sev

...wake up, love, eat, swim, pray, sleep...

[sleepinsheep]

2 years 7 months 3 weeks 2 days

I got my visa to him yesterday. I was on the moon. I still am..

Now that knot in the throat is there.

In this time -2 years 7 months 3 weeks 2 days- I have collected lots of things. Cried, smiled, left, broken up, lost, found. And when everything now is on its way, when everything is well... now that knot in the throat is there...

Finished the movie Dum Laga Ke Haisha just mins ago. Laughed, cried, thought, smiled. As fucking I always do, I relate it with my own life. And couldn’t find myself anywhere related in his life.

Hehe I am slim that is done.. But I don’t know hindi. I don’t know how to salute the elders. I don’t know how to pronounce names. I don’t know the proverbs, idioms. Are these everything to survive? No.. but a deficit.. as if my deficits weren’t already enough... They could find a solution in their marriage through the supports, acts of their families.. When no one is there for us... In case of anything.. Who will bring us?

It is very easy to say “Do you think I love you for that?!” or “What does it matter??”... Bandar kya jaane adark ka swaad? Is this the right proverb btw?

I don’t know to what extend I can make them like me with my deficits... Not starting with them now... More importantly, I don’t know to what extend my love for him can cherish us all, us, our parents, our people, our gods.

And after 2 years 7 months 3 weeks 2 days, I have this question in my mind... “Am I strong enough?”

[sleepinsheep]

You have already become rational.. but I have always been that lil girl.. who lives on her dreams..  

If I silence them.. how? How can I carry on? For what can I carry on?

[sleepinsheep]

so simple : when you become unreachable, you look more precious to their eyes.

[sleepinsheep]

yeah dont.

[sleepinsheep]

understanding is beyond imagination when one thinks that the other's thoughts are cheap..

[sleepinsheep]

I am not angry.

I am not mad.

I am not silly.

I am not sad.

I am just... broken..

After the movie Black, I felt that once again..

Although I don't know how..

[sleepinsheep]

Sometimes, you find yourself talking to a wall. Sometimes you want to be a wall..

[sleepinsheep]

I made a wish. I prayed a lot. Olduğu kadar, olmadığı kader..

[sleepinsheep]

I am missing the days you ran to see me

[sleepinsheep]

Please check out my poems on my blog and let me know what you think! I follow back. Twitter: @Woozz_

Do not wait for people to comment on anything about you.

Do not wait for people to like something.

Cuz no one can get the meaning from your poems as you can get from them.

No one can find himself or herself as you found yourself in them.

Leave everything, I will not read everything you wrote but whatever you write is beautiful and it will always be.

Best of luck.

Sincerely,

[sleepinsheep]

Rebellion? Aur Confession?

This college is killing me.. This distance is killing me.. My stomach is killing me.. I feel alone.. I feel alone in 70 million...

[sleepinsheep]

I am being too poetic

Yeah too much pressure Lost in life But try to understand it I'm also right Rather than the distance Your talking distantly Leave the rest of all Just that hurts me.

[sleepinsheep]

hello ji, kya haal chaal?

and where are you -.-

[sentimientos-en-el-aire]

[sleepinsheep]

I missed you a lot.

I've missed someone like this before, only once.. while going to some other city with dad for a week..  without my mom.. 

and I was six.

[sleepinsheep]

I'm gonna lose my mind, oh my God twenty dollars in my pocket.

  Writing "Hi, Sev. I will be back soon etc."

should not be this hard..

It should not be harder than coming,

doing something and then leaving again.

I  swear to Apple I will not make you

stay longer than that one sentence..

[sleepinsheep]

aa bhi jaaaaa mere mehermaaaaaaan..

3 days left.. pray for me.. I am gonna lose my miiiiiiind..