Heey can you do 40 (exes) for phrack?
Oh Anonymous... this went in a direction I don’t think either of us expected. 😂Hope you enjoy it anyway and thank you for the prompt!
For the prompt, “exes meeting again after not speaking for years au”
There is a space, on the handlebar of Jack’s new bike, that is just wide enough, and just flat enough, to seat a person while it is in motion.
Together they ride through the uncharted wilds of North Richmond, the jungles of Fitzroy, the shorelines of St. Kilda. And when he is with her, Jack feels like a true adventurer, a pirate of legend, an explorer of old.
(He isn’t sure who is the captain and who is the first mate, but he suspects they are trading roles with every voyage. He is surprisingly comfortable with this.)
She does a good job of holding on without impeding his view, but sometimes, on the really tight corners, he has to lean forward, his face precariously close to her breasts, so he can see where they’re going.
One those days he makes sure to thank Great Uncle Ted in his prayers.
Well, Uncle Ted and the ice cream man who wouldn’t take her IOU.
Jack had stepped in, offered to pay. She’d declined, told him she didn’t require assistance. He’d then suggested her could see her home, if she wanted, and one look at his bike had her accepting that proposal.
Six months later they spend all their spare time together.
They are an odd pair, from the outside. He’s relaxed, scholarly, funny, sweet. She’s skittish, shrewd, sarcastic, restless. He loves school and thinking about the future. She’s brilliant, but not studious, and can’t plan past the next hour. He’s respectful, she’s defiant. He laughs easily, and she doesn't, but when she does… oh when she does it is earned. He’s from a large, loving family who he speaks of often, but doesn’t even know if she has relations other than a cousin she mentions with a kind smile. He is an open book. She’s never even told him her surname.
But they share a wicked sense of humour, care about the same causes, are both explorers at heart.
His mates think her wild, but she’s not. What she really is is unconstrained, and the distinction may be lost on his friends but to Jack it is everything.
He thinks he might love her but he’s both too juvenile and too precocious to commit to the term. He doesn’t even know if he’s her only… friend. But he would gladly be her boyfriend, her proper boyfriend, if she’d let him.
Not that they’re always proper. He doesn’t lose his virginity to her, but he comes awfully close.
He is just working up the nerve to ask her to make it official when she tells him she is going away. She is only 16 but there are many more years of sadness in her eyes as she says it.
“Europe,” she tells him, but doesn’t elaborate.
He feels like he’s been sucker punched by an entire continent.
“Maybe I’ll see you there,” he manages through the hurt. “I’ve been thinking of enlisting.”
They meet one more time after that, and he gives her a gift. Something he’s been holding onto for a while.
“I can’t take this,” she tells him, knowing its value instinctively.
“You must,” he replies. “How else will you get away with it?”
She laughs, truly laughs, and then she cries and he holds her and kisses her goodbye.
The poets make this part seem much more noble.
“Will you… do you think you’ll write? I’d like it very much if you did.” It is murmured into her hair, but she doesn’t answer. He knows she doesn’t make promises she can’t keep, but in this case...
“Just one then,” he negotiates. “When you arrive. So I know you’re safe and alright.”
He doesn’t know what to say to that so he just holds her tighter, and eventually she leaves.
His handlebars always feel empty after that.
The world has changed, though, and he feels duty bound to change with it.
He enlists, asking his parents to please pass along word if he receives any letters from Europe.
The years pass, eventful and mundane, and he never hears from her. Assumes he never will. So when he next lays eyes on her, two decades later and at a crime scene no less, it is a shock to all his senses.
He is trying to keep up as she spins her theories like spiderwebs around the room, but in the end he is just caught in them himself.
She plays the whole thing so coy he’s not even sure she knows who he is.
The idea hurts more than he thought it would.
Still, it would be understandable; Jack feels like several lifetimes have passed in the intervening years.
He eventually finds his footing though, manages to evict her from the room and avoid her as much as possible after that. Calls her Miss Fisher to maintain distance and propriety despite the fact that he once had his hand clumsily up her skirt in the middle of the Fitzroy Gardens.
And then the case is over and good thing too because he’s not sure his nerves can handle much more of this.
When she announces her new occupation he actually spits out his champagne.
He goes to see her in her hotel room that evening, not even caring if she remembers him or not.
She answers the door with a smile and welcomes him inside. As he’s removing his hat, she leans back against the door and crosses her arms.
“You know you used to throw pebbles against my window. I don’t know what to do with this knocking on the door nonsense.”
Oh. So she does remember.
He shrugs without turning to face her. “You’re staying on the top floor,” he reminds her. “And my arm is 20 years older.”
She laughs, easily he realizes with a twinge of something he can’t quite name, and asks him to remove his coat and have a seat.
He does, but keeps his coat on; some situations require armor.
She sits across from him and he gives her a nervous smile. “So…” he begins, uncertain how to actually begin.
“It’s been a while,” she says, saving him a little, and he barks out a laugh.
“It’s good to see you,” she says, and he can see she means it.
“It is. I’ve often… I wondered how you were. I’m glad you’re…” He huffs out a sigh, annoyed at his own tied tongue. He feels seventeen again and not in a good way. “You seem well,” he finally settles on.
“I am. As do you. A Senior Detective Inspector. Impressive.”
“Uh, yes. Yes. Thank you.”
“And useful.” She gives him a gleeful grin, and that look hasn’t changed since they were teenagers. “Looks like we’ll be working together.”
“Yes, about that.” Beguiling smile or not, this is his opening and he has something to say. “Have you thought this through, Phryne?”
“I mean you don’t have the best track recording for sticking with things.”
“Excuse me?” She seems piqued and he rushes to continue.
“You’re… don’t get me wrong, I know it seems fun. And you always did like a lark. But crime — victims of crimes — they’re not just a distraction.”
She fixes him with a serious look. “And I would never treat them as such.”
“Oh come off it. You’re flighty. Which is fine. Charming even. But this line of work… this isn’t another book you’ll never finish or scarf you’ll never complete. I know you and — ”
Now it is his turn to be affronted. “Excuse me?”
“You barely knew me at sixteen. You do not know me now. And I’ve really outgrown lectures from men on who I am and who I am not.”
She stands up and walks over to the door, opening it and making it clear he is no longer welcome in her residence. He nods and puts his hat back on. As he passes her he gives her one more long look and that’s when he really sees it. The change in her. The skittishness is gone, replaced with pure resolve.
He leaves, assuming, once more, he’s unlikely to see her again.
And then he gets a call from an irate local sergeant.
He tells himself her involvement is not the reason for his, and for a while he even believes it. He certainly has no plans to use her, except this kid is being so recalcitrant and has obviously been through the ringer and he remembers this one time back in Collingwood, when they came across a lost little boy and Phryne had been so gentle with him. She’d known exactly what to say to calm him and he figures what the hell, maybe she’s still got the magic touch.
What she actually has is a car she uses to kidnap the victim's daughter and one of his suspects.
But when he goes to welfare, and speaks on her behalf, it is with the memories of both that lost little boy and Jane’s smiling face in Phryne’s kitchen.
He gives up on avoiding her. It isn’t worth the effort or bromo-seltzer.
Her intervening years are revealed to him in bits and pieces, and he responds in kind. An ambulance driver and a digger. A pilot and a picketer. Still single and still a marriage.
When he sees her portrait, the first thing he comments on is her hair.
“You still had it long then.” He’d always liked it long.
“Mmmm. Sometimes I miss it.”
He looks up at her and offers a small smile. “Well, for what it’s worth, I think this suits you now.”
When he finds out about her sister, he’s devastated. So many puzzle pieces fall into place, so many odd moments from their time together then that make sense now.
He wishes she’d told him, of course, but he understands why she didn’t. All he can do is be here for her now.
And when she reaches for his hand at the grave, he is.
All in all, he is genuinely enjoying their time together. Thinks she is too. It gets a little more complicated after his divorce, but it’s mostly just innocent flirting. He remembers that from the early days of their first acquaintance and relishs it just as much this time around.
Until she goes too far. Withholds evidence, shields a murderer, lies to him. He’s had it and he tells her as much.
He semi-apologizes, admits he’s giving her up. Hopes she doesn’t cry.
“You’re not sorry, you’re a coward,” she accuses.
The words sting and he lashes out in kind. “Why, because I don’t let you get away with everything anymore?”
She glares at him. “I don’t need your protection, Jack. I’m not a child!”
“Well you could have fooled me. This is suddenly feeling very familiar.”
“Stop it. This isn’t the same at all.”
“Of course not; this time I’m the one leaving.”
“And ask yourself just why that is. This isn’t about a stocking or a car crash. You look at me and you see all the possibilities of your youth and you’re angry because you just had to confront losing them for a second time.”
It’s an astute observation, but not quite accurate. Doesn’t account for what he actually cares about losing. Doesn’t account for her.
“And what do you see, Miss Fisher? A safety net? Something to be taken for granted, a distraction until the next adventure without even a letter to let me know you’re alive.”
“Fuck off,” she spits out.
“Gladly.” He turns to leave, and she shouts at his still turned back.
“I never promised I’d write.” He pauses in the parlour doorway, but doesn’t turn around.
“You never promised anything, Phryne. That would have been too much like something real.”
He leaves, for the first time hoping he won’t see her again.
The case at the college is excruciating. They get through it, but it's a close thing, and the irony of it ending with them both on a bike is not lost on him.
But he finds he does not wish to never see her again after all.
They share an alcohol-fueled accord after it is over, negotiate the new terms of their fractured partnership.
She makes the suggestion after the third glass.
He agrees after the fourth.
He meets her on the airfield the next morning, and is ungenerously pleased to see she is just as hungover as him. They share some of Mr. Butler’s tonic in companionable silence and wait until they are both fighting fit.
It is an experience unlike any Jack has had before. He finds he rather agrees with Mr. Hugo as they dip and swoop in the air; he feels the thread of the infinite and he loves it.
Eventually they land and Phryne grins. “So how did you like my handlebars, Jack?”
“I liked them very much, Miss Fisher. Very much indeed.”
He walks her back to her car, and she turns to face him. Takes a deep breath. “I did write,” she confesses and he is literally stunned silent at the revelation. “Heaps of letters. I just couldn’t bear to send them. You said you were enlisting and… I was afraid they’d be returned. And I found the thought unbearable. I decided it was better to live in hope.” She reaches into her pocket and hands him a small wrapped item.
A beaten up sheriff's badge.
He never thought he’d see that again either.
“It was real, Jack. It was. But so is this. It’s different and it’s new but it’s real. And we’re missing it.”
He looks at her. Really looks at her. Not the distant, foggy memory of his first maybe love, but the living, breathing, remarkable woman in front of him.
What memory could compare to that?
He returns the badge to its rightful owner and asks her a question.
“Miss Fisher… may I buy you an ice cream at the foreshore?”
“No,” she tells him for the second time in their acquaintance. He nods. Accepts her answer this time as he had the first. “But I’ll buy you one.”
He smiles and it feels lovely and odd in the sun. “It’s a date.”
So much has changed in 20 years. They have changed. But they get to know each other again, anew, and find that much has not.
They still share a wicked sense of humour and care deeply about justice.
They still see each other.
Jack’s virginity hasn’t been an issue in a long, long time, but eventually what he does give her is his heart, and when he does he knows she will protect it. (She still has the badge after all.)
And now he knows he loves her.
There is a space, on the corner of Jack’s desk, that is just wide enough, and just low enough, to seat a person while he is working.