I watched a really sad and disturbing episode of Judge Judy, where a woman had a mother who has dementia but had nobody look after her except a few cameras around the house.
So I wrote a little piece, as the mother who has dementia and abandoned by her family 💔
I was a happy, beautiful little girl 👧🏽
Then I became an annoying, scared, lost, "nobodylovesme", a bit egotistic (defense mechanism), lil arrogant, teenager 👧🏽
Then I became a very lost, depressed, anxious midult 👧🏽
Then a more matured adult with a huge thirst for knowledge, a drive to be the best, and generally very happy. 👧🏽
Then a happier more grown adult because I set up my foundation real good.👧🏽
I started to be a part of the elderly community then little by little everybody started to lose interest 👧🏽
Nothing I say is taken seriously, or even heard, because I'm old news
My heart feels so alive but I can see that I'm already dead to everyone around me
Not only am I dead, I have been buried
I find it fascinating that you can come from being so important, the center of so many people's lives, to meaning absolutely nothing to any of these people
I no longer live in their hearts even though I'm still here on earth
All because a few pieces of my mind have stopped functioning normally
At most times I feel lost
That's when i need them the most
When i don't remember them
Because they are the most important thing in my life
But they are too busy, with the I life I gave them 💔
I used the little girl emoji for every stage in her life to represent the heart, how it never grows old❤