9 month hiatus: a life update
since October a lot has happened.
I did a few more modeling gigs, traveled to San Francisco, Seattle, got an extra role in an Iron Reagan music video, attended my first Comic Con, finished my Predator costume, paid off my car, saw a ton of bands, quit my shitty job, got a better job that pays better with a less stressful work environment, helped my brother secure a visa to study in London, began fixing up my parents house, met Andrew W.K. and quit smoking.
future plans: pay off student debt in full within a year, help my parents fix up and sell their house, find a job in Savannah Georgia and put a down-payment on a house there, travel to Japan, go to Otakon on my birthday.
I’m also coming up on 3 years sober.
Unfortunately along with my sobriety and changing life, I’ve lost touch with a lot of friends and my social life has gone to hell. I’ve been extremely thrifty and kept to myself a lot, but I havent seen many people at all this year. I feel like a recluse and it’s been really tough. I also have been dealing with feelings of worthlessness and I think about my own death a lot. I love life and I want to continue it, but I spend a lot of time thinking about it.
Its like I said before, my light is broken but I still work.
