldn’t if I colored this bc I’m yellow but ignore that lol)
Hello! We wanted to share a quick plural guide for anyone that is confused about plurality.
(This guide mentions dissociation quite a few times, so you may also want to check out our dissociation guide. We also recommend you read our alterhuman guide, to understand experiences that non-humans & introjects within systems may have.)
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Plurality/Systems is an umbrella term for anybody that has more than one person/entity controlling a singular body. Each member can have their own name, pronouns/titles, sex, gender, appearance, race/species, orientation, etc. Anyone that isn't plural is a Singlet.
Being in-control of the shared-body is known as Fronting. Fronting can be optional or forced by the brain. Co-fronting is when multiple people are fronting at the same time. If a fronter/co-fronter cannot retreat, it is known as being Frontstuck. When a system is swapping who is fronting, it is known as Switching.
System members are called sysmates, headmates, alters, parts, or facets. Every system has their own preference of what to call their members. In some cases, sysmates are temporary, and may go inactive/fade over time, or exit through a gateway (more on that later.)
Sysmates can have individual memories, or they may share all their memories as a collective. They may or may not get the choice of what to share. If a certain memory is not accessible to all of the system, it is known as having Amnesia Barriers.
An Innerworld/Headspace is a dreamscape that many systems have, where members can live and interact when they are not in charge of the shared-body. They could have one set appearance (ie; a planet, a spaceship, a house, etc), or they could shift/change, either randomly, following a schedule, or at the will of sysmates (either specific sysmates or all sysmates.) The opposite of the innerworld (the physical space that the shared-body interacts with) is known as the Outerworld/Meat Space.
Many innerworlds have fronting rooms, which are areas that sysmates go in order to watch what is happening in the outerworld.
Not all systems have a innerworld. They may simply go into a "coma" when they are not fronting, or may "float" in an empty void. Innerworlds could be any size.
Some systems have NPCs (people who are incapable of fronting & engaging in shared memories). NPCs can be simple (repeating lines, repeating tasks, limited behaviors, etc) or complex (capable of new dialogue, capable of coming up with new tasks, a variety of behavior, etc). For complex NPCs, the only way to tell them apart from sysmates is by the fact that they have no special abilities (like fronting, sharing memories, or set-roles.)
Fragments are sysmates that are not fully developed. They are sort of in-between simple NPCs and sysmates. They have some system capabilities, but are not fully autonomous, and often to not have a full grasp over their personal identity.
Sometimes NPCs and fragments develop into full-sysmates.
Fusing/Merging/Integration describes when two or more sysmates merge together, either temporarily or permanently. If it is a temporary fuse, it is known as Blending. Their physical appearances may combine, or they may take on only one of the sysmates appearances, or a whole new appearance unrelated to either of their previous ones. Their identities may be merged as well, or they may be autonomous within their innerworld body; a system within a system.
Subsystems are systems within systems. They might be a result of fusion, or they may have formed as subsystems from the start, or developed their own sysmates unrelated to fusing.
Some systems have groups that live separately within the headspace (usually on different layers of a headspace). These are known as Side Systems. There may be a Main System (which consists of the people with the most control over the shared-body), or the system may be made up fully of side systems that have equal control over the shared-body.
Here are a few terms for sysmates:
Little/Syskid: A sysmate who is a child, typically under the age of 13.
Middle/Systeen: A sysmate who is a teenager, typically 13-17, however sometimes 18-19 is included.
Big/Biggin/Sysadult: A sysmate who is an adult, typically 18+.
Ageless: A sysmate with no age. They might look like a kid, teen, or child, or they may have an ambiguous appearance.
Age-Slider: A sysmate whose age is fluid/fluctuating. How frequently their age changes depends on the individual.
Lost Adult/Disadult: A sysmate that is physically an adult, but mentally a child or teenager.
Claudia/Paradult: A sysmate that is physically a child, but mentally an adult.
Exomemories: Memories that did not occur within the shared body or innerworld; memories from a life outside of the system. This can apply to introjects & walk-ins.
Exotrauma: Trauma that did not occur to the shared body or within the innerworld; trauma from exomemories. This can apply to introjects & walk-ins.
Introject/Introtive: A sysmate who has a specific "source." For example, a sysmate who forms with the appearance and/or experiences of a fictional character or family member. They may or may not share the personal identity (name, gender, etc) of their source, and may have exomemories/exotrauma of their source.
Fictives are introjects with fictional sources, and Factives are introjects with real-life sources.
Core(s): The first/original sysmate(s) to exist within the system.
Gateway System: A system with a gateway (either physical or metaphorical) that leads to other spaces, such as other layers of the innerworld, or into a different universe. This gateway may be a one-way walk (as in once someone enters, they cannot leave; or vice-versa) or it may be free range both directions. If a new sysmate enters a system through a gateway, they are known as Walk-Ins.
Median System: A system where sysmates are not as distinct from one another, and are "blurred" or are simply "different versions" of one main identity.
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Origins
Next up, system origins.
Adaptive System: A system that was formed in order to cope with something. This includes traumagenic, stressgenic, isolgenic, neurogenic, and physiogenic systems.
Traumagenic: A system that was formed due to trauma.
Stressgenic: A system that was formed due to stress.
Isolgenic: A system that was formed due to loneliness or social isolation. Depending on how strongly the loneliness affected the person, it may also count as traumagenic.
Neurogenic: A system that was formed due to pre-existing neurodivergence. For example, an autistic person who developed sysmates of characters from their special interest. Another example would be a person with substance abuse disorder who developed a sysmate to help them overcome their addiction.
Physiogenic: A system that was formed due to physical disability. This is typically related to stress (stressgenic) or trauma (traumagenic) that either the disability itself caused, or ableism caused.
Endogenic: A system that was not formed due to trauma; a system that is not traumagenic. This includes adaptive systems that are not trauma-related, created systems, protogenic systems, spontagenic systems, & unknown systems.
Created System: A system that was willingly created. This includes willogenic, tulpagenic, spirigenic, & metagenic systems.
Willogenic: A system that was willed into existence for non-adaptive reasons. They may refer to themselves as Willomancers,
and might call their sysmates Willomates. If this creation was done subconsciously/unintentionally, it is known as being Catharigenic. If this was done through meditation, self-induced dissociation, and prolonged attempts at summoning, it is known as Tulpamancy. A Tulplagenic system might refer to their sysmates as Tulpas.
Spirigenic: A system that was created through spiritual methods, typically connected to religious practices.
Metagenic: A system that was created through metaphysical/spiritual methods, unrelated to religious practices/beliefs.
Protogenic: A system that has existed since birth, or has existed for as long as the brain can remember.
Spontagenic: A system that spontaneously appeared, with no identifiable cause.
Unknown System/Quoigenic: A system that formed from unknown/uncertain causes. This includes cryptogenic & congenic systems.
Cryptogenic: A system that does not know their origin. This is not the same as a spontagenic system, as spontagenic systems are certain that their system has no cause, meanwhile cryptogenic systems are uncertain of their origins, and may have amnesia or confusion relating to their origins.
Congenic: A system with a complicated origin. Their origin may be so complicated that they are incapable of labeling it further, or finding a suitable category.
Multigenic/Mixed-Origin: A system that has multiple causes, or a system that has different causes for different sysmates. For example, a system where some sysmates were formed from trauma (traumagenic), meanwhile others were willed into existence (willogenic.)
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Roles
Now, lets dive into system roles. System roles are jobs/duties assigned to sysmates, typically pre-assigned by the brain as the sysmates are forming into existence (however for some people, roles are chosen after formation.) Roles might shift/change over time, or a person may have multiple different roles. Not every system has roles, however a majority of systems do.
There are hundreds of possible roles a system may have, far too many to list, so instead we shall be going over the most common ones:
Caretaker: A sysmate who formed to tend to somebody. They may have a parental/grandparental, older-sibling, or mentor relationship with whoever they formed to tend to.
Protector: A sysmate who formed to protect someone/something. They could be protecting their sysmates, the shared-body, the shared-body's relatives, friends/partners, or even physical objects.
Holder: A sysmate who formed to deal with a specific thing, for the sake of the rest of the system. For example, a Trauma-Holder is a sysmate who holds a large portion of the traumatic memories/symptoms, so that the rest of the sysmates don't have to deal with it. A Symptom-Holder is a sysmate who holds a large portion of neurodivergent or disability symptoms. Their holding may be voluntary (in which case, they could be classified as a protector), or the brain may be forcing them to hold these things.
Manager: A sysmate who makes sure that everybody is fulfilling their duties, and that things are being maintained.
Persecutor: A sysmate who causes harm (intentional or otherwise) to someone/something. This is often a misguided protector or manager who is intending to help through harmful methods (such as alcoholism, self-harm of the shared-body, intense criticism, physical punishment of other sysmates, etc). It could also describe a sysmate who is a trauma-holder or symptom-holder, and lashes out as a result of stress, guilt, shame, etc. Alternatively, an abusive sysmate (for example, an introject of an abuser) can also be labelled a persecutor.
Gatekeeper: A sysmate in a gateway system that keeps watch over who enters or exits through the gateway.
Architect: A sysmate that has the ability to create/edit/destroy the appearance/structure of the innerworld.
Beastmaster: A sysmate that has the ability to create/edit/destroy and/or control non-sentient beings (simple NPCs, animals, plantlife, etc) within the innerworld.
Host/Outernaut: A sysmate who is in-charge of the shared-body, and fronts most often. Some systems have multiple hosts.
Co-Host/Perinaut: A sysmate who takes over when the host(s) are unavailable, or who otherwise helps out the host.
Disordered Plurality (DID & OSDD)
Plurality is neurodivergent in nature, however it is not inherently a disorder. Disordered plurality describes people whose plurality is linked to a disorder of some kind. This includes most traumagenic systems and many neurogenic systems, however there are also a few dissociative disorders that overlap with plurality as well.
Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder/MPD) describes plurality where the system has distinct sysmates (possibly fragments as well), dissociative episodes, sysmates often (or always) dissociate between switches, and sysmates have amnesia barriers between them. This often (but not always) leads to sysmates being unaware of each others existence, and having difficulty with communication. Access to the innerworld is frequently also limited. Dissociation and amnesia can be worked-out through therapy or communication, however it is usually quite difficult.
OSDD-1/Otherwise Specified Dissociative Disorder Type 1 describes plurality where the system experiences dissociative episodes, however it doesn't quite fit the DID diagnosis.
OSDD-1a is where dissociative episodes occur, however unlike DID, there are not distinct sysmates. Instead, the system is median, or made up completely of fragments. Sysmates are "blurry" and similar to one another, but amnesia barriers still exist despite that.
OSDD-1b is where dissociative episodes occur, possibly even dissociation between switches, however amnesia barriers do not exist. Trauma may still cause general system-wide amnesia, but not amnesia that is seperated between sysmates.
DID and OSDD-1 forms from trauma (typically childhood trauma, however older people can develop DID/OSDD-1 as well.) DID/OSDD-1 might cause the plurality, or the plurality may be pre-existing, and the dissociative disorder comes from trauma experienced later. (For example, a protogenic system that had trauma later in life and developed DID, turning them into a multigenic system.)
Sometimes I hate being openly pro-endo bc it isolates us so much from some system spaces that are otherwise really good
Or even spaces that aren’t specifically for systems but have a lot of others present
Anyways guess who’s considering leaving a server we love bc multiple of the people we thought we were friendly with (and are server mods) are actually anti-endo and have no idea we aren’t 100% traumagenic and are endo positive✌️
Not being blocky feels weird; why do I have fingers?? And hair. And a not-flat face. A lot of things are weird here and I don’t know how to feel about it
I’m from a Roblox ARG but I can definitely imagine Minecraft folks having the same issue, handshaking on that 🤝 (well, the best we can handshake without typical hands lol)
Not being blocky feels weird; why do I have fingers?? And hair. And a not-flat face. A lot of things are weird here and I don’t know how to feel about it
