FIGHT ME

i felt no pain 'til i was down and i was told that i was bleeding and even then i knew wasn’t done 'cause the wounds i get they will just collect insuring that i won’t forget reminders of the battles that i've lost and that i’ve won

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carebar:

“what?” he crossed his arms, shoulders hunched and brow furrowed. “i’m literally the most defenseless person here. so forgive me if i’m not going to be the one charging in leroy jenkins style.” he crouched in an easy squat and pointed up at mayu. “don’t sass your healer.”

she flicked the front of his robes. “i’m wearing pajamas out here, too, you know! ugh why didn’t we get actual armor? it’s so unfair.” mayu glared at one of the two floor length plaits that hung from her head. the stupid rings on the end weren’t even good for anything either. “i’ll sass whoever i want, thanks.”

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carebar:

“you know, i’m pretty sure this shit is going to feel like a game until we’re actually getting shot at and nothing is fun when you’re bleeding.” he paused. “well i mean, i guess that’s not entirely true but…you know what? i’m gonna stop there. just nervous you know. talking helps. talking helps a lot so we’re just gonna, you know, talk this out. so they’re gonna come, and you’re gonna do your thing and i’ll do my thing and it’ll be great.”

“listen if you stand behind me, you’ll be fine! i’m pretty sure this is some, like, mithril-like space mineral that’s impenetrable.” at least, he hoped it was. joshua blinked at him. “are you... are you nervous all the time?”

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carebar:

“oh yeah, you look totally focused. focused enough to bitch off at me huh?” she conveniently disregarded her own severe attitude problem as she crossed her bare arms over her chest. “i don’t think taking it seriously is the problem. i think not knowing what the fuck we’re doing is the problem.”

mayu rolled her eyes and scoffed. “whatever, you bitch off at me all the time. but that doesn’t matter right now. why isn’t your bow out?” she wished she’d gotten a weapon like the others. she still held out hope she’d... summon one, or one would materialize or something, but so far none had.

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carebar:

“—yeah, that was incredibly lame. and i’ll rag on you for it if we happen to live to see tomorrow.” she checked her arrows, nervously twirled her long and decorated bow in one hand as they waited. “this waiting has got to be the worst part…”

“when we live to see tomorrow, i’ll be happy to take the teasing since we’ll be, y’know, alive.” joshua’s stone armor creaked as he shifted his grip on his mace. “you know, when i play warcraft and we have a big fight, they usually do a count down. want me to do a count down oooor you wanna wait ‘n’ see?”

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MEGAN ➤ MAYU  ( @smuraijack )

What was my muses 5 last sent texts yours?

⇶  [sent friday 3:35 pm] omg pls dont tell me i just saw u looking at debate club flyers are u trying to be lame if we are going to hang out u need to be better

⇶ [sent wednesday 1:49 am] whos idea was it to meet in the woods at night this is like so stupid can we meet at joshuas house again

⇶ [sent monday 10:13 am] u didnt hear it from me but dalton has a crush on u. wear something less u tomorrow and do ur hair k?

⇶ [sent saturday 9:23 pm] stop studying were going out im picking u up in 20 and there had better be eye liner

⇶ [sent thursday 2:10 pm] do u have a game today? what time?

What was my muses 5 last unsent texts yours.?

⇶ [ not sent thursday 4:56 pm] can u help me with this algebra hw?

⇶ [ not sent tuesday 3:04 am] does this shit keep u awake at all?

⇶ [ not sent sunday 12:12 pm] im sorry

⇶ [ not sent sunday 12:13 pm] it was my fault

⇶ [ not sent sunday 12:30 pm] i hope ur ok

What was my muses last snapchat to yours?

megsalotxoxo: upgrade urself

What my muse saved your number as?

Mayu 🙄🙄🙄

What contact photo my muse has set for yours?

there is no photo set for mayu. in fact there aren’t photos set for anyone except her besties…yet. eventually they’ll all get a photo. when they become hashtag tight.

What ringtone my muse has set for yours?

standard ring

How many times my muse has called your this week?

once, there was an emergency, you know, super hero duties call. otherwise she texts.

How many calls has my muse missed from yours?

megan does not answer the phone. you must leave a message and she’ll get back to you if she feels like it. she probably wont.

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carebar:

“i’m sorry, like, i don’t mean to burst your little pumped-up bubble…but we are not ready for this.”

“don’t worry, megan, ready or not, i’ll protect you!” he paused. “that sounded way cooler in my head.”

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carebar:

“i’m sorry, like, i don’t mean to burst your little pumped-up bubble…but we are not ready for this.”

mayu glared. “i’m not pumped up, i’m focused. we’re absolutely not ready for this, but if we aren’t serious, we will die, so... focus up.”

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carebar:

“i’ll follow you. you know, in case anything goes wrong. and also to use you as a human shield—just being honest.”

joshua brow furrowed in determination. “right. right― that’s my job, i’m the guy with all the armor, i’m the tank! i’ll draw it’s fire!”

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carebar:

“i’ll follow you. you know, in case anything goes wrong. and also to use you as a human shield—just being honest.”

mayu gave him a scathing look. “really? that’s how you’re gonna be a team player?”

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☾ Sleeping habits, ♘ Any pets they might have, ☗ What you’d find in their cabinets ( joshua ! )

☾ sleeping habits 

”ahhh, very bad. i stay up super late playing video games. my mom won’t let me have a tv in my room so i won’t be up all night, but i have handhelds and a phone and a laptop, so i’m up anyway. every day i’m super tired, buuut if i wanna keep my rank on overwatch i gotta keep up. and i’m not allowed to play video games until i finish my homework.”

 ♘ any pets they might have 

“no. not after elmo... but if pokemon count i have lots of really good pokemon in my pokebank and in my game. like top tier IVs and shinies and hidden ability pokemon, too.”

 ☗ what you’d find in their cabinets

“uuuh my clothes? comics, games... oh my dice collection and some of my custom dnd figures. i don’t really have cabinets. i have a closet, a desk, some dressers, and some shelves. so my shelves have all those things on ‘em, plus some funko pops and figmas.”

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peacock blue, reddish brass, anise ( mayu ! )

peacock blue: is your muse honest? what sorts of lies do they tell, if not?

“i mean… yeah, i am honest. i never cheat on anything, and if i see someone else cheating i report it. so, yeah, i’m pretty honest. except, i guess, if someone gets a really bad haircut, i’m not going to say it looks awful to their face. unless they really want to know. for some reason people don’t believe me, though. maybe it’s because i have an honest face.”

reddish brass: how likely is your muse to step up and take the role of a leader? are they willing to take the challenge, or are they more apt to being a follower?

“oh, i’m definitely a leader type. i went to a youth leadership conference last year, i’m aiming to be captain of the volleyball team next year when i make varsity. being a leader looks amazing on college applications, so i have  to be a leader.”

anise: when it comes to self-care, what does your muse do to take care of themselves? do they take care to spend time on it, or do they feel they don’t deserve it?

“if i do everything i planned for the day, or ace an important test or assignment, i treat myself with some netflix binging, and maybe some junk food if i can find it. mom and dad don’t believe in junk food, so i never really have it, so sometimes i’ll get doritos out of the vending machine at school after i get my grades back.”

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silk, cadmium yellow, crimson (MAYU)

silk: does your muse care about appearances much? do they spend a lot of time on their own appearance, or do they just go with the flow each day?

mayu claims she doesn’t care about appearances, but she is definitely judgemental about how other people look. she doesn’t appreciate when people look slovenly or are really ecclectic and distracting in looks. so if someone asks and she doesn’t like how they’re dressed, she’ll lie and say you look “fine” but it’s pretty obvious in her face.she has a routine, so as long as that routine happens she goes with the flow. if something goes wrong, it can wreck her whole day. she wears a minimal amount of makeup and tries to make her hair tidy and cute, but she usually gives up and puts it in a bun or in braids.

cadmium yellow: what subjects or topics does your muse avoid, because they bring up harmful / painful memories?

horses LOL, her brother, she and her brother used to be quite close despite his being five years older, but he had lofty dreams, none practical. he fought constantly with their parents over his apparently laziness and refusal to make the smart, practical decisions. eventually he left and went to community college, a compromise he made with their parents. but, he dropped out in less than a year. he’s a source of great pain and shame for mayu’s parents, and it has affected how she sees her brother. she loves him, but she thinks he’s a bit of a loser, which hurts him a lot.

crimson: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

she is all about science and volleyball so she’s intensely passionate about both. she’s especially fond of chemistry. it seems like magic, but you can explain it down to the molecule, and when you can’t, you figure it out. she loves that about science and math. volleyball is something she enjoys doing, but she doesn’t really have plans to do it outside of highschool, which she’s secretly really sad about.

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acacia, vermillion, malachite JOSHUA

acacia: how much does it take for your muse to hate someone?

it’s hard to say? joshua doesn’t really hate anyone. so, it would probably take a lot. like, the mistreatment of his friends, his mother. he really, really doesn’t like the bullies in school, and that guy reddeadrezzy on xbox live is a fucking dick, but unless they actually hurt someone or fuck up his online accounts, he isn’t more than “fucking pissed.”

vermillion: is your muse courageous, or would they consider themselves to be more of a coward?

before gaining his powers, he definitely thought himself a coward. he was keenly aware of the differences between him and his heroes. if they weren’t big and strong, they at least had magical powers or billions of dollars and super smarts. he was just some skinny nerd who prefers fantasy to reality. but, the moment he gets his powers, he starts to think of himself as courageous. why wouldn’t he? he’s the motherfckn earthwarder!!

malachite: has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

when joshua was eight years old, he got to take the class pet, elmo the hamster, home for the weekend. he got caught up playing the latest pokemon game, neglected it, and it died. the teacher had a hamster prepared as back up, but joshua still feels intensely guilty about it. in fact, it’s one of those things that he remembers randomly that really depresses him.

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↪ Internet browsing activities, ♆ The worst kind of neighbor they could have, and how they deal with them, ☆ How they’d throw parties (what would go on at them, refreshments, etc) (JOSHUA)

↪ internet browsing activities

joshua spends a lot of time on the internet doing a ton of things. he’s on reddit, he’s on dungeons and dragons community boards, he’s on twitch, he’s on steam message boards, he streams a lot of tv (mostly anime,) tumblr where he follows fantasy, scifi, and anime blogs. he’s a fifteen year old boy so, porn. 

♆ the worst kind of neighbor they could have, and how they deal with them

the worst kind of neighbor for joshua would probably be a neighborhood/school bully. joshua wouldn’t mind going outside, and has been known to larp, but if he had a bully for a neighbor, he’d be a hermit and only go out when he wasn’t alone or he was sure the bully wasn’t around. he wouldn’t do anything about it, but he would have endless fantasies about being like the heroes he admires, like his DnD character, and standing up for himself. after powering up for real, he would feel confident enough to confront him (and probs  get his ass kicked)

☆ how they’d throw parties (what would go on at them, refreshments, etc)

he considers the gaming sessions he invites his friends to parties, so that involves tons of gaming, lots of anime, a lot of arguing over whatever controversial plot point or character, and fantasizing about coming out on top in life eventually. they aren’t the goonies, their time isn’t now. their time is gonna be in thirty years when they’re tech billionaires. the menu would include  cheeto puffs, twizzlers, sour patch kids, mtn dew, coke, and frozen chicken nuggets and pizza.

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▀ What they’d hide under the bed, ♜ Interior decorating aesthetic, ✓ What a typical Tuesday night looks like (MAYU)

▀ what they’d hide under the bed

horse toys. she was def a horse girl when she was younger, so she has tones of horse figures and dolls. she got to ride a horse for her thirteenth birthday. unfortunately, it threw her and she broke her wrist. she’s not really afraid of horses persay, but she does feel deeply betrayed by them. they were her favorite animal. now she’s a fan of the peacock mantis shrimp, but they don’t make toys of it.

♜ Interior decorating aesthetic

once upon a time her room was decorated like a ranch, very much like jesse’s emily in toy story 2 (that shit still makes me cry. and mayu.) but since her thirteenth birthday she’s been slowly making it a more “adult” space, with the goal of making it the perfect place to study. her interior decorating aesthetic is probably minimalistic, with splashes of colors here and there. very chic, but when you’re seventeen with a small allowance and no job, it just means you hide your stuff in your closet.

✓ What a typical Tuesday night looks like

tuesdays are volleyball nights! mayu plays volleyball for the school JV team as libero. actually, she has volleyball three nights a week, a game on fridays, debate club, spanish club, and indigenous peoples club other nights. any down time (even while at practice or in meetings) is spent studying.

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colorful headcanons.

( send me a copic color for a headcanon )

frost blue: does your muse enjoy the snow and cold? or are they the type to enjoy summer more?

peacock blue: is your muse honest? what sorts of lies do they tell, if not?

lapis lazuli: does your muse prefer the idea of exploring the depths of the oceans, or the boundless expanses of space more?

reddish brass: how likely is your muse to step up and take the role of a leader? are they willing to take the challenge, or are they more apt to being a follower?

burnt umber: how stable is your muse, mentally and/or emotionally?

champagne: does your muse drink (alcohol)? are they a heavy drinker, if so?

tea orange: what is something that your muse is fascinated with?

malachite: has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

olive: is your muse prone to feeling envious of others? if yes, what is it that they typically feel envious over?

vermillion: is your muse courageous, or would they consider themselves to be more of a coward?

coral: what is your muse's romantic and sexual orientations?

bougainvillaea: would your muse consider themselves as blunt, or do they beat around the bush instead?

currant: what's something that absolutely disgusts your muse (can be a person, place, thing, ect)?

crimson: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

raspberry: what food and/or drink can your muse not get enough of? do they indulge in it often, or is it something reserved for special occasions?

baby blossoms: does your muse have a favorite scent? what is it, and why?

mallow: what sorts of things might remind your muse of those close to them? any scents, objects, sounds?

aubergine: does your muse prefer the day, or are they more of a night-owl?

acacia: how much does it take for your muse to hate someone?

cadmium yellow: what subjects or topics does your muse avoid, because they bring up harmful / painful memories?

honey: when your muse loves someone (whether it be romantic, platonic, or familial love), how do they show it?

chartreuse: if you had to describe your muse with a color, what color would it be and why?

anise: when it comes to self-care, what does your muse do to take care of themselves? do they take care to spend time on it, or do they feel they don't deserve it?

new leaf: what message would your muse send to their past self, if any?

moss: how easily does your muse adapt to any new situations they're thrust into?

silk: does your muse care about appearances much? do they spend a lot of time on their own appearance, or do they just go with the flow each day?

sanguine: does your muse typically have an optimistic, pessimistic, or some middle ground outlook on life?

atoll: if your muse could go anywhere, without any restrictions whatsoever, where would they go? why would they go there?

cool grey: if your muse could ensure one thing for certain in their future to come, what would it be?

black: does your muse have a 'bucket list?' list some things your muse wants to accomplish before they die.

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