THE SICK LOVE CHILD that is SMILEY-FACE THROWUP
Smileyfacethrowup.tumblr is maybe the sick [love?] child of an honors blogging class and a lonely girl wandering the internet.
That is to say, it’s been hard for this blog to grow up.
Like right now, I’m here on my computer in my leopard pants surfing the same small wave of anxiety that I surf every week when I post my response to our class prompts.
It’s a delicate balance of “how do I write something that will inform and answer the topics we are discussing in class” /// “how do I write it in a way that doesn’t make me want to suffocate myself in a plastic bag from thrifty shopper.”
And I won’t lie, sometimes I have those days where the plastic bag doesn’t look too bad….and those are the days I end up not posting anything at all and blowing off an assignment because I just can’t find the right angle to approach the topic.
It’s stupid because what it’s really saying about myself is that I’m so shallow and self absorbed that I don’t want to crimp my cool “art skool lassie-faire internet girl vibe” that I probably don’t even actually have in the least to even begin with. Womp. Sadface.org/srry.
You might be reading this feeling like I’m just another pathetic net-girl struggling to find her own voice and identity in these crazy post modern times.... Wow.
BING.O. You got it.
My goal when I started this blog and was to show all these honor’s kids that you can be an anxious self-absorbed net girl and still have smart things to say, even if you are using dumb language and pop examples. Too often I think that academia can write off these voices just because they don’t adhere to the same format and formality that is expected from “intellectuals.”
I used to be a pretensions smooth talking over achiever who could name drop and navigate big issues and deep topics with the same grace of a ballet dancer. Hell, I even danced ballet back in those days. But I don’t think many people wanted to talk WITH me then…
So now I’m (maybe) growing up and coming down from my high horse a little bit. Now I’m way more interested in the honesty and vulnerability that anyone can share across this planet I like to call the World Wide Web.
I want to talk about my life which is a mess of mistakes I’ve made in hopes of gaining a good story at the end of it. I want to talk about my morals, which are not traditional but also maybe founded in some self-acclaimed “logic” that I’ve tried to describe. I want to be called out on my maybe performative presence in class or online. But maybe I haven’t been bold enough yet…
Really idk if I’ve been successful with my goals for my blog in regards to my Digital Commons Class, but I’ve learned a lot and I now have a much more clear direction of where I want to go with my internet presence from here.
When this blogging class wraps up in December here are some of the changes you can expect to see from SFTU.
While my blogging class focuses on sharing information in essay type blog posts I am more intrigued with communicating through .gifs, macros, and screenshot poems. Reporting on topics, events, and speakers has been useful for me to expirence that side of writing and blogging but I think that poems can report on these things in a less didactic and more provoking and seductive way.
Especially since I am running this blog off of tumblr, I want to take advantage of the visual culture available on this platform to reach a wider and more immediate audience.
SFTU is currently a collage of self made and reblogged images and texts but the future of the site will curate a might tighter collection of my own work since I want to make this more of a platform for me to share my personal voice.
Looking at my blog last night I felt like it needed a clearer divide between what I AM and WHAT I AM INTERESTED IN.
Be prepared for the majority of my reblogs to be smiley-face imagery.
3. Introduction of more video pieces
My roommate and I are currently discussing a number of video and poetry projects that we are hoping to execute in the spring semester. If you don’t unsubscribe, you will be able to watch them and read about the making of on SFTU.
HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL AFTER THE DEC. Re-VAMP!
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