lost in my thoughts

sometimes writing is the only rescue i have. and who knows, maybe i could rescue you too? instagram: @smsrw_

[smsrw]

the peace you once brought to my heart

changed into a war after you left

trapped in your unselfish behavior

you didn't even ask my heart to rest

instead of leaving and whispering good bye to my soul

you damaged my heart

that even i don't have under control

so tell me, how am i supposed to tell the very same heart

that you promised to cherish until your last breathing

that you were just another inviter

that came and put my heart into a place of never stopping yearning

- my poem

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you left a scar in my heart

which i will happily carry with me

all my life

- my poem

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the moon

was always by your side

cause in your darkest hours

it was your only light

- my poem

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the right one

makes you feel like

that the whole world

belongs to you

and that you are

n o t

a burden to it

- my poem

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i hope someday

you find the one

that makes you think

it was all worth it

- my poem

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in someways life is really ironic

we have to feel sadness to really appreciate happiness

we have to experience the silence in order to love the noise

and we have to endure the loss to value the presence

- my poem

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it’s silly isn’t it? even though you and i do not have any contact, my heart still screams after you. especially on times when i am lying in my bed late in night, thinking about what we could have done, what we could have been.. but it’s too late now. do you know why? it is because your heart does not belong to me anymore. it belongs to her. but i am not blaming you that you choose her over me. i knew that you would leave me. it’s alright really cause i know that she could never replace me. she will never make you feel the way i did. she is like a soft wind which can calm you heart but i was a whole storm, tearing all your walls down. i was a burning fire, leaving burns all over your heart. you can’t forget me. you never will. you will realize that she is not the one for your heart, for you soul. and something about this lets me breath again.

- my poem

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just like a bud

you are hiding your beauty

from the greedy eyes

who are just waiting for you

to finally bloom

- my poem

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And one day

You will wake up

And realize what you‘ve lost

But until that day I will be stronger

And better off without you

So I will patiently wait for the day

When you realize how cruel you were

And that you lost more than you thought you did

Me

- my poem

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my love is just like a rose

beautiful to look at it

but too hurtful to hold

- my poem

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my mind goes blank when i think about you. is it good, is it bad? i don’t know. but what i know is, that it still hurts. even though i am slowly forgetting the sound of your laugh, even though i don’t know anymore, if you have a dimple on your cheek and stars in your eyes when you smile.. i will never forget the pain you brought into my heart. i will never forget all the tears my eyes have cried and i will never forget the screams half way stuck in my throat. you broke me. you fucking broke me. so tell me: why are you still smiling? why? didn’t you always tell me, that my pain is also yours? so why the hell are you smiling, when my heart is still in millions of pieces? why are you smiling, when my demons are still in me, whispering things i don’t wanna hear anymore? it’s unfair. it is. even after all these years i didn’t forget and i never will. cause pain is a feeling which lasts forever.

and you will last forever in me

- my poem

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you

my sun

shouldn’t have any clouds

so let me be the wind

that blows them

away

- my poem

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sometimes we forget

that the biggest poison in our life

is keeping a person

who never ever loved you

- my poem

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forgive him, my heart said

i can‘t, i answered

why?

cause he is going to break you again

it’s okay

confused i asked: why?

my heart smiled sadly and said:

because i love him

- my poem

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just because a door is closed

it doesn’t mean you won’t get through it

sometimes you have to fall on your knees

to find the hidden key

- my poem

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like a firefly, you are the little light in his darkness

- my poem